Pain

      I don't know . All I know I'm kind a bit sad of the fact that this year, I experience a lot of pains and why such things happen to me but I'm hoping that in these things that happened to me I hope it would have something in it that would lead me to something better in life. I learn a lot of things from the experience, i could ask myself why such things happened to me. i know for sure that I'm not alone I knew that all of us have our own pains and sufferings in life. I have never imagine that those things will happen to me. Charge to experience, I'm lucky that I never experience how it feels to have a broken heart. I never had a relationship. In every pain I should be reminded of how Christ suffered and died on the cross. I should be thankful through all these pains I'm going through right now this reminds  me that I'm human and that I could feel pain that in every pain I'm suffering I'm saving a soul and through all these pains I become a stronger person than I was before. I become more prayerful and trusting to God. I've been in hell before and experience the life without God. I don't want to go back to that life anymore. I need to move  on and transcend from the situation I'm in right now. In pain there is strength so God grant me more pains so that i could be the most strongest person ever existed in this world.Thank you Lord. Have a good day my friend.

The mask

I've been lazy lately. It just that I was so upset to one of my pupils. It is no big deal now I have forgiven her anyway but the only thing changes was that I don't trust her anymore. It pains me to remember that I put my trust on her and yet she broke it in her own way. I don't want to tell what happen to protect her. I thought she was true but now I found out that she is wearing a mask. amazing because she deceives me so badly. At least now her true self was revealed. I learned my lesson now that I should just not trust easily but knowing myself I don't actually trust that easily i just chose her because I really thought she is sincere. Next time I would always have to choose who is worthy and reliable. Have a cool day friends it is raining here in our place.

Thinking Positive thoughts

When things got so very depressing I always try to change it to different mode. It helps sometimes but sometimes it doesn't. I hope that everything will be fine soon. I'm not losing hope I'm still thinking that things will get better. Everything happens for a reason whatever that is I know it is for the better. My thesis proposal is still sleeping and trying to survive. I got to move now after this Division Science Competition I could now focus to it. I still could not find ways to insert it in my schedule but hopefully I could divide my time. I have to be positive that I could accomplish it before the semester ends. Things will change next week and I got to prepare myself. I have no choice but to accept that change it is for my own good. I know I will survive and I could adjust to it well. It make take time for me to be fully adjusted to the kind of situation but I know I will be fine soon. Pray for me

Work and work again

I got a lot of pending work to do. I just wish and pray I could finish all of these tonight. I wish that everything will turn out right. I can't understand what I feel inside me. I know this is not just the first time I'm feeling this way. I just always remind myself that this too shall pass. I got to pray harder now that I feel that I'm helpless. I got to hold on. I got to prepare for tomorrow's lesson. I wish that tomorrow will be a beautiful and inspiring day for me and for my pupils. Talking about the weather, The temperature is rising and it's really warm in here. I miss the rain. Tomorrow is another day. I got to experience life and touch others life tomorrow. It's another mission to fulfill and to make things better. Even if there are fears and anxiety inside I got to face every plight and challenge with a smile in my face and positive mind to shield me from the things that may cause me to be weak. Go Carms you can do it. No time to surrender now. God bless you my friend

Awesome Friday

Today we have our Nutrition Month Culminating activity. The class prepared fruit salad and the other one was the unplanned vegetable dish made by my pupils. I was overwhelmed by their efforts bringing all the materials without being told. I only prepare ingredients for the fruit salad I was surprised when they brought with them the vegetables, wood, cooking utensils and other ingredients. I prayed hard that the activity will be successful but It was more that I have asked for. Speaking about the good news I was surprised that I'm already promoted that was fast. I could not believe what I have discovered today. I was asking am I dreaming? Am I qualified? Is it really true? I was shocked and I was just staring at the walls my other co-teacher cried because she could not believe that she was also promoted. Thank you God, Jesus, Mama Mary and all the Saints in heaven it is like a miracle. I got to have my thanksgiving mass for all the graces I have received this year. Other happy news was my sister and her family received their Canada Visa today which means that they are going to Canada and permanently live there the sad part is that I'm going to miss them especially my Ate. Ate lilet is always been there for me whenever I needed her since Mand mopsy my other sister moved in the States. I hate saying goodbye and I don't like missing someone. That is life after all I've been through a lot of separation from my best friend who migrated to the states after our graduation in grade school, to my grandpa, grandma and aunt who are in heaven right now, my sisters who are in the States, my cousin honey who is in Manila and now, ate and her family is going to Canada.Life has to go on I just got to think that I may not see them always but they always remain in my heart and in my thoughts. God bless you my friend happy weekend.

normal day

I'm in a real world now. Back to normal. I'm happy that my kids are good and obedient. I hope it stays that way until the end. Problems may come and go but I know I'm not alone and that everything happens for a purpose. It's but natural to encounter such things. It makes us grow to become better individuals. Have a nice day my friend. hope life treats you right too. Big Bro is in charge of us let us just trust in Him and do our best.

A Message To God (",)

Lord thanks for everything. I know that you know what i'm going through and what I have been through and yet you never left me eversince I was a kid. You are the ultimate One that I always cling to. I'm happy that You taught me how to be patient, You taught me how to love, how to endure pain, how to accept defeat, how to be humble , how to forgive and how to share. I'm sorry if at so many times I have a lot of shortcomings to You ,yet You always forgive and give me many chances to go back into your arms. You already knew my ultimate dream but sad to say I wasn't able to be the person I wanted to be I know that everything happens for a reason and from where I am today I know that you are the one who brought me here, place me here to fulfill a mission and be one of the agents for change and all of me is always a part of you. God without You I'm nothing and without You I'm sure I won't be surviving in all the adversities and all the storms in life. I love you and I hope that you will be always be with me forever.