Mysterious woman

Last summer our neighbor died of a motorcycle accident. I was surprised when they broke out the news because that same night I saw her and her husband riding with their motorcycle. I wonder why that happens but the weird part was that yesterday I actually saw a woman who physically looks like her. She looks like her I got scared because I knew for sure that she is already dead. I hope it just her look a like thing. I guess she wanted me to pray for her. I got stuck to where I was standing when I saw that woman taking a walk wearing a black shirt and a white jogging pants i felt weird maybe perhaps it was just in my imagination. I always hear and sometimes see weird beings but I was hoping that I will no longer feel their presence and be connected to them but no matter what they are here and I just got to let them be part of my life. As long as they are good to me It is ok with me.

Thinking Positive thoughts

When things got so very depressing I always try to change it to different mode. It helps sometimes but sometimes it doesn't. I hope that everything will be fine soon. I'm not losing hope I'm still thinking that things will get better. Everything happens for a reason whatever that is I know it is for the better. My thesis proposal is still sleeping and trying to survive. I got to move now after this Division Science Competition I could now focus to it. I still could not find ways to insert it in my schedule but hopefully I could divide my time. I have to be positive that I could accomplish it before the semester ends. Things will change next week and I got to prepare myself. I have no choice but to accept that change it is for my own good. I know I will survive and I could adjust to it well. It make take time for me to be fully adjusted to the kind of situation but I know I will be fine soon. Pray for me

Work and work again

I got a lot of pending work to do. I just wish and pray I could finish all of these tonight. I wish that everything will turn out right. I can't understand what I feel inside me. I know this is not just the first time I'm feeling this way. I just always remind myself that this too shall pass. I got to pray harder now that I feel that I'm helpless. I got to hold on. I got to prepare for tomorrow's lesson. I wish that tomorrow will be a beautiful and inspiring day for me and for my pupils. Talking about the weather, The temperature is rising and it's really warm in here. I miss the rain. Tomorrow is another day. I got to experience life and touch others life tomorrow. It's another mission to fulfill and to make things better. Even if there are fears and anxiety inside I got to face every plight and challenge with a smile in my face and positive mind to shield me from the things that may cause me to be weak. Go Carms you can do it. No time to surrender now. God bless you my friend

Sleepy me

I'm kinda sleepy yesterday and today. All I ever wish is to sleep. Last night I dreamed of a very strange situation. I don't know it's been two days now since I've been dreaming of strange dreams. The first one was that in my dream, it was like I am having a tour by the sea. I was in a huge ship then I was there touring around the ocean with a lot of people I didn't know then in my dream my sister fetch me after the cool weird ride on the ship. The second dream was were in an old hospital then my sister look so sad and we didn't even talk in the dream. I can't understand why I'm dreaming all of these must be that I'm just depressed and I'm not doing anything about it I just let it pass but unaware, I'm being affected by it. I should not be feeling this way don't even know the reason behind it maybe because I gain a lot of weight again and I need to exercise, have my diet and discipline myself from eating. My friend gee was laughing at me when she learned that I did not watch T.V. last week instead I lock myself in my room and listen and memorize some nursery rhymes so that i will not be tempted to eat in the kitchen funny right? but it is true. I try hard not to drink softdrinks this week and I guess for three school days I just drink water instead of softdrinks. I think that is a good start. I got to lose weight because If I don't, I'll be force to have a change dress sizes again. nightmare but true. Wish me luck. Take care

The Sun is here.

It didn't rain hard today. Tomorrow is a another day. School again for me. I got new topics to discussed with my kids. I hope I'll have a perfect attendance for my kids. I hope the kids who got sick are ok now. I'm ok now totally recovered. Everything work with God's grace and a strong positive thinking it heals and it works trust me. Just focus on the things you wanted to happen and hold on it never let go. Everything is possible. Never say never. It's very effective. Try it you'll see how powerful your mind is. God bless you my friend.

Doctor. doctor I'm sick again---opps sorry the doctor is on vacation

I did not post yesterday because I'm not feeling well. I don't know must be the weather. I manage to go to school and have my regular class. My doctor is on vacation but she left me prescriptions I need to take if I'm not feeling well. Kid's attendance in school is no good. There are so many pupils who got sick. I wish they are already ok. There are also some kids who are absent because they just don't want to go to school. I hope they realize the value of education. I'm trying to be fine and not to really pay attention to my asthma. I bought a new inhaler today. yes! at last I have my new inhaler I don't know what happen to my old inhaler. When I went back home from the hospital I can no longer find it maybe a bogeyman found it and swallowed it when he knew that I was not in my room to scare me hehehe. just joking. I'm tired but I got one more day of work then Saturday my rest day for now because the XU-NSTP did not yet start their tutorial session. I'll be very busy next month. There are a lot of upcoming contest in school, investigatory projects, and reading tutorials with the XU college students. I'll be handling 40 pupils and 40 students for three straight hours in a Saturday. I hope this batch is fine and dedicated just like last year's batch. God bless you. I hope I'm ok now. I think I am now hehehe

haircut

I went home early from school today. I was supposed to meet my professor but my friend did not text me ahead that he is going to school with me after class. Anyway it turn out that he was there waiting for me hoping that I will show up but I did go to school because I was thinking that he might not be there because he did not text me instead I went out and print forms. I'm kinda bit guilty but I guess it was not my fault he should have text me before the time or earlier. I'm glad that he was not mad at me but he went to our professor and set an appointment hopefully I'll be going there on Wednesday. It so happen that it rain so hard that I could not get out of the internet cafe which I have printed my papers because of the rain. luckily near the the cafe was my friend's beauty parlor without any plan I have my hair cut and my nails trimmed in no time. Funny my mother was shock when I went home because I got a new hair style. She was laughing at me she couldn't believe what I have done to my hair. I don't usually cut my hair without her consent. I think this one of the time which I have done something that I have decided myself. Whenever I have plans and do something I always consult my family well just for an haircut It's no big deal yet for me it is something because whenever I decided and plan something by myself I always make sure that in the end I won't regret and end up unhappy. I wish I'll grow up not in size and be independent but being a grown up and independent requires to be responsible and courageous to face the challenges in life. Maybe I've grown up and I'm responsible the only thing is that I'm still in my comfort zone yet only to find out that I'm already in the real world.

POEM 07-12-09

Rain fall down from the sky makes me think of the sky that burst into tears. Mixed Emotions that filled within flows down the droplets of rain in my space. Fall, fall down till the pain is gone. Shed tears until you have none. Share your life on us as our surroundings will be filled with your water. Spread the life giving water to those living creatures who thirst and long for you. Pour down rain let the ground clean up and clear the path for those who are lost so that they could find there way back home.

POEM 07-09-09

TO FIGHT AND NOT TO SURRENDER

I'm ok I maybe shaken but I will never let myself fall.

They might hurt me but I will stand firm and endure the pain.

They might put me to the test and challenge me, then I'll take it.

Life may treat me bad but I'll never be fooled of its tricky game because in the end

I know in every battle I take I always win hehehehe

My lucky day

I'm happy because finally I got to talk with my parent. (about the SK) I understand how hard the situation is even if I'm not a mother. I could sympathize the sentiments of his mother. It's kinda complicated and the last thing his mom told me was ako na daw ang bahala sa kanya anak imagine that was a big responsibility but I take it anyway it's my job. I'm positive that this kid will change. I'll turn him as a proactive instead of being reactive. It's gradual and not abrupt. I will always think that it is possible and that he still have the chance to change his ways and that he could be a better person. I'm still busy and I'm still stuck with my mahiwagang thesis proposal. I'll finish this soon I wish my study will be approve. I'll be seeing my professor this saturday. Wish me luck

poem 07-04-09

Thoughts to Ponder

It's ok to get hurt but don't let it destroy you.
It's ok to get angry but don't let it swallow you.

It's ok to fail but don't let it happen again.

It's ok to be lonely but don't make it last forever.

We got the choice in what to feel.

Our moods depend on how we respond to the things that happens to us.

Enjoy life. Remember we are the captain of our own ship.

Happy weekend my friend

I'm tired

I wanted to rest maybe later. I got a lot of things to do. Try fixing everything and all the things I need to fix. I just wish that a genie would pop out and grant my wish and my command, perhaps I would want to have a rest, I want that all my task will be done and that I will become the best teacher there is. hhehehe just dreaming but nothing is impossible anyway I just got to fulfill my dreams by moving forward and try to do the best possible ways to reach it, to walk an extra mile and to act on what I really wanted to happen. Have a great day my friend.

Yes! Good News

I went to the doctor and I found out that I'm ok maybe that was just psychological and stress over worked. I'm fine now. I have to be healthy for six long months my doctor will have her vacation in Europe. wow! good for her. she all got the money and time. I wish that someday I could tour the world too perhaps visit my sister out there. Life I got to stop thinking about that I still got a lot of task to be done here. God bless you all. -my article was done in a hurry because my sister wants me to help her.

My Cousin Honey and Moments last March with ate lilet, darl, manang chic-chic, ate ann-ann and Jun

Me, Honey, Ate Lilet, Ate an, darl and Manang Chic in Penang Shangrila Plaza

busog au ko dri hehehe

Manang chic-chic, Me and Ate Lilet in Edsa Shrine

Ate lilet, me and Darl Ocean park Manila
Honey, jun-jun, me and darl at Shalom

Darl, Honey and Me outside Mall of Asia

I'm excited to see my cousin. She's coming tomorrow. We are all going to attend the wedding of our cousin. This event just happens once in a blue moon, when we gather together as relatives and families. We seldom see each other since she move in Manila to work there as a call center agent. We are in same age and we were both classmates in grade school. I can say that she is my close cousin. We have same wave lengths, same status in terms of love life, same choices of food when we have food tripping walk not to mention our favorite takoyaki and sing-a-long sessions. Being with her is really fun. We can talk anything at anytime. Since we are both busy we seldom communicate exchange text messages and traditionally i her call on the phone on Christmas and New Years eve. Just last March I went to visit her in Manila. Above is pictures taken last March.

normal day

I'm in a real world now. Back to normal. I'm happy that my kids are good and obedient. I hope it stays that way until the end. Problems may come and go but I know I'm not alone and that everything happens for a purpose. It's but natural to encounter such things. It makes us grow to become better individuals. Have a nice day my friend. hope life treats you right too. Big Bro is in charge of us let us just trust in Him and do our best.

Fighting For Ones Right

People who are in the bigger positions in a company, institution or simply in an organization is always the last to decide whatever it is to be decided in a certain situation. A great leader must be fair, just, hardworking, honest, faithful, humble, has deeper sense of endurance, has moral values, responsible and understanding. Great leaders are serve as guiding light to all it's members. Therefore they must be role models in the organization. One of the most important thing he must practice is to have justice. Justice must always be prevail. In everything he does and decide there must be justice to it. But some leaders are corrupt they are taking advantage to their own interest, step on somebody's right and selfish in deciding some matters that needs to be discussed in a fair way. playing favorites and oppressing those who are their less favorite. I'm telling you all that If you felt your right is violated and you are being abused. Fight for it. You have the right to fight for your right. Doing this means that we are able to be agents of change. Changing the bad practice and making it right. I wish our future leaders are not like this and even worst when they become crabs to their co-workers. I hope that this does not happen in a real sense I hope its just in my imagination.

My wild imagination-A poem about the bud

I'm like a bud that was pulled by an innocent child in the garden where full of bud's like me were yet to bloom.
Yet my destiny is to bloom in no time. It's either to choose if I'm going to die or to hold on to the waters i'm in.
It would be my choice if I'm going to stay as a bud or open myself and bloom as I should be.
It was hard, I have to think and find ways for me to survive for me to live or just let things be and give in to the risk of drowning myself and die.

As time goes by luckily, i have survived, endured and surpass my plight. Through all the difficulties, I know that it made me stronger and faithful to someone who is greater than me.

poem 2007

I love

I love making mistakes because it reminds me that I'm not perfect.
I love letting go because it taught me how to say goodbye.
I love being criticized by other people because it taught me to be humble.
I love being rejected it taught me to love myself.
I love being different because it made me realize that I'm unique.
I love change because it taught me how to become a better person.
I love all these things because it molds and forms me to become a real person inside me.

Just For a Thought

I look at life as I see a dying person fighting for his life.

I feel how love is strong as I comfort a broken hearted friend.

I notice growth as I look at the tree that was once shorter than me.

I see light as the sun shines covered the sky.

I have faith when I feel I have no one to turn to.

I see hope as each day unfolds my life.

In every breath I take, I know I'm not alone.