What I wish

Sometimes I wish everything will end. Yet whenever I remember those people who fought and won in the battle called life I then refused to give up. I know I have been through a lot of pains and hardship in life and the fact is I always thought I could not survived by it but I did it. I have surpassed every challenge and problems I have encountered in my life. God is always with me and I thank Him for all the strength and endurance He gave me. In all my articles I always say "I" now I again came to realized maybe I'm self-centered am I? I started to question myself not again. I'm too busy thinking of my work and all that. I concentrate in the things that I should do I just came to realized I forgot to think of other people maybe not totally but almost at least I'm aware of it. What concern me now are my pupils. They are the only people I always talk with and share all my thoughts. I wish that they will be transform into better individuals and grow up to be mature and responsible being in this planet. If I'm here at home I watch over my nieces, I listen to my mother's sentiments, I deal with the issues of my brother and sister and I always see to it that I check on tatay everyday. There are things that I wanted to do in my family perhaps buy a new house for nanay that is what she wanted me to do, Give a two scholarship grants for my nieces, A whole supply of medicines for tatay and nanay and I don't know with my siblings they got their own life anyway. Sad thing because I still got to wait for the right time for me to do all those things maybe in the right time. I'm holding on to it. Basta God knows all I want and all I need.

Reality

I don't know what will happen tomorrow but I'm happy that it will be just another ordinary day for me. My brother is coming home from Manila. I hope that he got something for us hehehe. Anyway, I called up my sister today She sounds like she is sick. She told us that she is still adjusting to the climate there. I hope that she will be fine. I also wrote an e-mail to her. I'm quite sad again because I got to remember her again when she was still here in the Philippines. When they were here when I'm on my way from school I always look forward to see their car parked outside the house and now when I go home from school there is no more car that I look forward to see then I realized that I still miss my sister and I was just pretending that I'm ok. It is ok this too shall pass I know that I'll get over this soon. I know someday I'll visit them soon. Not now but soon.

Moving on

I'm moving on now. I have to go on with life even if my sister is not here. I have a lot of things to do and i have to accomplish a lot of things. I have a lot of task to do too. I wish I could finish them all next week. School is quite frustrating especially to those who care less of their education. I have no choice but to do my job on reminding them everyday that they must do good in their studies. Speaking of the current situation of the country honestly, my heart breaks seeing those people who lost lives and victims of a natural disaster. I hope and pray that all those who are missing are found and all those people who lost their love ones to remain strong and just hold on to whatever they could hold on to. I know for sure that God is there and He will never leave us.

The Final Day

I never wish this to happen but I need to let go and say goodbye for awhile for my sister and her family. I did not go with them in the airport since I still have a class. I was the one who prepared breakfast that day when they are going to Manila. I was so sad then imagine I made history because I'm the only person who got teary eyes while chopping garlic instead of the onions hehehe I was late I was supposed to be on leave but I got no choice because the day before that I was sent to another school science competition and I wasn't able to have a class then. Life has to go on I always thought before that I could not survive with it but I was wrong I know that I could get over this soon not now.

Time is up

In a few days from now, my sister and her family is going to Canada. I know for sure that I'm going to miss them especially my sister. Ate lilet is the only person that I could talk to in whatever I feel, bothered with and even financial problems aside from tatay since Mand mopsy moved to the states. I wish her and her family a happy and prosperous life there in Canada. I know that I could survive without her but it will take time for me to adjust to it that is life after all. I've been through this I know that in time I will be ok.

Thinking Positive thoughts

When things got so very depressing I always try to change it to different mode. It helps sometimes but sometimes it doesn't. I hope that everything will be fine soon. I'm not losing hope I'm still thinking that things will get better. Everything happens for a reason whatever that is I know it is for the better. My thesis proposal is still sleeping and trying to survive. I got to move now after this Division Science Competition I could now focus to it. I still could not find ways to insert it in my schedule but hopefully I could divide my time. I have to be positive that I could accomplish it before the semester ends. Things will change next week and I got to prepare myself. I have no choice but to accept that change it is for my own good. I know I will survive and I could adjust to it well. It make take time for me to be fully adjusted to the kind of situation but I know I will be fine soon. Pray for me

Wandering around

I've been going around in circles trying to escape yet for sure I'm nowhere to go and there is no way out. I have to face whatever there is I need to resolve there is no turning back anyway I got to move on. I know it is not easy but I have to try. It's yna's birthday today. I got emotional when I remembered what happen last year. It's a turning point in my life then. I never knew that I could survive from that situation. I don't want to tell you now I'm sure I'm going to burst maybe next time I still can't get over it when It cross my mind. The birthday went well yna is now 2 I hope she grow up to be a good, intelligent and God fearing child. Tomorrow is the day I've been waiting for. God bless you my friend

Yipee!

I'm done yes! at last the skills training was over. I'm so impressed with my two student volunteers they are really good. The XU-NSTP students were very good too. I think that this batch is ok. They are smart, intelligent and serious I hope that first impression last. They were very excited for next Saturday. They say that they learned a lot of things from me I too have learned from them. Nice! The investigatory project is done already all I need is to create the presentation for the exhibit and contest. I hope I will be able to cope with the pressure I'm facing right now. I'm positive that this too shall pass. I got the chance to chat with my sisters last night. I'm so happy chatting with them. My niece sophia sang a song for me. She does got potential. I miss them but I have no choice all I have to think is that at least I have the chance to talk to them. God Bless you my friend.

Awesome Friday

Today we have our Nutrition Month Culminating activity. The class prepared fruit salad and the other one was the unplanned vegetable dish made by my pupils. I was overwhelmed by their efforts bringing all the materials without being told. I only prepare ingredients for the fruit salad I was surprised when they brought with them the vegetables, wood, cooking utensils and other ingredients. I prayed hard that the activity will be successful but It was more that I have asked for. Speaking about the good news I was surprised that I'm already promoted that was fast. I could not believe what I have discovered today. I was asking am I dreaming? Am I qualified? Is it really true? I was shocked and I was just staring at the walls my other co-teacher cried because she could not believe that she was also promoted. Thank you God, Jesus, Mama Mary and all the Saints in heaven it is like a miracle. I got to have my thanksgiving mass for all the graces I have received this year. Other happy news was my sister and her family received their Canada Visa today which means that they are going to Canada and permanently live there the sad part is that I'm going to miss them especially my Ate. Ate lilet is always been there for me whenever I needed her since Mand mopsy my other sister moved in the States. I hate saying goodbye and I don't like missing someone. That is life after all I've been through a lot of separation from my best friend who migrated to the states after our graduation in grade school, to my grandpa, grandma and aunt who are in heaven right now, my sisters who are in the States, my cousin honey who is in Manila and now, ate and her family is going to Canada.Life has to go on I just got to think that I may not see them always but they always remain in my heart and in my thoughts. God bless you my friend happy weekend.

Busy Monday

I'm very busy today. I went out from the school to fix papers for my license and for my transcript of records. I accomplished everything today the only thing I'm going to do now is to waiting for the time I'm going to get the papers I processed today. Life is bit tiring but I just got to stay focus. i received a good news from the school I didn't expect since I really didn't mind about it. I'm glad because it was a big surprise to me. I'll tell you in time what is that all about if I already fix everything. I'm so excited. I actually receive a package from ate Flor the friend of my sister. She gave me a box of Pili nuts and goodies courtesy of ate Aime. It is really delicious and it is fresh from Bicol. About the weather forecast, it is raining again. The rapid change of weather cause people to get sick. I got one pupil who is already two weeks absent and others get sick just this weekend and are absent today. I just wish they get well now and be in school tomorrow. I got to prepare for school tomorrow. I got new and excited strategy for the kids. I hope it works even if their attendance is not perfect. God Bless you my friend.

Cool Saturday

It rained the whole day today. The streets are all muddy, the climate is cool and my asthma now is ok. I'm ok now, I just need to rest. I miss mister sun. Oh Mister Sun,sun, Mister golden sun please shine down on me. Line from a song hehehe I never did see a trace of the sun today. The sky is all covered with dark heavy clouds. I was able to pay my bills and prepared a delicious experimented sandwich. My mother was actually wondering what I'm preparing. She was the first person to taste it. It taste good. yehey ! success. They actually consumed three packs of slice bread today because of that sandwich spread i made. I seldom cook now and even prepare food in the house because I don't have much time for that. now that I got the chance I then grab the opportunity. I'm so happy. I got to fix a lot of things today just hope I could finish all up today. God bless u my friend

Article of the day

hi there friends, It's a great friday evening. I'm with my niece yna. She is actually busy playing around my room. My asthma is still here with me but I can manage to breathe and keep myself alive. Anyway, it's really hot in here don't know why. the weather is been changing over and over again. I guess that is the main reason why there are a lot of kids and even old ones got sick because of the change in weather. I hope everything will be ok now. Tomorrow is no class day yehey! I love Saturdays for now because I don't have much busy schedules just resting and maybe I'll be paying my bills tomorrow. I guess I got to end up the article my niece is playing with the mouse and maybe later she is going to restart the computer. God bless and happy weekend

The Family Pictures

I'm ok today in fact I prepared a lot of illustrations and instructional materials for tomorrow. My sister was here and she was organizing the pictures in a huge box where nanay place all the pictures we had eversince we were not born. When I reached home, I'm looking at the pictures organized by my ate. I saw pictures of our grandma and grandpa and other people I don't know. Some were old picture the evidence is that it is all black and white. The funny thing was I saw my pictures when I was still young. I look cute and I'm still thin that time. I could not believe that I look that way those pictures reminds me of the past. The pictures that my sister were collecting was our family pictures those pictures that were taken from the time that we are still young until the present. She planned to post in the net soon when she is done scanning it. Traditionally, every Christmas and New Year we always have our family pictures taken. We had a lot of fun back then. We eat together and pray together. We are just simple we go to church, have our picture taking session and then celebrate Christmas at home, when the clock stroke twelve we then have exchange gifts. Life is simple before that is why I have a happy childhood in spite of the difficulties we have encountered before. The family stays solid and united. We make Christ as a center of our lives. Nanay and tatay always remind us to pray the rosary and have a strong faith in God. They told us that their secret in life is to live in prayers. They maybe strict but they give us the freedom to enjoy life, to choose what path we take and to stood for the choices we make. Have a nice day my friend. (",)

* you may wonder why I post an ice cream picture It's because our family loves to eat cream. hehehehe

My Secret Revealed

When I was still young I'm fond of watching television. My mother wonders why I always stood near the television while we are watching. I started to enter preschool in a very young age. I'm not interested in going to school that time all I ever wanted is to play and have fun. When I get bored in school I will just tell my yaya that I wanted to go home. There was a point that we really went home because I don't want to go to school. I got scolded by my sister that's why I didn't do the cutting classes no more. When I reached grade one, I'm a slow learner my teacher would spank me because I always got zero and I can't read not even a word. I have the hard time learning in school. I have my tutorials in the afternoon after class in the morning. I felt that I'm a worst pupil there is. All throughout my childhood years I felt so inferior that I'm a slow learner but my sister who loves me unconditionally gave out all her time teaching me how to read. My teachers too walk an extra mile for me to learn and have their patience lengthen. When I'm in grade three I was able to learn how to read and comprehend stories that I read. Slowly, I got active in class discussion and participate in oral recitation. When I reach high school i was able to survive and graduate with passing grades. I was supposed to take biology in college but my teacher told me in my face that I'm not good enough taking biology that's why I took something I really wanted to do and that is a course where I could write and share my thoughts. Without any comments from my mother, I took mass communication in first year college. She gave me all the freedom later did I know that she planned to let me transfer in another school and let me shift to Education. It was hard for me to accept it but I have to it's for me future. I have positive attitude in teaching. I also love kids. I will not miss writing because there is also lesson planning and reporting which is demonstration and facilitating the kids learning. I survived again with hard work and patience even if the school is a melting pot of different people I was able to adjust to the kind of environment then I graduated I was preparing for my board exam that time I discover that I have an eye problem quite alarming because I can no longer hardly see the writings posted in the projector. Until I was invited to play the guitar in the mass where my sister works, I got so many errors in playing the notes because the chords were written in a small case font. My sister scolded me again and advises me to see an ophthalmologist to check my eyes. I really did went to the doctor. There I found out that my cornea in my left eye was not opened well. he said that it was inborn. My right eye was already strained because it is already overworked that result to a very poor eye sight known as myopic astigmatism. The doctor told me if only it was discovered earlier when I was still a child, It would have been corrected. When i went home that day I realized that I'm not really that dumb anyway. My sister cried and pitied me when she found out the findings of the doctor. She apologized to me for acting that way. There are a lot of effects on me. Sometimes I could interchange letters and words in my readings and also when I write there are times I could omit some words. I'm a special child told you. I think my teachers are proud of me now because the slow learner carms they knew became a teacher. Funny ironic huh God bless you my friend.

The Busy Bee Part II

I thought I don't have work to do but I have lots of them. My Lesson plan, my performance target and my mahiwagang thesis proposal. I'm sure my professor is looking for me. If only she got my number she would probably be texting me now. Life is busy I'm starting to get confuse in what to do. I got chores in the house, I got nieces to take care of, I got nanay and tatay to look after and I got myself too hehehe. I'm ok after this, I will start doing the things I need to do. Lucky the two babies are now asleep I just hope they won't be waking up as early as one o'clock in the morning and play hehehe. I hope. God bless. Happy Weekend my friend.

rest,relax and enjoy

I got a long vacation here not to mention my two days official leave plus weekend and two holidays. Independence Day (June 12) and Cagayan de Oro's Day (June 15). I'm wishing to enjoy all these days but my throat ache reminds me to rest and relax and think of enjoying the moment so that I will not spoil my holidays. I don't want to be sick but I did get sick poor me. I just read from my research that I have a strep throat. Strep throat is a bacterial infection of the tissues in the back of the throat (pharynx) and the tonsils or adenoids. The tissues become irritated and inflamed, causing a sudden, severe sore throat. No need to worry my bro in law Dr. Peter George J. Tian who is an ENT prescribed a medicine for my aching throat. thanks to him and to my sister ate lilet, tatay and nanay for helping me. (",)

Happenings.....

The wedding was successful. Nice and unique wedding. Imagine the entourage march theme was from star wars except when the bride's turn to march. It was well planned and prepared by my cousin and his wife. I also did a great job being the first reader. Unfortunately, when I arrived at Butuan City, I got sick I was chilling. Until now I'm still not well. lucky me I'm going back to work on Tuesday. Before we went back to CDO we were able to visit our lola, have a glance at the old house, the farm and hang out with our tito. It was fun even if I'm not feeling well. I hope I'll be ok soon.

Travel

I'll be going to Butuan City tomorrow after my class and I already sign my application for leave. This coming June 10 is the wedding of my cousin. We are all going to attend the wedding. I don't want to be absent in school but this event only happens once in a life time. It's like we are having a get together for relatives we seldom see and be with. I'm excited to eat the coconut pulp and drink coconut juice there fresh from the coconut tree. hehehe of course get to see my cousins, aunt, uncle, grandma and friends.

My Cousin Honey and Moments last March with ate lilet, darl, manang chic-chic, ate ann-ann and Jun

Me, Honey, Ate Lilet, Ate an, darl and Manang Chic in Penang Shangrila Plaza

busog au ko dri hehehe

Manang chic-chic, Me and Ate Lilet in Edsa Shrine

Ate lilet, me and Darl Ocean park Manila
Honey, jun-jun, me and darl at Shalom

Darl, Honey and Me outside Mall of Asia

I'm excited to see my cousin. She's coming tomorrow. We are all going to attend the wedding of our cousin. This event just happens once in a blue moon, when we gather together as relatives and families. We seldom see each other since she move in Manila to work there as a call center agent. We are in same age and we were both classmates in grade school. I can say that she is my close cousin. We have same wave lengths, same status in terms of love life, same choices of food when we have food tripping walk not to mention our favorite takoyaki and sing-a-long sessions. Being with her is really fun. We can talk anything at anytime. Since we are both busy we seldom communicate exchange text messages and traditionally i her call on the phone on Christmas and New Years eve. Just last March I went to visit her in Manila. Above is pictures taken last March.

My Speech

Imagine that I'm going to deliver my speech in a large crowd with a well decorated huge stage. here I go saying .... Good day to all of you. Today is the happiest day of my life. The moment that I have been waiting for. Yes! today is indeed a memorable one. After going through a lot of adversity, finally I have already pass my comprehensive exam. Yehey, the long wait is over. I already have won the fight. I fought a good battle. I've been through difficulties before I pass this exam. Last 2007, I failed to pass the 2 subjects out of the 10. I was almost devasted but I realized that everything happens for a reason and a purpose. I learned a lot of things from it. It taught me how to be strong, it taught me how to endure pain, it taught me how to have a strong faith and trust in God, it taught me how to accept defeat, it taught me how to love myself, and most of all it taught me how to be humble. It made me a better person inside me. It is life changing experience and turning point in my life. Before I couldn't imagine what life would be but I have survived it all. Now, I'm totally free from fear, worries and anxiety. I can sleep well. It is a new beginning that I have to face. Words are not enough to thank those people who encouraged, supported, and inspire me to win this battle. Thank you and God bless to my professors Saturnina B. Absin, Ph.D. and Lourdes G. Tolod, Ph.D who gave me the chance to pass the exam. To my parents nanay Letty and tatay Maeng who are there to support me and believe in me, My siblings Manang Pinky, Ate Lilet, Manding Mopsy, Nong Ian and Manay Tata for words of encouragement, To my Brother in law Petiak who help me in my statistics , To my aunt and uncle Tita Bella and Tito Liling who are always praying for me. To my cousins Honey, Manang Chic-Chic, Ate Dingcle, Ate Ann, Nong Bogs, Jun2x and Ronex, To my tita happy and tita coreen and auntie neneng. To my friends Ate Amy, Ate Joy,Donna, Leigh, Judson, Sowaira, Mary Lynne, Vanessa, Ate Janine, Rico and Delia. To maam Judith and Maam Micmic. A million thanks to all of you. Those people who help me in anyway to pass this exam.It feels like I'm in heaven. I know this is just the beginning of a new start. Welcome Thesis Proposal and Final Defense. (",)