Finally, Now I know.......

I was so bothered these past few days and now finally the worries are totally gone. I discovered that one of my pupils has a serious family problem. Ever since June, I always thought of winning his heart but I failed since he is not willing and he won't open up to me. Frustrating to know but maybe and surely he is hurting inside. He always wanted to be seen in the class, he wanted to appear bad and infamous to his classmates and he never took his studies seriously. I tried hard to reach out for him, but he is so close and he is so hurt that he can't even love himself for the reason he felt that his life is meaningless. He acts as if he never cares for anything and anyone even to himself. In my opinion, maybe it is his way of expressing himself how hurt he is. I feel so sad hearing the reality of what his family is going through. Now, I understand why he acted that way. I pitied him and I assure him that everything will be fine. Ding-dong is not the only pupil who got this problem. In my second batch of pupils before almost all of them suffered from this kind of problem only that those pupils were mature enough to accept that their parents could no longer be together and that they have moved on and let go of it. Accepting such thing is a process. It is hard and hurting in fact some never did escape from it but destroyed their life and ruined it. Prayer, support and guidance should be given to him. I'm praying that his wounds will be healed and that he will accept everything. In my own little way I will help him and free him from his wounded heart. Have a happy weekend my friend.

The Good Son

I have a pupil who is a head turner to all his classmates not because he is good in the class but because he has his attitudes that his classmates don't like. He teases, make fun and hurt his classmates in so many ways. Everytime he do all these things naturally I always see to it to tell him what is right and what he should supposed to treat his classmates. I do believe that he can actually be a good boy. I wonder why he is like that. In a long time of waiting I finally able to talk with his mother. The thing was the statement of his mother and father are different from each other. When I have encounters with them. I'm kind of confused of whom to believe. For his dad he is not good. He even told me that he is an headache to his mother but when I talked to his mother she told me that of all her sons he is the most kind and responsible. I'm so puzzled that I could not believe of what she told me. I come to realized that maybe they really have a problem in their family in which his mother wanted to keep it. It is unbelievable when the child displays a different person in the class far different from who he is at home. There must be a problem behind it. The thing that I choose to believe was that in his life there must be an empty space that needs to be fill that is affection, attention and love.

The mask

I've been lazy lately. It just that I was so upset to one of my pupils. It is no big deal now I have forgiven her anyway but the only thing changes was that I don't trust her anymore. It pains me to remember that I put my trust on her and yet she broke it in her own way. I don't want to tell what happen to protect her. I thought she was true but now I found out that she is wearing a mask. amazing because she deceives me so badly. At least now her true self was revealed. I learned my lesson now that I should just not trust easily but knowing myself I don't actually trust that easily i just chose her because I really thought she is sincere. Next time I would always have to choose who is worthy and reliable. Have a cool day friends it is raining here in our place.