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Ok lang ako - Parokya ni Edgar (Crazy Little thing called Love)

2011-10-15T18:41:00.000-07:00

Dreams do come true just believe in it and reach for the stars.

Parokya ni Edgar- "Pangarap Lang kita feat. Happy Sy" [Official Music Vi...

2011-10-15T17:56:00.000-07:00

Dreams do come true just believe in it and reach for the stars.

YES I'm Done with my Final Defense

2011-10-08T03:37:00.000-07:00

I'm back here. I wish I could be blogging again. I'm just so happy that I'm done with my final defense I'm fixing my book for my final revision. I'm so thankful that finally I'm done with it. I won't be able to have make it without God and the significant people in my life. I would like to thank my family who were very supportive to me, my relatives , my friends, my Single for Christ sister and brothers, my co-teachers, and to my special kids in my life my pupils. Life has to go on to find new path after graduation. I don't know which path to choose but I'm on my way in finding it. Wish me luck. (",)

PEACE!

2011-07-18T06:33:00.001-07:00

I'm so tired already but I just couldn't figure it out why I still have the strength to go on and move on with life. Maybe because God wills that I have to stay strong in spite of all the things I'm going through right now. I still wish people is going to stop hurting me. I'm tired of being affected with all these people. I should not be listening to them but they keep on bothering me now for months. I'm hopeful that they are going to stop it and starting to accept everything. I hope not too soon. Just got to go with the flow and just be it. I just got to continue to smile and let things be. I hope I could still endure all things I'm going through right now. i know I'm not alone and God is here for me. I just hated when people is measuring and testing my patience otherwise I could be just doing the things they want me to do. I promise myself not to do it and that is to fight back or lose my temper. I just got to stay in control and just doing everything the best that I could. As long as I'm not hurting and stepping on others rights I continue to move on and fulfill my mission. Life has to go on no matter what happens

Reflection

2011-07-17T00:02:00.000-07:00

This school year is the most challenging year for me. For the fact that I have a new set of pupils from a fast learner 2 class. I don't want to handle such group but I was given the task to handle them. I'm kinda bit pressured since people in school have a lot of expectation from me. I'm so scared honestly because I might fail their expectation but as time and days went by I realized that I should not be scared or worried about it as long as I'm doing my job, I'm doing my best as a teacher and I didn't hurt anybody or step on their people's right I should not be shaken then. I got hurt when they speak something that would hurt my feelings, but that is their opinion I should respect their opinion otherwise I would die of heart attack or cancer perhaps. I just got to do my job and do it perfectly as it should be. I'm just human I got hurt and I commit mistakes. I just hope that people would stop talking and judging me as if they are gods. I know myself.I know what I'm doing and in everything that I do there is a purpose and reason. I hope that these people would realize that what they are doing to me is wrong. It's ok I just got to forgive them and just take everything they say as a challenge for me to do better, to stand out from the rest, and to be the best teacher there is. Have a happy day my friend. (",)

New Chapter

2011-05-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I was sharing my thoughts here. I got so busy because of my thesis. I'm finally done with my thesis proposal defense I'm looking forward in finishing my thesis this semester. Please do pray for my final defense and hopefully graduate this March 2012. I'm so thankful of the blessings that God has given to me. I hope that whatever happens I could surpass everything and be the best that I could. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Awesome Reflection

2011-04-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone. I'm back how are u my friend? I'm so filled with a lot of wisdom today I learned about the death of Jesus. Jesus suffer because of His decision to love us and We are not save because of His sufferings and pain but we are save because of His great love for us. If people suffer it's because we choose to love but what is important is not the pain and suffering that we experience but the intensity of love that give. There are three things we need to put in mind and do first is to get closer to God, believe in Him and to always communicate with Him, second is to hold on to God to never give up on life and third is to hold on tight that as if we only depend on Him. Have faith in Him my friend because He will never leave us alone and He will never allow us to carry our cross if we cannot bear it. Every pain and sufferings we experience has a purpose. These will help us to become a better person and to make us more stronger to face life's challenges. Have a blessed day my friend (",)

Reflection of the Day

2011-02-01T03:29:00.000-08:00

I wanted to feel happy but its just that I can't find the feeling to be happy. I feel so empty just wanted to sleep and do nothing at all. It's the first day of the month and the sun is not showing up here. It makes me more lazy and gloomy. School is fine today it's just that I'm also aware that I feel like there is something missing in it. I need to give more effort and give my very best because I knew I could still do more maybe I'm just so tired of what I have been through. I realized that I'm always thinking of myself I failed to think of others and I failed to think of the people around me who cares for me and who will always be there to support me. I've been selfish all these time. I need to pull up myself and stop that habit or else I will lose everything that I got and I'll be letting go of the things that I'm holding onto now. I got to change my ways and start to live a new life. I should feel happy, contented and secure. I guess I need a lot of fixing and have that emotional make over too. I hope I could do it. I will try hard for it. Wish me luck. Have a nice day my friend. (",$

Today

2011-01-31T02:15:00.000-08:00

It was a rainy day today. I never saw the sun and until this very moment the rain is still pouring down from the sky. I got somehow a not so good day today but I have just resolve a very crucial issue in school. Quite tiring and draining but that's the way it should be. I'm glad it's over now I hope that it never happen ever again. I know that it is God's plan and I hope everything will be fine now. I wonder if there is a low pressure area here in our place. I hope the rainy will stop tomorrow I just miss the sun. Life has to go on no matter what. Have a blessed day my friend.

Worrying is No Good

2011-01-29T02:51:00.000-08:00

Just imagine how we look like when something is bothering us inside. When we worry we put all ourselves into a difficult situation. Our body will be affected and our moods as well as our relationship with others. Worry can make one sick, it can waste our energy and make us stagnant. I've been fighting to stop worrying yet when that terrible phenomenon happens in me, I got so shaken,confused and upset. I just got to put my trust in God. Everything happens for a reason and He is in charge of everything. I have nothing to do but to keep on believing that things will get better soon. I wish someone could give me a happy pill that would lift my spirit but I just got to go with the flow because when things happens it happens and I must got to co-operate with the inevitable. Accept the thing that happened then to courageously face the reality and to just let it go like it never happened at all. Have a worry-free weekend friend.

Trust in God

2011-01-28T04:46:00.000-08:00

I don't know how to describe my feelings but I don't have plans to figure it out anyway. Feels like everything is falling apart but I don't have to worry no more what happens, happens. My cousin honey once said that we can't change the past but we can ruin the present by worrying about the future. I just got to think of the worst things that might happen and accept the consequences I have to give it up to God. He is in charge of everything. I need to just let things be. Just got to put all my trust on Him. There is no need for me to be afraid of what will happen otherwise I'll end up six feet under hehehe. I just have to blow it in the wind. Every rain has a rainbow and every pain there is a time to heal. My head aches too much if I think a lot. I better think of happy thoughts that will divert myself from thinking of the bad things that is happening right now. I never give up on life no matter what. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Notice My Article For September

2011-01-27T03:51:00.000-08:00

Last September 8, I was already sick that time. I could still remember I was brought to the hospital weeks after that. That was September 21, 2010. I really didn't expect that to happen, but i got no choice but to accept the fact that I'm really sick. Eversince then I keep silent and I just let things be. It was so hard yet I was able to recover that fast. It was a three months adjustment to the situation I'm in. From changing of my food choices, taking up medicines and to losing weight was a bit depressing at first but as time goes by, I was able to cope with the things I'm going through but I realized that I have more strength right now than I have before. I'm stronger and even more a fighter than I was before. Things are going smoothly right now problems are still there and adjustments as well. I'm holding on as i always did to the one that is greater than me and that is GOD. I put all my trust in Him and I always bear in my mind that I shall never, ever give up. Have a nice day my friend.

School Blues

2011-01-26T02:04:00.000-08:00

I've been so relax this past two weeks since there is no tutorial sessions last two Saturdays. This week tutorials is resume. I got to report to school this Saturday. I have no problem going to school but what I'm thinking now is that this week our principal is trying to have her classroom observation. I'm kinda nervous about it but I just got to prepare for it or else I'll end up miserable. I hope not. I'm done with some of my requirements in school as well as updating records. I hope I could finish computing the grades. Life is ok now. I just got to stay positive everyday and do my very best in my work. Have a nice day my friend.

Science Process Skills

2011-01-22T02:43:00.001-08:00

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Update

2011-01-12T01:13:00.000-08:00

I've been silent for months still on the process of healing my depression. Good news I already lose weight. I can wear all the clothes that don't fit before. My uniform is already lose and I had the hard time wearing it now. I need to adjust and do repairs. Funny but true I don't eat as much as I eat before. It's been almost four months now since I have eaten chocolates, ice cream and my all time favorite foods. I miss eating a lot but I need to lose more weight for my pneumonia and asthma. I'm tired of going to the hospital and have a four days vacation for my antibiotics. I'm tired also of spending all my money for my medication. I need that money for my thesis and for my final defense soon. I hope I could stay healthy this year and reach my ideal weight. Hopefully Have a nice day my friend

My Ear Surgery

2011-01-12T00:49:00.000-08:00

I got my ear tube now in my right ear. The operation went well but I still can't forget how painful it was. Pass is pass anyway It's already done i can't undone what happen I hope I did the right decision. I just realized that is but natural to feel pain because anyway pain is part of life. It's now gone what is important is that I can now hear and my ear is now protected. I got a busy week but I still manage to smile and do my task in school. Hopefully the school building will be done anytime this month. Our schedule will be back to normal. I'm happy if that happens I could extend my time do my remedial session for the slow pupils. I wish to help them.

Changes

2010-12-21T19:19:00.000-08:00

It's been months since I've been writing articles for my blog. I'm been very busy lately with the new schedule in school I got to sleep early as 8pm unlike before I could sleep late as 3am. I need to wake up early as 4am because I need to be in school at 5am and the class starts at 6am and ends at 2pm. My pupils are very good for they are cooperating to the new schedule we got. They got more active in class. I discover that they like the new schedule. Now since the schedule I have a lot of time to research for my thesis. I got to go to places I wanted after class like paying the bills, do the grocery at home and have more quality time with my niece. It's Christmas vacation I don't have anything to do except doing the household chores and preparing for my minor surgery this Monday. I hope everything will be fine. Imagine last Monday I found out that my right ear has a mild hearing loss. I'm not so affected about the doctor's findings I'm just bothered of how painful it is to go through a minor surgery. I'm going to be strong for this. I've been fighting for pneumonia since September this is just one battle I need to win. Advance Merry Christmas everyone.

My Burden

2010-09-08T03:44:00.000-07:00

Wow! my school project which is the grills gate for my comfort room was already done last July even though not all kids were able to pay their contribution. I'm quite sad these days because the project that our school requires is a dental trough. Honestly, I'm not that rich but I have enough money to spend for the project but what I got so angry was that i have my comfort room repaired, it so happen that the guys who repaired my comfort room swindled me for 1500php. I could have use the money for building my dental trough. It pains me so much that thinking I never cheated on anybody. I have asked then what have I done to deserve this. As always everything happens for a reason. I got a hard time thinking where could I possibly get money for building up my dental trough. I could sensed that parents would have a burden paying again for another project since we already got the original project for the PTA. I hope I could get over this. All I did was to offer it to the poor souls in the purgatory. I have to stop worrying or else it would make my depression worst.Well at least now, I could manage myself because I always try to shift my mood. I try to hold on to those happy thoughts that I could think of. What surprises me was that I got emotional whenever I could see sad scenes in the movie (even cartoon movies that would show a slightly sentimental scene like for example the movie UP from Disney-Pixar), I cry when I hear sad stories and I get easily affected on depressing situation. I got confused why I'm feeling that way well at least I'm aware of it. Shifting my thoughts will help me lessen the heartaching and depressing feeling I feel inside. I just have to think that Christ's sufferings is more painful than the pain I'm feeling inside. I got maybe just a small spot of ache compared to the pain he have experienced when he died on the cross.I know God will help me get through with this. I will transcend to this situation. This too shall pass. To Madz and Paulo thank you very much for the encouragement. God bless you.

Work,Work and Work ......

2010-09-07T05:02:00.000-07:00

I got a lot of work today. They all have been piled up for weeks now. I hope I could catch all the deadlines. I wish I'm a super girl who could make things possible in just one snap of a finger. I feel so old now eversince June I felt that everyday I'm got irritated of noise and those children who have attitude problem in school. Inspite of all the changes i was blessed with a nice batch of kids. They are really understanding and cooperative. They are mature and they can cope with a lot of pressure in school. I finally decided not to file a leave. I just got to endure the pain in my back. I will not give up as long as I got all the power ups and energy to stay. I will have to fight for it. Sometimes I would think of changing my mind but as what I have always notice that there is a voice inside me that is telling me to stay. I don't know all I ever wanted was that I'll be the best teacher there is and that when I face God, He'll be proud of me that when I'm still here I have done my job well. I wish I have more power ups and energy to go on with my mission. Have a wonderful day my friend.

Back on Track

2010-08-31T15:19:00.000-07:00

I have been silent for about a month now. I got sick for almost one month. Good news was that I didn't miss any class at all because even if I'm not feeling well I still have the strength to pull myself up and manage to live normally as I should. I find it hard to work when I feel the pain inside me but I have forced myself to endure the pain in my back just to attend my class and be present. I promise myself from the very start that in this school year I will never have to file for a leave just because I'm not feeling well. Indeed I was present the whole time but I was shocked when I saw in my payslip that I was deducted for a one day absent. I don't understand why that happens but they told me it was a deduction from my last absent last school year 2009-2010. I don't know if that applies to it but one of these days I will visit the office and ask the secretary. Anyway, My class is ok they are very good and cooperative. I feel blessed to have kids like these batch. It inspires me do my best as a teacher. I am now well adjusted to the new time schedule but in a few weeks we need to adjust again to the another new schedule our class will start at 12:00nn and ends at 6:00pm due to the renovation and repairs of some classrooms. I like that schedule I would have a lot of time sleeping and preparing visual aids for my lesson. Life is too tough these days I need to decide if I'm going to file a leave or not for six months. I feel exhausted working with having a back pain although right now I feel a little better unlike before. I hope i'll be fine now. Have a happy day. (",)

I'm Speechless

2010-07-30T22:19:00.000-07:00

I have nothing to say. I guess I'm just too tired of our activity yesterday. We celebrated the culminating activity for the celebration of the Nutrition month. The class prepared a fruit salad. Everybody was excited and happy yesterday and they are all full. Kids love playing as always I let them play yesterday because we didn't have a formal class. They have so much fun and I just watch them running and playing outside the classroom. This batch of kids are different from last year they are obedient and they have this sense of responsibility. They have the heart and they take their studies seriously but of course there are still kids who I call baby. I have a pupil who is very intelligent. She is really good and show interest in her study. The thing that makes me so worried was she is different from her classmates. She got this behavioral problem. She easily gets irritated, she always wanted to be notice at and she changes moods once in awhile. Honestly, I have the hard time dealing with her but I always see to it that I will not appear as a bad teacher to her. I continue to help her out of her problem. The one thing I feel disappointed with is that she is really good, she got all the brains, beauty and talent to show yet because of her attitude she appears to be a failure because when she got her tantrums everything is ruin and what is hard is that she don't easily let go of her frustration and anger. She would prolong the burden and the hate she felt. I wish I could help her out since I'm going to be with her for ten months probably I could adjust to her attitude and help her resolve her unsolve issues in life. I'm seeking help and cooperation with her classmates maybe it would help her in anyway. This is my mission that I need to accomplish for this year aside from finishing my mahiwagang thesis. I wish God will help me. I'm sure He will. Have a happy weekend my friend.

My Blues

2010-07-16T08:43:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I feel so sad.I've been keeping everything since summer. I think I need to see someone who could help me out of this chains I'm in. My class is fine. They are all good and I have set a boundary to let them know that I'm their teacher and they have to respect me or else if I don't in the end we will end up being like buddies which I think it is not good. School is telling me to join the ranking for a new promotions and position but I feel I'm not yet ready for a very big and difficult task to perform. I'm focusing now with my thesis proposal I'm not that real serious about it but my classmates told me that our dean and my mentor is always looking for me to finish and have my thesis proposal defense. I feel like i'm so trap really in a maze. I'm also kind of nervous because I knew that no matter how hard it is I have to go through with all of the pressures and difficulties in order for me to finish my thesis. I hope I could end this mission this year it's been a more than a decade now I need to end this. Life is quite focus now in school I wish I could balance everything. Have a nice day my friend.

My New Class

2010-07-02T08:28:00.000-07:00

Hi I miss blogging for so very long. I've been busy lately. I'm having fun with my new batch of pupils. I kinda like them. I wish that these kids will be the best batch I will ever had. They are very energetic, talented and most especially they have pure talent and self-confidence. I like this batch. They are different. They love to sing, act and dance. They are very enthusiastic in almost all of the activities I'm giving them. I just hope they will continue to be like who they are now. I don't like to go through hardships of adjusting to their changing behavior. The new schedule is kinda a bit difficult at first. I got a hard time adjusting to it but as time passed by I got use to it. Our schedule for this school year was different from last school year if before we have one hour break now we don't we only have twenty minutes break for our lunch. Kids have to take their lunch inside their classroom. The best part was we go home early. Kids have no chance of going around the campus and wasting their time chatting, playing and cutting classes in a day. There is a least chance for kids to be absent in a half day. Have a happy weekend to all.

Philippine Independence Day

2010-06-12T19:13:00.001-07:00

When I was young I used to take part of the celebration of the Philippine Independence Day. In this day I usually go to the park and watch activities such as the flag raising, variety show and the parade. There are lots flags all over the city and to each houses. There is one giant flag in our park. In school we create our own Philippine flag and post it outside the classroom. Our teacher even taught us how to sang the National Anthem well and understand the meaning of the song and she also taught us the value of patriotism and recall to us about how our national heroes fought for our country for our freedom.This day marks the beginning of freedom and that our Filipino heroes showed and proved to us that we can do it. We must love and protect our country and give peace to each and everyone of us. Let us not waste all the things that our heroes have done for us. Mabuhay and Happy Independence Day to all.

Back to school

2010-06-06T09:15:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow is the first day of enrolment in our school. I'm sure some kids are excited now to go back to school, some kids still wanted to have extended vacation and some kids unfortunately have no chance of going to school due to some problems or perhaps they wanted to do something rather than going to school sad but true. I wish that all kids here in the Philippines will have the chance to go to school. In fact they do have the chance it's just that they have the choice to go to school or not. I have no idea who will be my pupils for this school year. We are going to divide the kids according to their general average grade. I wanted to have mature, responsible, obedient, diligent, respectful and behave pupils. I will not complain if they are not so intelligent what matters is that they have good attitudes. I wish also that I will have the best class there is. I'm not handling the first section class or what they call the fast learners class but I hope I could make a big change and difference to the kids I'll be handling this year. It's hard but I'm going to try. As long as my kids will cooperate and do their best to stand out from the rest they will surely grow and become better individuals. I guess have to wait and see. Have a happy day my friend.

Powerful Mind

2010-06-01T18:01:00.000-07:00

Some people always think that there are some things that is hard to achieve without trying it. Our mind is very powerful. If we think positive and we are determine of the things we wanted to happen that we really happen and if also worked for it and aim to achieve. Obstacles are normal barriers we meet along the way these are only things that strengthen us and give us the clue that we must do good and learn from what we are going through. Believe in yourself, think positive and always keep the faith. Have a happy day my friend.

Smart Communications-Brigada Eskwela 2010

2010-05-25T16:05:00.000-07:00

The SMART COMMUNICATION helped Camaman-an Elementary school for this school year 2010-2011 brigada eskwela. They painted two school rooms and clean it as well. They were 25 smart employees and on the job trainees who volunteered to spend their time and effort in making our brigada eskwela a successful one. We are so happy and lucky that our school was chosen among all the different schools in Cagayan de Oro city. To the SMART COMMUNICATION thank you very much for all the help you extended to our school. God bless us all.

Sci-Dama-Water Patrol Clinic

2010-05-20T08:53:00.000-07:00

It's been days since I blog. I just don't feel like sharing my thoughts. I've been pressured with my thesis and finally I'm working on not just my page one but with my chapter one yehey! I couldn't believe it but I'm almost done with chapter one. I attended a sci-dama clinic today. I'm not really good in sci-dama. It's my first time to join. The mechanics of the game is that each chips have different numbers on it then on the board there are two mathematical operations the more chips eaten with a more numbers to be added or scores the most lose the game but the few numbers added and less scores will win the game. Funny, I'm the only one in our school who join the clinic. I feel so alone I have to reach out with other participants. Fortunately some teachers from other schools accepted me in their group. I'm not used to join in grouping i'm ok being alone. In fact I don't have "barkadas" to hang out and chat with. I can live without a companion. The thing that I love being alone is that I feel I'm free and that I could do anything I ever wanted without anyone who bothers me. No man is an island anyway I still reach out and search for real friends. I hope someday I will find them. It's really a miracle because I won 2nd place in the sci-dama competition in the teacher's category. It was hard and I almost got the 1st place it's ok. I'm so happy and not only that, I also found new friends.

"Don't Stop Believing" - Glee - cover

2010-05-18T10:18:00.000-07:00

I love this song. This is the version of Sam Tsui real cool song. Do listen to it.

Election Aftermath

2010-05-18T09:20:00.000-07:00

Election is already over. We are on our way to a new start. Millions of banners, leaflets, billboards and ads were all left on he streets. People were all curious who won the election. It was raining in here in Cagayan de Oro City last election day. There were still a lot of voters who wasn't able to vote because of the slow process since three precincts were clustered to one. My co-teachers experience election using the hi-technology machine for voting. They asked me why was I not able to serve and be a part of history? the only answer I could give was I wanted to experience how it feels to be part of the long line, meet new friends and get acquainted with our neighbors which I don't get to meet and talk everyday, watch the news and latest happenings on TV and most especially to see the real action in the outside world. I may have partly regretted why I was not able to serve in the election for the fact that there will be incentives and leave credits given to us teachers but I know that if I was there I could get sick and tired. I can't afford to get sick anymore what is important is that I have done my part by casting my vote and elect the candidates who I believe has all the capacity to take care of us and our country. The leaders that we must have chosen are the ones who have the big heart to beat for all of us, The one have a well shape brain who could think of brilliant ideas to make our country progress and prosperous, The one who have big ears to listen to all our problems and understand and be sensitive of the needs of each and everyone of us, The one who have hands that is hardworking and ready to help and serve us, and The one who have clean conscience and clean intentions in serving us without any hatred and issues in life that are yet to be solve. We are all human and we are not perfect. We are capable to make mistakes. The President and the rest of other officials are not magicians who could instantly solve our problems they just serve as our guide and leaders therefore we must do our responsibility as citizen in our country. Let's stop blaming, fighting and backstabbing each other what we need to do is to help each other build a better nation. Be models to the youth, be honest in all transactions, take care of our environment, stop the crab mentality, and most especially we must be loyal to each other. It is time for us to unite and be one. A broken nation is not a good example to our children. All of us wanted a big change in our country. If we need change it must start from within us. It must be a totally conversion. Ako ang simula sa pagbabago. Pagbabago na hinde lamang sa isip, sa salita kundi pati na rin sa gawa. We can never achieve the change that we long for if we don't change our ways and our attitude. This change must come from within us. It must be from the heart. We must be together and join hands in changing our country. It is not yet too late to do something. Besides this is our country who else could help us but we ourselves as citizens in our nation. Each and everyone of us has the our own roles to play even young kids can do their share. Let's not forget that we are all connected to each other. United we stand divide we fall. Let's take the challenge now before it is too late. We can do it. I believe we can do it.

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-08T23:47:00.001-07:00

With just a simple thought moms will be very happy to be remembered today. I don't have much surprise to my mother but I could just hug her and tell that I love her. Show much you love your mom today. Happy Mother's Day to all the moms all over the world.

I'm here

2010-05-08T09:30:00.001-07:00

I'm back here in Cagayan de Oro. I attended the wedding ceremony of my cousin in Manila last week. I got a lot of fun bonding with my cousins. I wish to stay longer but I got a lot of work to do here that is ok even for a short time I got to be with them. We went to Ocean park Manila, Luneta Park, Malls, and attended mass in University of the Philippines chapel. I learn a lot of things there. My cousins encourage me to lose weight and inspire me that I can do that easily. They give me tips to lose weight and the best was to really exercise and quit sleeping. It is so hard to quit sleeping because I love to sleep and sleeping is one of my favorite activity of the day. I have to do this. This is for my own good. I'm starting to feel discomforts and palpitations due to my big pounds of weight. I hope I won't fail.

Activities of the Week

2010-04-26T06:14:00.000-07:00

Last week we have just started our Summer Reading Camp. I don't know really if I'm going to be excited about all these because for me it is was a surprised announcement from the principal's office. I don't have any choice but to join and serve anyway. I handle some interested incoming grade four pupils. I was kind a bit uncomfortable since I'm not really feeling well until now but I just got to attend this camp. The only thing that keeps me coming back is that the kids are very enthusiastic to learn. They got the energy that inspires me to be present everyday. I'm happy to know that there are still a bunch of kids that are willing to learn and to improve their skills in reading. Last Saturday I attended a seminar about labor laws with my former classmates in the graduate school. I feel so sad knowing I'm still hanging in my thesis proposal. Oh! come on my mentor change my topic for the third time and I guess I am to be blame for not working on it for a long time. I know I will have my time. I think I'm just as if doing something to complete it this thesis but honestly I'm still in page one still trying hard to find the right words to write. Please do pray for me thanks. Have a nice day my friends.

Love the Earth

2010-04-22T09:42:00.000-07:00

It is Earth day but it seems that the earth is not rejoicing today. The temperature is so warm and I feel that mother earth is trying to tell me that she is angry. Yes, I feel the heat that penetrates in my skin it's like fire submerge in my skin. I'm so sad to celebrate the earth day but I'm not losing hope that again if we join hands we could save the earth now. Let's start to do the cure now. We only got one planet and there are no more other places for us to live except here. Happy Earth Day to all of us. Let's be aware and continue to love our home after all we are the ones who live here not the other beings. Have a happy hot summer.

Ezra Band Girl Vocalist with differently abled Pianist from Pilipinas Got Talent

2010-04-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

This is truly amazing and inspiring. Nothing is impossible if we try and never stop believing.

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

2010-04-16T10:27:00.000-07:00

Dreams do come true just believe in it and reach for the stars. I love this song it inspires me to go on with my thesis writing. I know I've been prolonging my agony in finishing it but I know that everything happens in the right time. Whatever happens I will never stop until I'm going to finish this battle. Good day my friends.

Good News

2010-04-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

I finally got to see my mentor today the sad thing was I need to change my topic from thinking skills to Science awareness. It's okay I guess this new topic will be much easier than the previous topic. I need to research and read more books about environmental issues that is happening around us. I just hope I could finish my thesis proposal this summer so that I could have my defense this first semester. I'm tired of thinking of this unfinish business in school. I hoping that I will graduate by next year. Please do pray for me.

Wacky Weather

2010-04-13T00:22:00.000-07:00

I don't understand the weather today. When I went out of the house it started to rain but when I'm on my way to school the sun started to shine so brightly that I feel so irritated. The weather changes just as my mood changes too. When I'm done working in school it started to rain again. I wish that this tricky weather would stop playing on us. It also does change our plans of the day. I strongly believe that mother nature is really sick this time. I guess she is now letting us know and feel that we need to do something to solve global warming. Let's act now or else it will be too late. Doing this it should start within me like I should throw my garbage in the right place, minimize the use of air conditioners instead use fan, check products it should be environmental friendly, recycle things that could be converted to other use, reduce garbage, segregate garbage from non-biodegardable materials to biodegradable materials, avoid burning things, plant more trees and reuse the things that could still be use. It is a challenge to each and everyone of us to cure this sick planet. Act now my friends.

Just Another Day

2010-04-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

I slept in the morning and when I woke up I did my household chores. My problem is that I still feel bored of my life. I have nothing to do. I wanted to do things that will keep me alive. I wanted to finish my thesis proposal but I don't know why I just can't move. I feel so helpless this time. I wanted to ask for help but I have no one to turn to. I wanted to lose weight this summer but at the back of my head I think it takes a lot of effort and hard work to lose weight but it seems like we always got a celebration here. Nanay prepares delicious foods like crabs, shrimps, adobo, and grilled fish. Almost everyday it is like living in a hotel with great food preparation. I guess nanay is testing me to have my self-control and discipline. I still didn't start with my plan like walking in the sports center or perhaps join a modern dance class just for fun. I don't have much time to waste I need to move or else it will be too late. I need to act now and let go of whatever fears and insecurities I'm feeling. Now, I realized that maybe I can't move because I dwell in the dark side of things and all the frustrating things I am experiencing right now. I need to have the courage in order for me to pursue my goals and for me to achieve them. I need to pray more I know God listens and God will help me.

Power Dressing

2010-04-11T03:36:00.000-07:00

My dresses are design and handpicked clothes by my mother. When I went to the wedding of my friend all my former classmates told me that the kind of clothes I wear are old fashions. I wear a slacks and a pink blouse. In my opinion wearing that clothes is not a problem. In dressing up I don't have much concern in the style but I go for where I am comfortable with. In my six years in the public school I tried really to look decent and at least not a bad dresser in school. I admit I don't have much dress as I could have since I'm not actually a fashion trendy. I only buy clothes if it is necessary and urgent. I don't buy but I went to a shop to have it sewed for me. My classmates suggested me to wear those clothes they term it "flirty clothes" a clothes that is above the knee skirt or more shorter, a sleeveless body fit blouse and a more colorful clothes. There is no wrong in their suggestion, I'm not offended of what they said and I'm not bothered at all. I just wanted to let them know that If I wore those clothes it will not be me anymore because I am not comfortable wearing those clothes. Trying new things also is not bad but for sure I'm not ready to wear those kind of clothes maybe someday.

Vacation Blues

2010-04-07T09:32:00.000-07:00

Hi friends I had a long vacation here in Cagayan de Oro and I attended a wedding ceremony yesterday in Medina, Misamis Oriental. It was the wedding of my friend Delia and her fiance. I had a greatest time in my life. The place is so peaceful, it a cool climate and there is no brown out in their place. I love to stay if I have the chance to choose I would probably make that place be one of the choices to pick. In my journey there, I witness a person who live her life alone ever since her husband died now that her successful children have their own lives. I felt that she is lonely but the she told us that the thing that helps her survive is singing. It is the music that lifts her soul and makes her happy. She had a great voice. I'm just glad that in her loneliness she had a way to divert it. In her loneliness she gain friends. I felt her sadness yet I believe that it is in our decision relies on what we are going to feel. Indeed I admire her of her courage and strength to live alone. Someday I wish I will not be alone.

Earth Hour

2010-03-27T02:30:00.000-07:00

Ironically today there is no brown out but we are going to take part with the Earth hour. For a few minutes the whole lights in the house will be turn off. It is better this way at least it is one way of showing that we have to save the earth. Imagine in the primitive times where there is no electricity people could still live a comfortable life even though they are just using fire as their light. Technology is continually progressing. It's like a disease that spread out fast without any cure. People are more creative and innovative in discovering and creating new things. There is no wrong in progressing but one thing we should remember that in creating something it must be good and environmental friendly. We only got one planet what if this planet will die and we will be destroy? Where will we live? We better save the Earth before it is too late. Save the earth. Do something that will help heal our planet. Let's join together my friend before it is too late.

Yehey! I'm done.

2010-03-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

Finally, I'm done with my paper works in school. I still got more papers to accomplish but at least the most important paper is done already. I have to accomplish everything for me to get cleared. I'm not going to serve in the election but I'm going to join the census team this May. I have all the time to accomplish also my thesis proposal. I get so tired this whole week I did nothing but to check all the forms I need to fill up. I'm so sleepy. Got to go now. God bless you

I'm here

2010-03-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

I've been busy lately trying to figure out how to get out of the things I wanted to avoid. I think this will never end not until I put an end to this. All I wanted to tell you all is that I'm going through something. I don't know how to get out of it yet I'm trying to. Anyway, today we have our get together with our co-teacher who is retiring from the service. Imagine for 35 straight years she devoted herself in teaching and sharing her life to the kids she handled. I salute her of her patience, endurance, love and humility in our profession. I wish i could reach as far as 30 years in staying and surviving as a teacher. Life as a teacher is not that easy. It needs a lot of strength, courage and guts to stay. Staying means allowing oneself to grow and open to new learnings in life. I wonder if I could survive more than 30 years I hope so. Take care my friend.

Temperature Rising

2010-03-12T07:38:00.000-08:00

It's really hot in here. I feel like I'm melting. I feel uncomfortable with the heat. I just have to adopt to these changes or else I will end up complaining and miserable. I notice that people around me have hot temper they easily get angry and flared up like a firecrackers. I don't have much time to think of them but it is getting on my nerves we are all getting affected somehow but we just got to take things as they happen and just accept it even if it is hard. I hope everything will be in peace soon. We just give them space and time to realized everything. The most important thing is that I'm not part of their war. I want to help them out to patch up things but I just can't. I'm hoping that things will work out fine soon.

Book Report: The Selfish Giant

2010-03-10T07:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I've read a beautiful story about a selfish giant. The story goes something like this. The selfish giant has a garden full of fruits, plants, flowers and trees. The children are playing in his garden every day until he decided not to allow the children to play in his garden. He posted a "No Trespassing" sign from that day on he built a wall in his garden. As time passed by, winter came but he wonders why in his garden the seasons never change. The trees and plants are all covered with snow. One day he heard a very sweet music outside his garden when he looks out he saw children laughing and playing. He still wonders why it is winter in his garden but outside his garden is already spring. He noticed a little boy who is trying to climb up the tree but he could not reach the tree. The tree bent and told him to reach hard so that he could climb up. The giant's heart melted of what he saw. He went out and helps the child to climb up the tree the child thanked and kissed him. He then realized how selfish he was for not letting the children play in his garden. He destroyed the walls he built and welcome the children in his garden. The seasons changed. He felt the happiness he never felt before. He search for the child for had help climb the tree but the children told him that they don't know the child. He felt sad of not seeing him again. As years go by the giant never again saw that child until one day he saw him but the giant got angry because when he saw the child there are wounds and bruises in his hands and feet. He asked the child who did that to you? I will take revenge on what they did to you. Then the child answered don't be mad, I'm ok these wounds and bruises are inflicted to me with great love. Come with me in paradise. In the afternoon when the children reach the garden they saw the giant who lay peacefully in his garden covered with flowers.

Where is the light?

2010-03-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

I can't see a thing help me. I'm just joking. I feel really upset of experiencing brown out. I just got to live with it perhaps make it as a sacrifice for the poor souls in purgatory. I went out in the house without thinking that the whole block in our street is so dark yet I still manage to go home safe thank God for that. I still got more pending jobs to do. I'm thankful because I'm busy and I got a job. I always try to look into the brighter side of things now even if there are things that bothers me once in a while but it's just a part of it. These are just spices of life that makes our life more meaningful and challenging as well. I guess I got to enjoy all the brown out thing and including the warm climate. Like what I always say this too shall pass. Have a happy El Niño Phenomenon day.

The Situation To Deal With

2010-03-07T07:02:00.000-08:00

The temperature is rising due to El Niño and brown out is the latest and hottest thing we experience here in CDO. People are fond of going to malls these days, eating their favorite ice cream, washing a bunch of clothes that will easily dried up without using driers, playing in the ground and some would not stop taking a bath because of so much heat. I wish I live in the North Pole. I keep on thinking of the best way to finish my work but I can't move that fast because of the warm scenario. I can't use the electric fan since its brown out. There is a problem on the power supply here in Mindanao. Until now I'm still waiting for the rain to come. I had to make a way to use the internet since brown out just popped like a jack-o-lantern in the house. I just got to go with the flow or else I'll end up complaining and feeling miserable for the rest of the day. I just got to adjust the way things are happening around me. I got to learn to have more patience in accepting that life is not that always easy. Whatever happens I must adjust to it for me to survive and to take things as light as it should be. Summer is fast approaching and I'm looking forward to my two months vacation. I should not be thinking of that for now because I still have a lot of work to do. Bye for now. Have a wonderful day ahead.

Love the teeth

2010-03-04T06:42:00.000-08:00

I remember before when I was a kid. I always have some things that I love to do. I love to drink milk, play with my playmates and there is one thing I don't forget and that was. I always brush my teeth more than three times a day. I love to clean my mouth. I remember that I could almost consume one whole tube of tooth paste for one week. I don't know I love taking care of my teeth. Honestly there are two aches which I didn't experience and that is heartache due to break ups and toothache hehehe. I still got a healthy teeth until now. I'm thankful that I still have maintain to make my teeth healthy. The secret that I always do is that I never fail to brush my teeth everyday, I don't eat candies all the time (it's one of the rule my mother always reminded my yaya) but I eat chocolates and all the food I love to eat then after that I brush my teeth and I see to it that I have my yearly check up to my dentist. Love your teeth as I love mine. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Catching Up The Deadlines

2010-03-03T12:31:00.000-08:00

I've been very busy lately. I still have pending jobs to be done but I know I will finish all of them today. I need to keep going because the school year is almost over. I'll be more busier next week than this week. I'm ok I'm not really tired but just sleepy. The school is going to end this March 31. Some kids are excited, some are not, and some just don't care. I do make sure they are all present for the whole month of March without unreasonable absences. Teachers got their training seminar for the electronic election. I'm not going to serve this coming election. I'm afraid that my pneumonia will strike again. I won't take any chances. Hospital bills are so expensive I can't afford to be sick. I got to go for now. I miss posting my thoughts. Have a nice day

Yes I'm Happy with my work

2010-02-20T08:20:00.001-08:00

Our NSTP class area work ended today. It was so sad because it means we are saying goodbye to each other. I remember when I had my skills training for this batch of college students, I was kind of afraid that they might not listen or they might find me boring but I was wrong. They were very enthusiatic and excited for their area work. Indeed they were really good they did well in their tutorial session with the kids but of course difficulties are part of it and through that difficulties they encounter, they were able to learn how to adjust, adapt and experiment new ways how to capture the child's attention. I can relate to that because I teach kids and I work with them. Normally people get tired. Sometimes I am too inspired to do my work and sometimes not. Honestly, I get tired, frustrated and bored with my work I'm just human but I'm proud to say that I'm not giving up because giving up means I'm truly defeated. This is my mission in life and I have to fulfill it. All I can say is that I'm happy with my work. If I'm not I could have just resign, be a always absent even if I'm well and I could have always go to school super late. Everyday I tried hard to do my best for my kids and for the school. I work 6 days a week even if I had a choice just to have that 5 days of work. I recall then when I was working in a bank I really did miss the fun in school. Teaching is not only a profession but it is a vocation. I listed a lot of things that makes me happy but those things that I listed are just things I play, read, and do while I'm not working in school pretty ironic since the things I listed are the things that are not supposed to be brought in school. I make sure to relax and enjoy life to meet the balance. All work without play makes one dull and boring. Have a happy week my friend.

Ten Things That Makes Me Happy

2010-02-19T08:11:00.000-08:00

Everybody's dream is to find the real happiness. It is one of our mission in life to search for our happiness. Through this Sweet Badge I have the opportunity to share the things that makes me happy. This Sweet Friends Badge was given to me by Vernz of In This Side of Town. Thank you so much Vernz for this because it reminds me of the things that makes me happy.
Here are the Ten Things That Makes Me Happy

1. My Family/Relatives

2. My Job

3. Friends-True Friends

4. PSP

5. Computer games

6. My favorite food

7. My eyeglasses

8. Books

9. Ballpen Collections

10. Latte Gadget

I'm passing this badge of Happiness to

Have a nice day everyone!

Ms. Bright Side Award

2010-02-19T06:37:00.000-08:00

Not So Personal-madz gave me this award. Thank you very much madz for everything. You are one of my new friends here in the blog world. I wish you happiness in the world.

Instructions:
1. Give a top 10 list of the things that makes you happy.

1. books
2. computer
3. popcorn
4. chocolates
5. my old journals
6. PSP/computer games
7. Latte gadget
8. My Ballpens
9. Pizza
10.Cellphone

2. Give top 5 Trivia About Yourself

1. I'm SISA single and satisfied/NBSB no boyfriend since birth-endangered specie
2. I'm cute and chubby known as the baby in the group (innocent in tagalog tanga hahaha)
3. I love to read, sleep, eat and write anything I like.
4. I love to work with kids.
5. I'm a good cook, I love to play the guitar and My greatest dream is to work as a street educator someday.

3. Share the award with only 5 persons and ask them to do the same thing :)Now, I am passing/sharing this to:

Ate Amy
Vernz
Cookie
Gab's Mom
Scribbler

4. Link the blogs you choose and link the blog of the person awarded you.

I got dizzy thinking....

2010-02-17T07:12:00.000-08:00

Hi it's been a week. I'm so busy doing a lot of things in school. I'm ok yet tired. My nieces got sick. I also got sick but feels like it's a natural thing in me whenever I get sick I'm already numb and capable of enduring the pain I'm feeling inside. I don't entertain the pain that I'm feeling I always put in mind that it's only in the mind. Kids get so excited for summer vacation they are trying to be so relaxed in their studies. I'm trying to be a little bit firm but kind to them right now in order that they will get good grades in the fourth quarter. I think it is working. I got to pray harder and think positive about it. I'm not giving up that some of these kids will grow up and be mature enough to be responsible in their studies. I wanted them to change their attitude to become better individuals in our society. I know change is difficult but I know maybe not tomorrow but someday these kids will realized the true importance of Education in their lives and they will find the true path they should take. I wish that they will not be lost in the end. Let them decide the right decisions and teach them to choose the best choices in life. I always have a thought about this, each and every one of us are all lucky in this world, it is in our decisions and choices in life makes us hits the jackpot. We are the writer of our own story, the captain of our ship and the one who holds our life. God has given us the freedom to choose but we must always remember our limitations. We must make good decisions and best choices in life and most importantly use our freedom correctly. My kids will soon be grown up I hope they will learn everything about life.

Love is

2010-02-15T08:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was Hearts Day. My nanay and tatay had their yearly date. Me, I stayed at home and sleep all day. I was preparing also for the New Year. I stayed up late watching fireworks and just listening to some fire crackers. Some of my friends greeted me Happy Valentines Day. This made me think of some things about love. Love is a strong and a powerful thing in this world. It could hurt us, it can make us happy and above all it makes things possible no matter what. In love there is no impossible. If you have a little love in your heart be grateful because that love will save you someday but if you don't love at all in your heart it only indicates that one will become miserably unlucky in this world. Keep on loving and never get tired to give love. The more love you give the more blessings you will receive. Stay in love forever.

I'm here again

2010-02-09T07:55:00.000-08:00

I've been keeping my thoughts for days now. We are adjusting to our new madam in school. She is kind a bit different from our former madam. She radiates her energy to us enormously. New changes are quite difficult to follow. It's hard but I think I like her style. She does challenges me to do my work on time and inspires me to go to school everyday even if I'm sick. I'm not winning her heart nor making myself notice at. I just wanted to do things right even if I'm already tired. I'm almost giving up. I'm still here and I have to continue my mission and fulfill my visions in life as a teacher. When the time is finally over then I could make my decisions and make it into reality. If my calling is really for teaching then I will pursue it no matter what. This is a dream come true to me. This my life now. I know quitting is not a best option. I must face my plight or else I'll keep running way from the things that I don't want to resolve and end up being a loser and someday these things will haunt me if I will allow myself to quit and waste everything I have worked for. I know regrets will always comes at the end. Before it's late, I make sure that I have enough power ups and energy to go on- prayers and faith in God is my weapon. Have a nice day my friend.

Tired Feeling

2010-02-04T02:23:00.000-08:00

I feel so tired I don't know why to think that I didn't really do much today. The kids are naturally and normally playful as always. I don't like that I idea but its just the way they are. There are some things that I wanted to change but it's just not beyond my power. I just got to live with it or else I'm going to say goodbye to this noble job of mine. I got to stay focus on my job and do good with it. Trials, difficulties and obstacles are always a part of it. Sometimes I wanted to give up but I don't know what keeps me going. There is just something that keeps holding me back and controlling me to never ever give up. I hope I still could endure that difficulty and sacrifices I'm going through right now. As long as I'm still having that something I need to hold on to it and never ever letting go of it. God is not sleeping. I know He is always here in my side. Have a nice day my friend.

The Insane Woman

2010-01-28T05:16:00.000-08:00

Last Sunday, I attended a mass at six o'clock in the evening. I was late so I stayed outside the church. Suddenly a woman went inside the church. She was wearing a brown knitted blouse. I used to see her walking around the church. One thing that stuck me was that she is a special person yet too ordinary to be noticed at. I saw a sad person in her. I wish I could help her. She might be smiling yet looking into her eyes I saw a suffering soul within her. then I realized that I saw myself in her. I'm moved to tears. I just then realized that I am as sad as her. I felt the pain in my heart. This woman is just one ordinary person. She always goes to church almost everyday I even thought she stays in the church. She is an insane woman who escapes from the pain she is feeling inside. People escape from pain. I for one tries to get rid of it, but I believe that running away and getting rid of the problems and pain is not a solution at all. Pretending to be fine would make the pain more painful. Being blind and apathetic would make one a numb person. Acceptance, humility, forgiveness and letting go would be the best thing that I always bear in mind. Acceptance of what happen, humility to accept what happen, to forgive those who hurt me and let go of the hurtful feelings I felt. We are all insane in this cruel world we live in but the only way to stick with our sanity is to trust in God and to be strong to every challenges, trials and difficulties we encounter in our way. I'm holding on to what I have right now. I keep on Loving those people who cared for me, Help those who need me and I always try to do my job well to make God happy and proud of me. Have a nice day. (",)

Finally, Now I know.......

2010-01-22T03:21:00.000-08:00

I was so bothered these past few days and now finally the worries are totally gone. I discovered that one of my pupils has a serious family problem. Ever since June, I always thought of winning his heart but I failed since he is not willing and he won't open up to me. Frustrating to know but maybe and surely he is hurting inside. He always wanted to be seen in the class, he wanted to appear bad and infamous to his classmates and he never took his studies seriously. I tried hard to reach out for him, but he is so close and he is so hurt that he can't even love himself for the reason he felt that his life is meaningless. He acts as if he never cares for anything and anyone even to himself. In my opinion, maybe it is his way of expressing himself how hurt he is. I feel so sad hearing the reality of what his family is going through. Now, I understand why he acted that way. I pitied him and I assure him that everything will be fine. Ding-dong is not the only pupil who got this problem. In my second batch of pupils before almost all of them suffered from this kind of problem only that those pupils were mature enough to accept that their parents could no longer be together and that they have moved on and let go of it. Accepting such thing is a process. It is hard and hurting in fact some never did escape from it but destroyed their life and ruined it. Prayer, support and guidance should be given to him. I'm praying that his wounds will be healed and that he will accept everything. In my own little way I will help him and free him from his wounded heart. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Blowing the burden down

2010-01-21T04:42:00.000-08:00

I'm praying today that everything will be fine. Thinking of the heavy thing on top of my head lets me suffer from headache. So all I did was to stop thinking about it. I focus myself in all the requirements I need to accomplish and all the things I need to finish. After lunch I slept and I only woke up when I need to time in the afternoon. I let myself free from that burden why should I run from it when it is there I should face it no matter what. I have no choice but to face it. I have to be strong. If can't run from it then I have to face it. I know that this too shall pass with God's help He will help me and save me. I thank you madz for your advice it makes me feel better.

I need a break

2010-01-20T05:45:00.000-08:00

I'm tired. I hope to rest. I need a break now. Everything is mixed up but I'm still hoping I could fix everything. I wish to explore to a new adventure in life if only I could go out to where I am now. I could have done it before but something is pulling me back. Something is telling me to stay. I'm asking for a sign if I'll stick to where I am now or to go and find the real path I should take. I've been numb and stagnant for years now. I need to move on and to have courage to explore and take the risks. The risk that I have been running from for years but no matter what and how I try there is always someone and something that stops me from moving on. Maybe I'm destined to be like this forever. I'm quite confused now but I need to pretend that I'm ok that I'm fine and to see the brighter side of life even if only a spark of light is the only hope I'm holding on too. I'm almost giving up but I have faith and trust in God that is for sure why I'm still strong as I am now. God will take care of everthing. He will never leave me.

Feeling Blue

2010-01-17T06:17:00.001-08:00

I don't know why I feel sad today. I got a lot of fears and doubts. I know if I'm not going to think of it, I'll be free from all the worries and issues that is in my mind. Anything that happens to us is just a creation, imagination in our minds and just something we can't help but thinking which leads to reality. The more we are thinking of the things we don't want to happen will happen because are minds are focus on it. As much as possible I always wanted to think positive. Everyday will get better and everything is ok. Whatever happens there is always a reason and purpose. God will never give us those trials which we cannot resolve. The only thing I need to think is that problems are part and spice to our life. I need to have faith and trust in God. Holding on to what is true and that is God loves each and everyone of us. If we experienced pain, sufferings, problems and loss there is always a reason for it. It helps us to be more strong and to learn how to live our lives. I remembered when my pupil told me that he hates his life. He told me that there is no God because he ask me why God permits their house to be burned. I told him that have you seen the difference before and now? What are the changes you have observe after that sad thing happens? At first he was so angry he told me that they have a bigger and a comfortable house before and now it is the opposite thing. He kept on saying all the things he wanted to say until he realizes that his family having a smaller house becomes more closer than having the bigger house before. I was waiting for him to say a word when suddenly he burst into tears. After that conversation he was changed. I never heard him complain and he starts to believe that God truly exist.

Busy Saturday

2010-01-16T08:27:00.000-08:00

I'm so busy today. I thought I would have less work since there are only a few pupils who attended the tutorial due to a rainy weather. The National Achievement Test is fast approaching. All teachers are task to be reviewing the kids every Saturday on subject that are assigned to us. I'm not supposed to handle any section because my schedule is not for today but for next week but since one teacher was absent I replaced her on the spot. I wasn't able to have any review and any preparation they just gave me something for me to go over with a few minutes then discuss and explain it to the kids. It is a nose bleeding experience since the subject is for grade 5 lesson. I'm not so quite well versed on the topics in grade 5 but I have background knowledge of it. Lucky thing I was able to recall everything. I'm tired since my job is doubled I have to monitor the tutors and tutees plus they let me handle a about four sections with the help of some of my college students in NSTP. I'm ok at least I was able to help those pupils who need my help. The best lesson I ever thought of today is to be humble and that nobody is perfect. Have a happy weekend my friend. God bless.

Rainy Friday

2010-01-15T23:28:00.000-08:00

The day is so gloomy and the rain never stop pouring. I am still so sleepy that I wish somebody will declare a no class day for us. I still wanted to sleep and rest in bed. I have to get up because it is Friday and there is no excuse I have to report in school today. When I'm on my way to school it seems that it was still 6am yet when I look at the clock it was almost 7:15 in the morning. I got worried that I'm already late, later did I know there are still a lot of teachers who are still on their way to school. Kids are only few in number. I just give them some review materials for the exam. I hope they will have good results on Monday. I wish the rain will go away now this weather will really makes me very sick.

Recovering From My Mahiwagang Asthma

2010-01-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

Yehey! I'm slightly ok now. I went to school and saw my kids who are wondering why I was absent yesterday some even texted me and ask if I'll be in school today. I woke up at four in the morning. I see to it that I'll be early in school. At first I feel so hard to move and even to talk in class I'm still not that well. I could survive talking and explaining in short teaching the kids. The only thing I don't like is to scold kids, watch over bad moves they make and those kids who makes me angry of doing the things I don't like. It is too stressful for me. They wanted to be seen and to be given attention to. Good thing the day is finally over I was able to survive. I wish I'll be more fine tomorrow and that I'll gain back all the energy and the power ups I need for me to win the game. I need to stay strong and to stay healthy as I should be. The kids' third quarter exam will be on Tuesday. I need to double my time coping of all the topics I need to discuss and review the over all coverage of the whole third quarter exam. Get well soon too madz take care. Thank you Madz and Paulo for dropping some comments I appreciate that very much.

Flat tire

2010-01-13T03:57:00.000-08:00

I'm so sick. I have a hard time getting up in bed because of my body pains. I was absent from my class today. I got my mahiwagang asthma, body pains, colds and cough. Good thing was I don't have fever. The whole day I was just sleeping in my bed. I just sleep and take the whole day rest. I hope I'll be fine tomorrow. I don't want to be absent again. I've heard that we have a new madam in school. I know her and I think she is good. I hope she will be good to us. Somebody told me that my kids were asking why am I absent. I think that is a surprise for me i thought they would be happy if I'm not around. I still got the feeling that they are enjoying the moment that there is no class today hehehe. Sorry for them I'll be reporting tomorrow no matter what.

It's Raining Again

2010-01-12T04:19:00.000-08:00

There is a low pressure area the Eastern Mindanao that is why we experienced a heavy rain and a cloudy sky. We only got one and a half day class because of my meeting in school. It rained so hard that I got soaking wet. I'm not feeling well right now. I got my asthma attack, colds, and cough. I wanted to be absent but I'm not going to. I need to work and teach the children. Speaking of the kids, They were really excited to go home because when I went back from the classroom they already clean and arrange the room ready for them to leave.Kids will do everything for me if I have something to give them. Kids are kids they love to play and rest instead of going to school. Timing that this afternoon the rain comes out again I'm pretty sure some of my kids played and danced in the rain and some they probably have their rest and stayed at home. I hope to see them tomorrow with complete attendance. Have a nice day my friend.

kids, kids, kids

2010-01-11T07:28:00.000-08:00

Hi friends I feel sleepy but before I sleep just wanted to drop some thoughts and things to share to you. I thought visitors are going to visit us today in school. As always they did not show up again. I'm not feeling well today. I even thought of not reporting to class today but I did not. I need to be present in school today because their third quarter exam will be next week and I have with me some keys of other classrooms. I feel exhausted. Kids are fine today naturally some seek attention and some just wanted to do nothing but exchange ideas with their classmates. I didn't have that stressful scenario today just right they all cooperated with me for the fact that they knew that I'm not feeling well. I wonder if the visitors will be coming tomorrow. I just hope not. I'll be going for a meeting in the afternoon tomorrow. kids will be very happy knowing the news that our class will be only in the morning. kids wanted to have more long vacation than going to school. All they ever wanted is to have fun and play under the heat of the sun. kids, kids makes me laugh when I remember that before our class starts they are already on the go chasing their classmates then after class they still play again and before going home they still got that energy to chase their classmates. I wonder if they ever get tired of running, jumping and chasing their classmates. Thinking of all the pressures they have in school. Pressure in understanding the lesson and passing all the test in school, pressure conforming with their friends, pressure in playing the role of being a son and daughter to their parents and pressures of being a sibling. I'm thinking to make kids more comfortable and to have fun learning in school. To lessen their pressure and to maximize their emotional intelligence so that in this way they would be able to cope with all those pressures and survive with it. I got to do something but I'm starting it anyway just need a little more time. I wish to create a school someday which kids no longer wanted to have a vacation when could that be maybe in the year 2060 hehehehe.

My Favorite things to do

2010-01-10T06:35:00.000-08:00

Here are the list of my favorite things to do..... 6. Read books. I love reading books. I wanted to imagine to place myself inside the story especially if I'm reading adventure and mytery stories, 5. I love to share my thoughts to others sad but I have no one to share it right now just only here in the blog world because everybody is busy to listen to my blah, blah thing 4. I love to go to church and visit God sad I wasn't able to be there today because I'm not that feeling well only yesterday when we celebrate the Feast of the Black Nazarene yes I was there I saw Jesus pass by our house and it's kinda awesome because when I saw him I don't know it moved me to tears I can't explain that. Honestly I believe that He really do grant ones wish, heals ones pain and He gives more than what you ask for. 3. I love teaching the kids and working with them especially if they understand and learn what I'm teaching them. the thing that I really want to do is to sleep that is the #2 thing I wanted to do. I feel comfortable and happy when I sleep. Funny but true I always look forward to sleep. My favorite part of the day is night time and my #1 is I love to cook for my family for breakfast. I only cook breakfast on weekends because I got to rush things on week days to avoid tardiness in going to school. I'm happy when my mother got her rest day from her daily routine. She wakes up early for me everyday, she prepares my breakfast and even my lunch, She see to it that I brought with me my umbrella, and see to it that I didn't miss anything. I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank nanay letty for helping me out everyday. Inspiring me to do my best, encouraging me to go on with life and best of all guiding me to the right path like tatay maeng also is doing to me. I love my parents. I wish that I will make them happy and proud. Have a nice day my friend enjoy life.

Pressure

2010-01-07T08:21:00.000-08:00

Everything is a surprise for us. The office did not told us that next week will be the mahiwagang evaluation week for us. I was shocked when I found out the news but what makes it good is that I still got the chance to complete all the missing thing in the classroom. I'm not in favor of this in fact they told us last year to prepare and we have been waiting for them to come yet they never showed up. I got pressured thinking of what may happen if they will come and I'm not ready it's a sad and negative thing to think of anyway. I'm struggling now just don't know why I feel too lazy to do my work and I feel there is really missing on it. I will try to put things back and think that everything is fine. I feel tired already. I think I'm sick I need to see my doctor for me to found out what is wrong with me. This too shall pass my friend. Have a nice day

Adapting to Changes

2010-01-06T04:58:00.000-08:00

New year was really a big start for us in school for the fact that madam is no longer with us. Our grade leader maam lyds also was replaced by maam meilen. We have to extend our patience to adjust to our new superior so far so good. We still have to wait who will be our new school principal. Building relationship is really that hard yet the only key to make a relationship work is to respect each other, accept each others strength and weaknesses, accept each others ideas, and most especially to gain the trust from other person. It is hard, it is a life long process and it is a test of genuine friendship in building relationship. I could say that to make everything work for us in our group we should work hard and take the effort to make things happen. I just hope that everything will turn out fine.

Happy New Year to All

2010-01-02T06:29:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year to all. Cheers for the new life, new year, new style, and new things to explore this year. I hope that this year will be more fruitful, meaningful and joyful year for all of us. I wish for world peace, love and unity, prosperity in the whole world, and we must also work hard to save our mother earth and Have a deep sense of change of hearts. We can achieve these all if we only going to work together hand in hand. Good luck and God bless you all

The Year that Was 2009

2009-12-30T07:23:00.001-08:00

Two days more to go and we say goodbye to 2009. 2009 was so far good compared to 2007 and 2008. I experienced a lot of trials and difficulties but I have surpass them all. I almost died last January of pneumonia, I felt the biggest life changing insult from my superior, I experienced traveling for the very first time in my life, I have passed my mahiwagang comprehensive exam, I got promoted from teacher I to teacher III, I got a lot of responsibility compared before, I gain more friends and I experienced new things that I have never experienced before. I can say that 2009 was a great year for me in spite of all the hurt, pain, sufferings and loneliness that I have felt I could still say that I'm lucky and blessed. I take this opportunity to thank my family, friends, relatives, co-teachers, my pupils, madam and to our Almighty God for being with me all these time in the comforting me, understanding, and the unconditional love you have shared upon a million thanks to all of you.

I'm Back

2009-12-28T06:32:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone Merry Christmas and a Happy and Prosperous New Year. I'm actually concentrating my time resting and help a little here at home. I feel a little sad yet I just got to go on with life. I realized that money can never buy happiness even if you got a lot of money but still real happiness can never be substituted by it. I'm just so happy that I celebrate the birthday of Jesus with my family here in the Philippines. All I did was to eat and sleep and help in watching over my nieces. I attended mass with nanay and tatay last Christmas day that makes it so complete. I go places if I need to like buy stuff for Christmas presents and food at home. The thing i don't want to experience in this holiday time is the heavy traffic on the streets. I don't like the pollution and all that. I don't have any choices but to just go with the flow. I'm the runner and the errand girl in the house now except if nanay will be the one to buy all the stuff she needed. I'm looking forward to have a safe and a memorable New Year. I'm creating my New Year's Resolution if I'm done with it I'm going to post it here. Have a happy day and take care.

Happenings

2009-12-21T05:41:00.000-08:00

I've been hibernating for days now. I don't know I had a lot of things in my mind just can't pour it out well. Our Christmas party was fun even though there are eight pupils who failed to attend still we were able to have a happy Christmas party. It's the first day of my Christmas vacation I'm just here doing nothing at home but taking care of the my nieces. I taught them simple lessons I wanted them to learn. I feel bored doing nothing. I think that my depression got worst now but I don't mind it. It is not worthy at all to focus my mind to such distraction. I just feel so lonely don't know why. I'm trying to make myself busy. Watch some old movies on TV, do household chores, play with my nieces, do my research for my thesis and the best thing I wanted to do is to have my sleeping session yes! hehehe. I wanted to sleep all day I'm done fixing my cabinet maybe tomorrow I will have my general cleaning in my room and wash my clothes. Me and my best friend already did our exchange gift activity I gave him a wallet. He liked it very much he even confessed that the wallet he is using is already 15 years old. I'm glad that I gave him the best present this year. On the other hand he gave me a big orange towel. For the past few days I was thinking to have a new towel then to my big surprise he gave me a towel. I can't explain it everytime he gave me something it was always the best present I have received coincidence or it just happen in the ordinary phenomenon. hehehe I don't know.

Farewell Madam

2009-12-15T09:20:00.000-08:00

Today we finally pay tribute to madam. I don't understand why I got emotional when we sang a farewell song to her. I was thinking before that I will not miss her but I did miss her. I felt bad because she never told us that she is leaving. There are a lot of pending projects she need to see and a lot of things I wanted to tell her. I waited for her hoping that I could talk to her not knowing that when she comes back she will say I love you and good bye mel. Before I went home I greeted her and she told me I will not forget everything she have ever told me. All the lessons and tips I need to learn to become the best teacher there is. She will always be a part of me.

Kris Kringle

2009-12-14T12:52:00.001-08:00

The kids are now very excited for their Christmas party. They are all busy preparing for their presentations and for their gift. This year is so far the most cheapest amount they voted for the gift expenses and that is ten pesos. They have all agreed to buy school supplies for their kringles. Many children could not believe how we come up with ten pesos but it was the majorities decision so we just got to follow it. They also has this unique gift giving style they told me girls will have different gift giving group same with the boys. Ever since I started working in the school I never did decided anything for the class I let them do the decision but if I won't agree with it they don't have a choice we just got to make a compromise thing. This year's batch of kids are different they are more cooperative and obedient than last year. I could not help but to reveal and remember what happen last year because last year even if there is already a decision the other group of kids won't give in they wanted to do what they want even if it is impossible. What I did I allowed them do what they want both groups. In the end everybody was happy and they all enjoy the party. I guess I also learned that if we really want that thing to happen we must work for it, never give up and to really stood and fight for it no matter what. hehehe

Christmas Fever

2009-12-13T05:08:00.000-08:00

I can see a lot of Christmas decoration all around the city, Radio station plays our favorite Christmas songs, children are practicing for their presentation in their Christmas party, people are busy going to malls and avail discounts and choosing gifts for their love ones, Carolers are preparing for their best performance of their life this coming December 16, Church goers are excited to attend the Misa De Gallo, Entrepreneurs who are selling goodies after Misa De Gallo are also busy preparing for the best strategies and gimmicks to make their product good and people are going to Christmas parties and exchanging gifts being with old friends spent time with each other. I could not help it but think how happy could it be if all my sisters are here. When I go around the city I would feel empty thinking that we are going to celebrate Christmas without ate lilet, manding mopsy and manang pinky. That is life after all we have no choice but to live through it. My siblings have their own life anyway have no right at all to let them stay. I wish I could talk to them this Christmas. I still got my family here I have all the reason to celebrate anyway. It's Jesus' birthday I must make it special. Make Him happy that day. Advance Merry Christmas.

Surprise! What?

2009-12-12T06:37:00.000-08:00

I was really surprise last Thursday when our grade leader told us that madam is already on her way to retire effective this month. I got mixed feelings about it. I'm not happy and I'm not also sad. Just kind of thinking what would life be if madam is not in school. She guide and teach us things about running a school in a short time yet with that short time we've spent with her, I could say that I have learned a lot of things from her. Not to mention those heartbreaking moments. In spite of the pain I have become more stronger and motivated to do my job well. I was hurt but through that pain it made me the person who I am today. Madam challenged me to do my best and she is successful. I will miss her. I know she love me and she just wanted me to learn. To Madam thanks maam. God bless in your journey and enjoy.

Plan for the Hoildays

2009-12-08T05:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so excited for this coming hoildays. I would just then sleep, sleep and sleep. Just kidding I would probably do the household chores, baby sit my nieces Yna and Toni, go window shopping, see a movie, spent time with nanay and tatay and lots of chat to my sisters. I couldn't wait for it. I'm making a list of what to do this holidays and hope that i could accomplish all of them. My best friend Jud confirmed that we are going to have our exchange gift activity like we did last Christmas. I wish I could give something he like not something I like to give hehehe. Advance Merry Christmas.

Its Over

2009-12-06T06:32:00.001-08:00

Yes! finally we are done with the dance presentation last Thursday. I don't have any mistake at all. I did all my best and it went well. The gown fits me well and lucky I don't have the hard time adjusting my movements in wearing such dress. Our Christmas party for the kids will be on December 17. I have to plan a lot of things to make the party successful. Kids in school are already excited for Christmas. Tomorrow I'll let them make their own wish list.

Puzzled

2009-12-01T07:30:00.000-08:00

I feel so lost. I don't like to eat what a miracle. I don't want to do the usual routine I'm doing. I think I'm just too excited for Christmas vacation. All I ever wanted is to sleep and do nothing. I still got a lot of things to do in fact there are still a lot of pending jobs to do in school. I just got to do it our else I'll be meeting the deadlines in a row. I got a lot of things to do the result is I'm puzzled in what are the things that I need to prioritize. We are busy preparing for teachers day so sad I don't want to be there honestly that is I think my ultimate embarrasing moment in my life. Imagine me, wearing a gown dancing in front of thousands of teacher in Cagayan de Oro City. I got no choice but to do it. If only I could excuse myself from it I would. It will just happen once in a blue moon so I would just got to do it. Anyway, I won't be alone wearing that thing also my co-teachers will wear gown.

The Sun is Back

2009-11-27T08:22:00.000-08:00

In the past few days my favorite song was..... Oh Mister Sun, Sun mister golden sun please shine down on me these little children are asking you to please come out and play with you Oh mister sun, sun please shine down, please shine down on me. Finally the sun heard my plea. It did finally showed up to me. There is no more mud, the water flowed and all dried up. I wish it won't rain that hard anymore. Now I could go anywhere, do whatever I want and have no worries in catching colds and cough. I still like rainy days but still I'm going to be happy when there is the sun. It radiates its energy in me that makes me more active and alive.

Non-stop Rain

2009-11-25T08:18:00.000-08:00

It rained so hard today our division declared a no class day. It was really a very wet, muddy and cool day here in CDO. I only got two kids in the class and the rest of the kids are from the other section. They join my class because their teacher is not yet around. I have fun teaching them again but I just did it in a few hours then their teacher arrived in a little while. In the afternoon we have no class but we stayed in school to practice our precious dance. I hope I could master all the dance steps I've learned today. The rain continues to pour until 11:00pm I wish it won't rain anymore tomorrow.

Rain II

2009-11-24T01:55:00.000-08:00

The rain did not stop. I wish that it stops falling now. The miracle really did happen. My kids were almost present today. I wonder why they ever went to school with an unstoppable rain. I'm happy to see them. We did a lot of things but I miss those who are not around. I wonder why mother nature pours too much rain today I've heard there is a typhoon somewhere in Surigao. The streets are all wet and muddy. The latest outfit of the town are wearing jackets, boots, raincoats with matching colorful umbrellas but to some who don't want to bring all those stuff they just cover their heads with their hands, book and bag. I couldn't go out in the house with a heavy rain even if doing that is one of my ultimate dream. I easily get sick and my pneumonia might strike again if I ever do that. I just got to stay here and relax. Do my work and finish the pending ones. I got to do it now or else there will be no more time for me. Hi madz I'm ok i just hope I could catch up with all the deadlines. I would like to greet a Belated Happy Birthday to madz. May all your dreams and wishes do come true. thanks for the friendship.

Rain

2009-11-23T08:10:00.000-08:00

The rain pours down again. I love rainy days because I don't need to use my fan to cool me. The advantages of the rain are first the plants will be happy, then temperature is not warm and I feel comfortable to sleep in a cold night. The worst part is flood, muddy and slippery road, landslide, brownout, disaster and there will only a few pupils who are present in my class. It is a raining here since Sunday. I feel so lazy and I wish that there is no class. Weird thing was almost all kids didn't report to the class. I hope a miracle will happen and I hope it will happen tomorrow.

Thanks Ate Amy

2009-11-19T05:45:00.000-08:00

I would like to thank Ate Amy for being so good and patient in helping me out here in the blog world. May God bless you Ate Amy you are truly the best. I just wanted to tell everyone that Ate amy encourages me to write more and share my thoughts. I can say that through blogging I release all my feelings, Share my thoughts and my experiences. It does make me feel good and better when I'm down. It gives me the opportunity to meet new friends, gain new knowledge and connect myself to the real world.

Swimwear

2009-11-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

Summer is over but I guess going out somewhere is a cool thing to do. It makes us forget of the busy days we had in our work. Chill and relax, go places, watch television, do shopping and of course my all time favorite hang out with my family is going to the beach or even indoor pool can be cool and relaxing too. Going out in the beach requires a lot of things to bring well not to forget the food, the car to use, skin block and most especially the swimwear you need to wear. It would be so awesome to wear something that you are comfortable and most especially you also got to feel good about it. I have discovered this cool swimwear product that suits your personality and choice of swimwear to wear. Check out swimwear today, the size 8 and up swimsuit shop. Their product is so amazing that it fits to the kind of person you are. There are also varieties of different swimwear you can choose from and you can choose different design, sizes and style of swimwear you want. Visit their website today. For more information open the link provided here and do follow and add in your link too. Find out for yourself and discover the difference.

What I wish

2009-11-09T07:34:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wish everything will end. Yet whenever I remember those people who fought and won in the battle called life I then refused to give up. I know I have been through a lot of pains and hardship in life and the fact is I always thought I could not survived by it but I did it. I have surpassed every challenge and problems I have encountered in my life. God is always with me and I thank Him for all the strength and endurance He gave me. In all my articles I always say "I" now I again came to realized maybe I'm self-centered am I? I started to question myself not again. I'm too busy thinking of my work and all that. I concentrate in the things that I should do I just came to realized I forgot to think of other people maybe not totally but almost at least I'm aware of it. What concern me now are my pupils. They are the only people I always talk with and share all my thoughts. I wish that they will be transform into better individuals and grow up to be mature and responsible being in this planet. If I'm here at home I watch over my nieces, I listen to my mother's sentiments, I deal with the issues of my brother and sister and I always see to it that I check on tatay everyday. There are things that I wanted to do in my family perhaps buy a new house for nanay that is what she wanted me to do, Give a two scholarship grants for my nieces, A whole supply of medicines for tatay and nanay and I don't know with my siblings they got their own life anyway. Sad thing because I still got to wait for the right time for me to do all those things maybe in the right time. I'm holding on to it. Basta God knows all I want and all I need.

Thesis Proposal

2009-11-07T05:50:00.000-08:00

Today I have a meeting with my former classmate who is already done with her thesis proposal. She is really amazing because she did her thesis as fast as she could. wow! I really admire her for that. Maam Lilian helped me out this afternoon in starting my thesis proposal. I wish , I want and I strongly aiming to start and finish my thesis. I'm kinda sick lately but I have no choice but to stay strong because I have a job to do everyday and a mission to accomplish. I just need more power ups and more rest for me to gain energy from within me. I thank God for a lot of blessings I have been receiving this year in spite of a lot of difficulties, insecurities and fear I have. Not to mention my battle against depression is really a tough job for me. God is here with me. I know that He is not leaving me to where I am now. Sometimes I'm giving up but as long as the sun is rising I have all the reasons to live and go on with life as what I'm always saying life goes on no matter what. Have a happy weekend my friend.

sleepy me

2009-11-06T01:44:00.000-08:00

I've been sleepy lately. I don't know but I felt that this is so strange since I'm not like this before. My parents are worried about me that there must be something wrong with me. My sleeping patterns are not in good condition. I slept so late and in between my sleeping time I sometimes woke up and then I'll be wide awake then until it's about time for me to go to school. This maybe the reason why I grow so big now my weight did increase again. I'm not fat anymore but I'm obese. I really feel as sleepy as in even if I'm busy my eyes would really fall. I need to have one whole day sleep but I don't have that day that is why after class I would take a nap and take a rest. I'm so busy that I would even forget to scratch whatever itch in my body. I wish to take a vacation for life and the fact is I'll be reporting to school again on a Saturdays because the reading tutorials has resume. I got no choice but to render my service or else there will be no tutorial in school.

Busy Me Again

2009-11-05T06:46:00.000-08:00

Next week will be our evaluation week for our school. I got to hurry for all the things I need to accomplish. I don't know if I could catch up with the deadlines. If I was not able to join the seminar I could have a lot of time to prepare but lucky me I was not there in school for four days. Anyway I don't have any choice but to catch up as soon as I can. I have to focus on a lot of things. I feel pressured in a way but I just have to take things slowly as I could for me not to feel so pressured.

Servant Leader

2009-11-03T04:35:00.000-08:00

Last week when we have our session about servant leadership I have a lot of realization in myself. In the session we were made to form a line blindfolded with the only person who is not blindfolded is the leader in the first line. We will hold on to the shoulder of the person in front of us. Our mentor resource speakers told us to that we are going to go around the hall, streets and anywhere they are going to instruct our leaders. The rule was we should not let go of the person in front of us and we should not break the chain. At first I was so nervous because I'm afraid that I might stumble and break the chain. It was a hard session in fact after we have done it. I feel so scared that it really does bother me. I come to realized that when we in a group we should put our trust in our leader and do our part as members so that our goal and our task will be successful. Same as I am a teacher, that in everything that I do I must have confidence in me to deliver the lesson and share my knowledge to my pupils and in that way they will learn easily and have that self-confidence in them too. In all the seminars that I attended that was really one unforgettable seminars that I have ever had. I'll try to make a change and apply everything that I learned from the seminar.

Trick or Treat

2009-11-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

If I'm situated in a western country I would prefer to have the treat than trick hehehe. Happy Halloween to everyone. I still didn't visit my love ones who are already have passed away probably I'll be going there tomorrow. I really did wonder where the dead souls are. I could feel them sometimes. Sometimes I would just got to ignore them but it is really scary. I told them not to make themselves visible to me because I would really scream hard as I could. I could hear them especially if I slept late at night or even at three O'clock in the morning. Last Friday, me and teacher christine did some encoding works in school that was almost 8pm while we were working, suddenly a big and heavy paste container just fell down from the table without anyone moving it. I just said that it's impossible. Lucky for me because I'm the only one who could feel their presence. Teacher Christine is a kind of person who really doesn't mind of the presence of these beings. She don't feel afraid of working so late in school because she really don't care of these beings for her they are always a part of the world and we should not be afraid of them. She is right but I wonder what she would really feels if she see and feel them. When I was new in school I actually go home so late because I have to fill in the big water container in the comfort room. Until one night the guard told me why am I going home so late that the fact is he told me that in my room there are unknown beings occupying my room. I got so scared then and from that time on I never go home so late if there are no urgent papers to be accomplished. Before,I refuse to believe that they occupy my room but the only thing that convinced me that they are there was when I commit an accident inside my classroom. Purely it is an accident but somebody told me someone did push me that is why I got a bone dislocation in my arm. Whatever that is I just I got to be aware that these beings exists. I got to always have FAITH in God and that He will always protect me. Happy Halloween. Enjoy the day.

The Education Revolutionary

2009-10-28T08:21:00.000-07:00

I've been attending a four day seminar since yesterday. i was so happy to be given a opportunity to be a part of the Mentor the Mentor's Program of the Worldwide People Power Inc. It was very enriching and educational in a way that I can say that all of the topics they taught us were very helpful in aiding us in teaching, handling the kids well in school through giving a constructive feedback,Emphatic listening, have a win-win relationship by Stephen Covey and Art of Loving. I do really learned lot. The best thing I have learned yesterday was that we must be 0pen to changes and we must allow ourselves to accept change and change ourselves. We are also taught how to build relationship and Character Formation. I couldn't wait for tomorrow it is really amazing.

My Childhood Issue

2009-10-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

It is always been my fear to be rejected since I was still young. I don't understand why I was so aloof when I was still a little girl. I'm a shy type, silent and under achiever aside from having a eye problem i also lack self confidence in me. It was a mystery then a thing I can't explain within me. Discrimination was also a part of it. I felt bad about it even if they step on me I don't fight back I just keep my mouth shut and just let those kids hurt me as they could. The effect was the hatred I felt before has been rooted and grown too strong when I was growing up. I became different. I don't mix with my classmates and I don't have friends in groups. I choose to be alone. It even got worst when my best friend went to the states I was even labeled as a loner. A part of it makes me happy because I don't have the pressures of reaching an expectation from friends, I don't conform to rules which my friends would possibly imposed and lastly I'm free of the things I wanted to do. I'm not being controlled by anybody. I did have the hard time adjusting to cope with rejection and discrimination until I finally know myself and I know what I wanted from then on I was not been shaken nor been weaken if people around would reject me or discriminate me for what I am and who I am. It taught me how to love myself and to accept myself of the things that I could do and the things that I could possibly do. The thing that I always bear in my mind was that I don't really care if they don't accept me because the only person who most importantly love me is God. He will never stop loving me and He is always be there for me.

The weird experience

2009-10-24T02:29:00.000-07:00

Our encampment is finally over. I feel so relieved and at the same time tired. The kids were very happy. I guess the thing that I learned there was to be always prepared in all the things that I do. Planned things out ahead of time. Things were actually mixed up before we finally decided to join the camp. We did win but not the champions of the game so sad but it is charged to experience anyway. The weird thing happened was when the event was nearly over I felt a rapid beating in my heart I wondered why that happened so sudden that when I went out the school I was nearly bumped by a vehicle my co-teacher reacted so badly that I felt that I woke up from a deep sleep. I was shocked lucky that someone was there maam corazon, saved me from that scary thing. She told me that I could have died from that accident but I do believe that angels are there to rescue me. I come to realized that life is precious and that I still have a mission to fulfill in this life. Thanks to maam cora and thank you God. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Too Late

2009-10-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

It was a disaster day for me because I was caught in a nick of time. I got late again that I almost went to school at 8 am. It was so far the most worst time I arrived in school. I really couldn't believe it but it happened I thought it will only happen in my wildest dreams but it really happen in reality. I feel so bad about it. I actually woke up so early but unfortunately after I took a bath and I'm already ready and set to go to school at 6am but I got so sleepy that the worst thing that happened was I fell asleep. When I woke up it is already 7:30 am imagine to that I just took three spoonful for breakfast. The good thing was I did not wait for a lifetime to get a vehicle to go to school it just took me seconds to get one and no traffic in whatsoever distractions in the road. God is good I do believe that one of His angels woke me up just to let me go to school and show up for my pupils who waited for me until I arrived and miraculously they were patient in waiting for me not even one went home thinking that I'll be absent today. I will never let this day happen again. I wish. Pray for me. God bless you my friend.

The Good Son

2009-10-16T15:39:00.000-07:00

I have a pupil who is a head turner to all his classmates not because he is good in the class but because he has his attitudes that his classmates don't like. He teases, make fun and hurt his classmates in so many ways. Everytime he do all these things naturally I always see to it to tell him what is right and what he should supposed to treat his classmates. I do believe that he can actually be a good boy. I wonder why he is like that. In a long time of waiting I finally able to talk with his mother. The thing was the statement of his mother and father are different from each other. When I have encounters with them. I'm kind of confused of whom to believe. For his dad he is not good. He even told me that he is an headache to his mother but when I talked to his mother she told me that of all her sons he is the most kind and responsible. I'm so puzzled that I could not believe of what she told me. I come to realized that maybe they really have a problem in their family in which his mother wanted to keep it. It is unbelievable when the child displays a different person in the class far different from who he is at home. There must be a problem behind it. The thing that I choose to believe was that in his life there must be an empty space that needs to be fill that is affection, attention and love.

GSP Encampment

2009-10-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

I don't want to go but they invited my to join them my point was I don't have pupils to look after too because the grade four pupils are not included anyway but is a call of duty and I should be there. I just got to think that I'm excited that I could meet new teachers and be of service to my co-teachers too.