Reality

I don't know what will happen tomorrow but I'm happy that it will be just another ordinary day for me. My brother is coming home from Manila. I hope that he got something for us hehehe. Anyway, I called up my sister today She sounds like she is sick. She told us that she is still adjusting to the climate there. I hope that she will be fine. I also wrote an e-mail to her. I'm quite sad again because I got to remember her again when she was still here in the Philippines. When they were here when I'm on my way from school I always look forward to see their car parked outside the house and now when I go home from school there is no more car that I look forward to see then I realized that I still miss my sister and I was just pretending that I'm ok. It is ok this too shall pass I know that I'll get over this soon. I know someday I'll visit them soon. Not now but soon.

The Final Day

I never wish this to happen but I need to let go and say goodbye for awhile for my sister and her family. I did not go with them in the airport since I still have a class. I was the one who prepared breakfast that day when they are going to Manila. I was so sad then imagine I made history because I'm the only person who got teary eyes while chopping garlic instead of the onions hehehe I was late I was supposed to be on leave but I got no choice because the day before that I was sent to another school science competition and I wasn't able to have a class then. Life has to go on I always thought before that I could not survive with it but I was wrong I know that I could get over this soon not now.

Time is up

In a few days from now, my sister and her family is going to Canada. I know for sure that I'm going to miss them especially my sister. Ate lilet is the only person that I could talk to in whatever I feel, bothered with and even financial problems aside from tatay since Mand mopsy moved to the states. I wish her and her family a happy and prosperous life there in Canada. I know that I could survive without her but it will take time for me to adjust to it that is life after all. I've been through this I know that in time I will be ok.

The Family Pictures

I'm ok today in fact I prepared a lot of illustrations and instructional materials for tomorrow. My sister was here and she was organizing the pictures in a huge box where nanay place all the pictures we had eversince we were not born. When I reached home, I'm looking at the pictures organized by my ate. I saw pictures of our grandma and grandpa and other people I don't know. Some were old picture the evidence is that it is all black and white. The funny thing was I saw my pictures when I was still young. I look cute and I'm still thin that time. I could not believe that I look that way those pictures reminds me of the past. The pictures that my sister were collecting was our family pictures those pictures that were taken from the time that we are still young until the present. She planned to post in the net soon when she is done scanning it. Traditionally, every Christmas and New Year we always have our family pictures taken. We had a lot of fun back then. We eat together and pray together. We are just simple we go to church, have our picture taking session and then celebrate Christmas at home, when the clock stroke twelve we then have exchange gifts. Life is simple before that is why I have a happy childhood in spite of the difficulties we have encountered before. The family stays solid and united. We make Christ as a center of our lives. Nanay and tatay always remind us to pray the rosary and have a strong faith in God. They told us that their secret in life is to live in prayers. They maybe strict but they give us the freedom to enjoy life, to choose what path we take and to stood for the choices we make. Have a nice day my friend. (",)

* you may wonder why I post an ice cream picture It's because our family loves to eat cream. hehehehe

My Secret Revealed

When I was still young I'm fond of watching television. My mother wonders why I always stood near the television while we are watching. I started to enter preschool in a very young age. I'm not interested in going to school that time all I ever wanted is to play and have fun. When I get bored in school I will just tell my yaya that I wanted to go home. There was a point that we really went home because I don't want to go to school. I got scolded by my sister that's why I didn't do the cutting classes no more. When I reached grade one, I'm a slow learner my teacher would spank me because I always got zero and I can't read not even a word. I have the hard time learning in school. I have my tutorials in the afternoon after class in the morning. I felt that I'm a worst pupil there is. All throughout my childhood years I felt so inferior that I'm a slow learner but my sister who loves me unconditionally gave out all her time teaching me how to read. My teachers too walk an extra mile for me to learn and have their patience lengthen. When I'm in grade three I was able to learn how to read and comprehend stories that I read. Slowly, I got active in class discussion and participate in oral recitation. When I reach high school i was able to survive and graduate with passing grades. I was supposed to take biology in college but my teacher told me in my face that I'm not good enough taking biology that's why I took something I really wanted to do and that is a course where I could write and share my thoughts. Without any comments from my mother, I took mass communication in first year college. She gave me all the freedom later did I know that she planned to let me transfer in another school and let me shift to Education. It was hard for me to accept it but I have to it's for me future. I have positive attitude in teaching. I also love kids. I will not miss writing because there is also lesson planning and reporting which is demonstration and facilitating the kids learning. I survived again with hard work and patience even if the school is a melting pot of different people I was able to adjust to the kind of environment then I graduated I was preparing for my board exam that time I discover that I have an eye problem quite alarming because I can no longer hardly see the writings posted in the projector. Until I was invited to play the guitar in the mass where my sister works, I got so many errors in playing the notes because the chords were written in a small case font. My sister scolded me again and advises me to see an ophthalmologist to check my eyes. I really did went to the doctor. There I found out that my cornea in my left eye was not opened well. he said that it was inborn. My right eye was already strained because it is already overworked that result to a very poor eye sight known as myopic astigmatism. The doctor told me if only it was discovered earlier when I was still a child, It would have been corrected. When i went home that day I realized that I'm not really that dumb anyway. My sister cried and pitied me when she found out the findings of the doctor. She apologized to me for acting that way. There are a lot of effects on me. Sometimes I could interchange letters and words in my readings and also when I write there are times I could omit some words. I'm a special child told you. I think my teachers are proud of me now because the slow learner carms they knew became a teacher. Funny ironic huh God bless you my friend.

Thoughts for Today

I wash all my clothes today. Watch over the baby and after that sleep for three hours. When I woke up I rest for awhile then I take bath then go straight to church. I treat myself with a little cone of ice cream and sharwarma. I don't understand what I'm into right now, maybe this is the result of feeling so bored in my life. I should not be feeling this way thats why I went out and have my window shopping alone as always. I prefer going out alone than to have someone with me. My friends told me if I'm not afraid going out alone I said no because I'm used to it anyway. I remember that there was a time when I was with my nephew and sister unfortunately I miss to wear my eyeglasses and I did not brought my celphone. I was lost with my nephew and It was really hard for me to look for my sister because I could not see well. My nephew was still a little boy that time. Luckily, my sister found us there standing in the corner. I got so nervous. My sister scolded us because we were heading at the wrong direction that is why we got lost. From that time on I never miss to wear my eyeglasses no more. I feel much ok when I reach home. I just got to pray harder than before. Tomorrow is another day got to get ready. God bless you