New Chapter

It's been a long time since I was sharing my thoughts here. I got so busy because of my thesis. I'm finally done with my thesis proposal defense I'm looking forward in finishing my thesis this semester. Please do pray for my final defense and hopefully graduate this March 2012. I'm so thankful of the blessings that God has given to me. I hope that whatever happens I could surpass everything and be the best that I could. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Reflection of the Day

I wanted to feel happy but its just that I can't find the feeling to be happy. I feel so empty just wanted to sleep and do nothing at all. It's the first day of the month and the sun is not showing up here. It makes me more lazy and gloomy. School is fine today it's just that I'm also aware that I feel like there is something missing in it. I need to give more effort and give my very best because I knew I could still do more maybe I'm just so tired of what I have been through. I realized that I'm always thinking of myself I failed to think of others and I failed to think of the people around me who cares for me and who will always be there to support me. I've been selfish all these time. I need to pull up myself and stop that habit or else I will lose everything that I got and I'll be letting go of the things that I'm holding onto now. I got to change my ways and start to live a new life. I should feel happy, contented and secure. I guess I need a lot of fixing and have that emotional make over too. I hope I could do it. I will try hard for it. Wish me luck. Have a nice day my friend. (",$

Today

It was a rainy day today. I never saw the sun and until this very moment the rain is still pouring down from the sky. I got somehow a not so good day today but I have just resolve a very crucial issue in school. Quite tiring and draining but that's the way it should be. I'm glad it's over now I hope that it never happen ever again. I know that it is God's plan and I hope everything will be fine now. I wonder if there is a low pressure area here in our place. I hope the rainy will stop tomorrow I just miss the sun. Life has to go on no matter what. Have a blessed day my friend.

Trust in God

I don't know how to describe my feelings but I don't have plans to figure it out anyway. Feels like everything is falling apart but I don't have to worry no more what happens, happens. My cousin honey once said that we can't change the past but we can ruin the present by worrying about the future. I just got to think of the worst things that might happen and accept the consequences I have to give it up to God. He is in charge of everything. I need to just let things be. Just got to put all my trust on Him. There is no need for me to be afraid of what will happen otherwise I'll end up six feet under hehehe. I just have to blow it in the wind. Every rain has a rainbow and every pain there is a time to heal. My head aches too much if I think a lot. I better think of happy thoughts that will divert myself from thinking of the bad things that is happening right now. I never give up on life no matter what. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Notice My Article For September

Last September 8, I was already sick that time. I could still remember I was brought to the hospital weeks after that. That was September 21, 2010. I really didn't expect that to happen, but i got no choice but to accept the fact that I'm really sick. Eversince then I keep silent and I just let things be. It was so hard yet I was able to recover that fast. It was a three months adjustment to the situation I'm in. From changing of my food choices, taking up medicines and to losing weight was a bit depressing at first but as time goes by, I was able to cope with the things I'm going through but I realized that I have more strength right now than I have before. I'm stronger and even more a fighter than I was before. Things are going smoothly right now problems are still there and adjustments as well. I'm holding on as i always did to the one that is greater than me and that is GOD. I put all my trust in Him and I always bear in my mind that I shall never, ever give up. Have a nice day my friend.

School Blues

I've been so relax this past two weeks since there is no tutorial sessions last two Saturdays. This week tutorials is resume. I got to report to school this Saturday. I have no problem going to school but what I'm thinking now is that this week our principal is trying to have her classroom observation. I'm kinda nervous about it but I just got to prepare for it or else I'll end up miserable. I hope not. I'm done with some of my requirements in school as well as updating records. I hope I could finish computing the grades. Life is ok now. I just got to stay positive everyday and do my very best in my work. Have a nice day my friend.

Changes

It's been months since I've been writing articles for my blog. I'm been very busy lately with the new schedule in school I got to sleep early as 8pm unlike before I could sleep late as 3am. I need to wake up early as 4am because I need to be in school at 5am and the class starts at 6am and ends at 2pm. My pupils are very good for they are cooperating to the new schedule we got. They got more active in class. I discover that they like the new schedule. Now since the schedule I have a lot of time to research for my thesis. I got to go to places I wanted after class like paying the bills, do the grocery at home and have more quality time with my niece. It's Christmas vacation I don't have anything to do except doing the household chores and preparing for my minor surgery this Monday. I hope everything will be fine. Imagine last Monday I found out that my right ear has a mild hearing loss. I'm not so affected about the doctor's findings I'm just bothered of how painful it is to go through a minor surgery. I'm going to be strong for this. I've been fighting for pneumonia since September this is just one battle I need to win. Advance Merry Christmas everyone.

I'm Speechless

I have nothing to say. I guess I'm just too tired of our activity yesterday. We celebrated the culminating activity for the celebration of the Nutrition month. The class prepared a fruit salad. Everybody was excited and happy yesterday and they are all full. Kids love playing as always I let them play yesterday because we didn't have a formal class. They have so much fun and I just watch them running and playing outside the classroom. This batch of kids are different from last year they are obedient and they have this sense of responsibility. They have the heart and they take their studies seriously but of course there are still kids who I call baby. I have a pupil who is very intelligent. She is really good and show interest in her study. The thing that makes me so worried was she is different from her classmates. She got this behavioral problem. She easily gets irritated, she always wanted to be notice at and she changes moods once in awhile. Honestly, I have the hard time dealing with her but I always see to it that I will not appear as a bad teacher to her. I continue to help her out of her problem. The one thing I feel disappointed with is that she is really good, she got all the brains, beauty and talent to show yet because of her attitude she appears to be a failure because when she got her tantrums everything is ruin and what is hard is that she don't easily let go of her frustration and anger. She would prolong the burden and the hate she felt. I wish I could help her out since I'm going to be with her for ten months probably I could adjust to her attitude and help her resolve her unsolve issues in life. I'm seeking help and cooperation with her classmates maybe it would help her in anyway. This is my mission that I need to accomplish for this year aside from finishing my mahiwagang thesis. I wish God will help me. I'm sure He will. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Powerful Mind

Some people always think that there are some things that is hard to achieve without trying it. Our mind is very powerful. If we think positive and we are determine of the things we wanted to happen that we really happen and if also worked for it and aim to achieve. Obstacles are normal barriers we meet along the way these are only things that strengthen us and give us the clue that we must do good and learn from what we are going through. Believe in yourself, think positive and always keep the faith. Have a happy day my friend.

Yehey! I'm done.

Finally, I'm done with my paper works in school. I still got more papers to accomplish but at least the most important paper is done already. I have to accomplish everything for me to get cleared. I'm not going to serve in the election but I'm going to join the census team this May. I have all the time to accomplish also my thesis proposal. I get so tired this whole week I did nothing but to check all the forms I need to fill up. I'm so sleepy. Got to go now. God bless you

I'm here

I've been busy lately trying to figure out how to get out of the things I wanted to avoid. I think this will never end not until I put an end to this. All I wanted to tell you all is that I'm going through something. I don't know how to get out of it yet I'm trying to. Anyway, today we have our get together with our co-teacher who is retiring from the service. Imagine for 35 straight years she devoted herself in teaching and sharing her life to the kids she handled. I salute her of her patience, endurance, love and humility in our profession. I wish i could reach as far as 30 years in staying and surviving as a teacher. Life as a teacher is not that easy. It needs a lot of strength, courage and guts to stay. Staying means allowing oneself to grow and open to new learnings in life. I wonder if I could survive more than 30 years I hope so. Take care my friend.

Where is the light?

I can't see a thing help me. I'm just joking. I feel really upset of experiencing brown out. I just got to live with it perhaps make it as a sacrifice for the poor souls in purgatory. I went out in the house without thinking that the whole block in our street is so dark yet I still manage to go home safe thank God for that. I still got more pending jobs to do. I'm thankful because I'm busy and I got a job. I always try to look into the brighter side of things now even if there are things that bothers me once in a while but it's just a part of it. These are just spices of life that makes our life more meaningful and challenging as well. I guess I got to enjoy all the brown out thing and including the warm climate. Like what I always say this too shall pass. Have a happy El Niño Phenomenon day.

Love the teeth

I remember before when I was a kid. I always have some things that I love to do. I love to drink milk, play with my playmates and there is one thing I don't forget and that was. I always brush my teeth more than three times a day. I love to clean my mouth. I remember that I could almost consume one whole tube of tooth paste for one week. I don't know I love taking care of my teeth. Honestly there are two aches which I didn't experience and that is heartache due to break ups and toothache hehehe. I still got a healthy teeth until now. I'm thankful that I still have maintain to make my teeth healthy. The secret that I always do is that I never fail to brush my teeth everyday, I don't eat candies all the time (it's one of the rule my mother always reminded my yaya) but I eat chocolates and all the food I love to eat then after that I brush my teeth and I see to it that I have my yearly check up to my dentist. Love your teeth as I love mine. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Catching Up The Deadlines

I've been very busy lately. I still have pending jobs to be done but I know I will finish all of them today. I need to keep going because the school year is almost over. I'll be more busier next week than this week. I'm ok I'm not really tired but just sleepy. The school is going to end this March 31. Some kids are excited, some are not, and some just don't care. I do make sure they are all present for the whole month of March without unreasonable absences. Teachers got their training seminar for the electronic election. I'm not going to serve this coming election. I'm afraid that my pneumonia will strike again. I won't take any chances. Hospital bills are so expensive I can't afford to be sick. I got to go for now. I miss posting my thoughts. Have a nice day

Yes I'm Happy with my work

Our NSTP class area work ended today. It was so sad because it means we are saying goodbye to each other. I remember when I had my skills training for this batch of college students, I was kind of afraid that they might not listen or they might find me boring but I was wrong. They were very enthusiatic and excited for their area work. Indeed they were really good they did well in their tutorial session with the kids but of course difficulties are part of it and through that difficulties they encounter, they were able to learn how to adjust, adapt and experiment new ways how to capture the child's attention. I can relate to that because I teach kids and I work with them. Normally people get tired. Sometimes I am too inspired to do my work and sometimes not. Honestly, I get tired, frustrated and bored with my work I'm just human but I'm proud to say that I'm not giving up because giving up means I'm truly defeated. This is my mission in life and I have to fulfill it. All I can say is that I'm happy with my work. If I'm not I could have just resign, be a always absent even if I'm well and I could have always go to school super late. Everyday I tried hard to do my best for my kids and for the school. I work 6 days a week even if I had a choice just to have that 5 days of work. I recall then when I was working in a bank I really did miss the fun in school. Teaching is not only a profession but it is a vocation. I listed a lot of things that makes me happy but those things that I listed are just things I play, read, and do while I'm not working in school pretty ironic since the things I listed are the things that are not supposed to be brought in school. I make sure to relax and enjoy life to meet the balance. All work without play makes one dull and boring. Have a happy week my friend.

I got dizzy thinking....

Hi it's been a week. I'm so busy doing a lot of things in school. I'm ok yet tired. My nieces got sick. I also got sick but feels like it's a natural thing in me whenever I get sick I'm already numb and capable of enduring the pain I'm feeling inside. I don't entertain the pain that I'm feeling I always put in mind that it's only in the mind. Kids get so excited for summer vacation they are trying to be so relaxed in their studies. I'm trying to be a little bit firm but kind to them right now in order that they will get good grades in the fourth quarter. I think it is working. I got to pray harder and think positive about it. I'm not giving up that some of these kids will grow up and be mature enough to be responsible in their studies. I wanted them to change their attitude to become better individuals in our society. I know change is difficult but I know maybe not tomorrow but someday these kids will realized the true importance of Education in their lives and they will find the true path they should take. I wish that they will not be lost in the end. Let them decide the right decisions and teach them to choose the best choices in life. I always have a thought about this, each and every one of us are all lucky in this world, it is in our decisions and choices in life makes us hits the jackpot. We are the writer of our own story, the captain of our ship and the one who holds our life. God has given us the freedom to choose but we must always remember our limitations. We must make good decisions and best choices in life and most importantly use our freedom correctly. My kids will soon be grown up I hope they will learn everything about life.

I'm here again

I've been keeping my thoughts for days now. We are adjusting to our new madam in school. She is kind a bit different from our former madam. She radiates her energy to us enormously. New changes are quite difficult to follow. It's hard but I think I like her style. She does challenges me to do my work on time and inspires me to go to school everyday even if I'm sick. I'm not winning her heart nor making myself notice at. I just wanted to do things right even if I'm already tired. I'm almost giving up. I'm still here and I have to continue my mission and fulfill my visions in life as a teacher. When the time is finally over then I could make my decisions and make it into reality. If my calling is really for teaching then I will pursue it no matter what. This is a dream come true to me. This my life now. I know quitting is not a best option. I must face my plight or else I'll keep running way from the things that I don't want to resolve and end up being a loser and someday these things will haunt me if I will allow myself to quit and waste everything I have worked for. I know regrets will always comes at the end. Before it's late, I make sure that I have enough power ups and energy to go on- prayers and faith in God is my weapon. Have a nice day my friend.

Tired Feeling

I feel so tired I don't know why to think that I didn't really do much today. The kids are naturally and normally playful as always. I don't like that I idea but its just the way they are. There are some things that I wanted to change but it's just not beyond my power. I just got to live with it or else I'm going to say goodbye to this noble job of mine. I got to stay focus on my job and do good with it. Trials, difficulties and obstacles are always a part of it. Sometimes I wanted to give up but I don't know what keeps me going. There is just something that keeps holding me back and controlling me to never ever give up. I hope I still could endure that difficulty and sacrifices I'm going through right now. As long as I'm still having that something I need to hold on to it and never ever letting go of it. God is not sleeping. I know He is always here in my side. Have a nice day my friend.

Blowing the burden down

I'm praying today that everything will be fine. Thinking of the heavy thing on top of my head lets me suffer from headache. So all I did was to stop thinking about it. I focus myself in all the requirements I need to accomplish and all the things I need to finish. After lunch I slept and I only woke up when I need to time in the afternoon. I let myself free from that burden why should I run from it when it is there I should face it no matter what. I have no choice but to face it. I have to be strong. If can't run from it then I have to face it. I know that this too shall pass with God's help He will help me and save me. I thank you madz for your advice it makes me feel better.

I need a break

I'm tired. I hope to rest. I need a break now. Everything is mixed up but I'm still hoping I could fix everything. I wish to explore to a new adventure in life if only I could go out to where I am now. I could have done it before but something is pulling me back. Something is telling me to stay. I'm asking for a sign if I'll stick to where I am now or to go and find the real path I should take. I've been numb and stagnant for years now. I need to move on and to have courage to explore and take the risks. The risk that I have been running from for years but no matter what and how I try there is always someone and something that stops me from moving on. Maybe I'm destined to be like this forever. I'm quite confused now but I need to pretend that I'm ok that I'm fine and to see the brighter side of life even if only a spark of light is the only hope I'm holding on too. I'm almost giving up but I have faith and trust in God that is for sure why I'm still strong as I am now. God will take care of everthing. He will never leave me.