Notice My Article For September

Last September 8, I was already sick that time. I could still remember I was brought to the hospital weeks after that. That was September 21, 2010. I really didn't expect that to happen, but i got no choice but to accept the fact that I'm really sick. Eversince then I keep silent and I just let things be. It was so hard yet I was able to recover that fast. It was a three months adjustment to the situation I'm in. From changing of my food choices, taking up medicines and to losing weight was a bit depressing at first but as time goes by, I was able to cope with the things I'm going through but I realized that I have more strength right now than I have before. I'm stronger and even more a fighter than I was before. Things are going smoothly right now problems are still there and adjustments as well. I'm holding on as i always did to the one that is greater than me and that is GOD. I put all my trust in Him and I always bear in my mind that I shall never, ever give up. Have a nice day my friend.

Puzzled

I feel so lost. I don't like to eat what a miracle. I don't want to do the usual routine I'm doing. I think I'm just too excited for Christmas vacation. All I ever wanted is to sleep and do nothing. I still got a lot of things to do in fact there are still a lot of pending jobs to do in school. I just got to do it our else I'll be meeting the deadlines in a row. I got a lot of things to do the result is I'm puzzled in what are the things that I need to prioritize. We are busy preparing for teachers day so sad I don't want to be there honestly that is I think my ultimate embarrasing moment in my life. Imagine me, wearing a gown dancing in front of thousands of teacher in Cagayan de Oro City. I got no choice but to do it. If only I could excuse myself from it I would. It will just happen once in a blue moon so I would just got to do it. Anyway, I won't be alone wearing that thing also my co-teachers will wear gown.

What I wish

Sometimes I wish everything will end. Yet whenever I remember those people who fought and won in the battle called life I then refused to give up. I know I have been through a lot of pains and hardship in life and the fact is I always thought I could not survived by it but I did it. I have surpassed every challenge and problems I have encountered in my life. God is always with me and I thank Him for all the strength and endurance He gave me. In all my articles I always say "I" now I again came to realized maybe I'm self-centered am I? I started to question myself not again. I'm too busy thinking of my work and all that. I concentrate in the things that I should do I just came to realized I forgot to think of other people maybe not totally but almost at least I'm aware of it. What concern me now are my pupils. They are the only people I always talk with and share all my thoughts. I wish that they will be transform into better individuals and grow up to be mature and responsible being in this planet. If I'm here at home I watch over my nieces, I listen to my mother's sentiments, I deal with the issues of my brother and sister and I always see to it that I check on tatay everyday. There are things that I wanted to do in my family perhaps buy a new house for nanay that is what she wanted me to do, Give a two scholarship grants for my nieces, A whole supply of medicines for tatay and nanay and I don't know with my siblings they got their own life anyway. Sad thing because I still got to wait for the right time for me to do all those things maybe in the right time. I'm holding on to it. Basta God knows all I want and all I need.

Busy Me Again

Next week will be our evaluation week for our school. I got to hurry for all the things I need to accomplish. I don't know if I could catch up with the deadlines. If I was not able to join the seminar I could have a lot of time to prepare but lucky me I was not there in school for four days. Anyway I don't have any choice but to catch up as soon as I can. I have to focus on a lot of things. I feel pressured in a way but I just have to take things slowly as I could for me not to feel so pressured.

Reality

I don't know what will happen tomorrow but I'm happy that it will be just another ordinary day for me. My brother is coming home from Manila. I hope that he got something for us hehehe. Anyway, I called up my sister today She sounds like she is sick. She told us that she is still adjusting to the climate there. I hope that she will be fine. I also wrote an e-mail to her. I'm quite sad again because I got to remember her again when she was still here in the Philippines. When they were here when I'm on my way from school I always look forward to see their car parked outside the house and now when I go home from school there is no more car that I look forward to see then I realized that I still miss my sister and I was just pretending that I'm ok. It is ok this too shall pass I know that I'll get over this soon. I know someday I'll visit them soon. Not now but soon.

Cool Saturday

I'm ok today I just feel so sleepy. I got to accomplish all the things I need to finish. The XU NSTP peace park team finished their mural project in our peace park in school. It was amazing the artist paints well. I wish I have such good skills. This monday we will celebrate the Global Teacher's Day. They told me that I'm going to present something in the program. I don't think I could do that but I'm going to try. They also say we got to wear something special I would probably wear my favorite dress. I wonder if my kids will have a surprise for me but if they don't have it's ok.

Better late than absent

I'm taking things slowly but surely but the problem is what if I would be late for the deadlines, speaking of late I noticed that this week I almost got late everyday for school yikes I know I'm not being a model to them at this point in time. I'll try my best to wake up early probably tomorrow. I don't want to be late its just that I just woke up at 6am then when I'm out waiting for the vehicle it would take me years to wait. life seems mixed up. I'm trying to fix it anyway. I've been through a lot of task in school and I'm glad they are all done. The thing I'm worried are the grades of my kids. My grades are still waiting for me to calculate them I wish I could finish them by this week. I've finished some subjects but there are still pending more. yes! there will be no area work this Saturday but I got to be there for the students who are in charge in setting up the peace park in school. I'm busy this week for the GSP investiture. I wish they will be ready for it because I think they are not. I wish I have a partner to trained them I'm not martyr or a saint I might as well seek help with my co-teachers with a matching puss in boots look in Shrek the movie hehehe. Have a happy day ahead. Do pray for the flood victims in the Philippines.

Moving on

I'm moving on now. I have to go on with life even if my sister is not here. I have a lot of things to do and i have to accomplish a lot of things. I have a lot of task to do too. I wish I could finish them all next week. School is quite frustrating especially to those who care less of their education. I have no choice but to do my job on reminding them everyday that they must do good in their studies. Speaking of the current situation of the country honestly, my heart breaks seeing those people who lost lives and victims of a natural disaster. I hope and pray that all those who are missing are found and all those people who lost their love ones to remain strong and just hold on to whatever they could hold on to. I know for sure that God is there and He will never leave us.

The Final Day

I never wish this to happen but I need to let go and say goodbye for awhile for my sister and her family. I did not go with them in the airport since I still have a class. I was the one who prepared breakfast that day when they are going to Manila. I was so sad then imagine I made history because I'm the only person who got teary eyes while chopping garlic instead of the onions hehehe I was late I was supposed to be on leave but I got no choice because the day before that I was sent to another school science competition and I wasn't able to have a class then. Life has to go on I always thought before that I could not survive with it but I was wrong I know that I could get over this soon not now.

Double trouble

I'm still in the state of shock when I found out they are giving me two new subjects to teach. I have no choice but to accept it. It is quite alarming to know that I'll be fully loaded. It is in me that I could make the load lighter as possible. I know I got to adjust with this. Madam told me to accept it because for the reason that I am younger than them thinking that I know that adding two subject is a burden to my part. I don't need to worry I know as what I always say that everything happens for a reason. I know that I will learned from it and I could benefit from it soon. It is charged to experience. I'm trying to be happy. I'm holding on to my wish list. I'm sure that all I wish for will come true. God bless you my friend please pray for me I need it badly hehehe

Instant

I got a very busy day. We have our launching of the feeding program and we officially start our reading tutorial. Me and maam Christine become an instant emcee. We didn't prepare any program it's funny because we don't know what to say hehehe. It went well and we end up successful today. I hope next Saturday kids will be all present again. I got sad of some pupils who were not able to join because I know that they are willing. Me and maam Christine are hoping to create a reading club for the non-readers and slow readers in the school. Hopefully our goal will be achieved soon. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Mixed Up

I can't explain how I feel right now I know that I've been feeling depress lately it's been four months now. I'm not doing something about it yet I'm alarmed that my family notice it. It affects me a lot I continue to ask guidance from God that he gave me the strength to go on. I'm counting the days and keep on thinking that things will get better soon. Now that I turned thirty I plan to change my routine I must make a way to have more time with God, Reflect a lot and to learn how to love myself more. I just got to think of happy thoughts anyway for me to avoid feeling lonely. I know that happiness is just a state of mind yet when things just keeps getting rough everyday I can't help it but breakdown. I have to endure this or else as I always say I will end up a loser. I don't want to give up I have fought a lot of battles in life and won a lot of it. I've been through painful and difficult moments and learned a lot of lesson from it.Now that I have come too far I believe that It is not definitely the time to end up everything besides I know things will not last forever. Looking back at the life that I have lived I can say that I have survived. I pass the test and now I know in this new battle I'm in I would surpass and resolve it.

Lazy me

I've been trying to recover my strength from my illness. I have my whole day sleeping session and I have all the time to relax and think nothing but sleep. Now that time is over all I need to do now is to work again and think of the things I should suppose to do for tomorrow and for the whole week. Life has to go on. I may wish to rest a little longer but I have to accept the fact that I should keep going for work. There is no more time for relaxing. I got to prepare for tomorrow's lesson. I know and I'm sure that everything will be ok and successful tomorrow. Think positive all the time. It works and it's effective.

Periodical Exam

I don't have any idea what is the results of their exam today. I hope it will be fine and ok. One the supervisors went to school and get in my class today. I got so nervous but she didn't stay long kids behave well when she get in my classroom lucky day . I don't know if it is going to be ok for me everyday now that everyday I got to work with pressure in my hands sad thing but I got to accept it and we all have to live a life like that just got to cope with the challenge they post in us. It will be okay as long as we are all ready. Life seems so fast this time but I got to slow it down for me to survive.

Sad Day

I'm one with my fellow Filipino people who mourns and bid goodbye to tita Cory. I can't help but cry because maybe I know what she have been through in life and how she survives and endure all the pain and challenges she have encountered. That is life after all and at least now she is there in heaven she can rest and be with her beloved. School again tomorrow I got to prepare a lot of things for tomorrow and for Saturday. I feel a little bit worried of this investigatory project. I got to have that courage to handle it. I've been so dependent to ate joy and now that she is on leave I should learn how to stand on my own. I got to start praying now and start working before anything got worse. I'm positive about this task that I could surpass and accomplish this. I'm sure about it. I just got to stay focus and just take things at a time. Tatay is ok now thank God. He just needs to rest for awhile because he is still under medication. As what I always say life has to go on no matter what. God bless you my friend

Busy Monday

I'm very busy today. I went out from the school to fix papers for my license and for my transcript of records. I accomplished everything today the only thing I'm going to do now is to waiting for the time I'm going to get the papers I processed today. Life is bit tiring but I just got to stay focus. i received a good news from the school I didn't expect since I really didn't mind about it. I'm glad because it was a big surprise to me. I'll tell you in time what is that all about if I already fix everything. I'm so excited. I actually receive a package from ate Flor the friend of my sister. She gave me a box of Pili nuts and goodies courtesy of ate Aime. It is really delicious and it is fresh from Bicol. About the weather forecast, it is raining again. The rapid change of weather cause people to get sick. I got one pupil who is already two weeks absent and others get sick just this weekend and are absent today. I just wish they get well now and be in school tomorrow. I got to prepare for school tomorrow. I got new and excited strategy for the kids. I hope it works even if their attendance is not perfect. God Bless you my friend.

The Sun is here.

It didn't rain hard today. Tomorrow is a another day. School again for me. I got new topics to discussed with my kids. I hope I'll have a perfect attendance for my kids. I hope the kids who got sick are ok now. I'm ok now totally recovered. Everything work with God's grace and a strong positive thinking it heals and it works trust me. Just focus on the things you wanted to happen and hold on it never let go. Everything is possible. Never say never. It's very effective. Try it you'll see how powerful your mind is. God bless you my friend.

The Family Pictures

I'm ok today in fact I prepared a lot of illustrations and instructional materials for tomorrow. My sister was here and she was organizing the pictures in a huge box where nanay place all the pictures we had eversince we were not born. When I reached home, I'm looking at the pictures organized by my ate. I saw pictures of our grandma and grandpa and other people I don't know. Some were old picture the evidence is that it is all black and white. The funny thing was I saw my pictures when I was still young. I look cute and I'm still thin that time. I could not believe that I look that way those pictures reminds me of the past. The pictures that my sister were collecting was our family pictures those pictures that were taken from the time that we are still young until the present. She planned to post in the net soon when she is done scanning it. Traditionally, every Christmas and New Year we always have our family pictures taken. We had a lot of fun back then. We eat together and pray together. We are just simple we go to church, have our picture taking session and then celebrate Christmas at home, when the clock stroke twelve we then have exchange gifts. Life is simple before that is why I have a happy childhood in spite of the difficulties we have encountered before. The family stays solid and united. We make Christ as a center of our lives. Nanay and tatay always remind us to pray the rosary and have a strong faith in God. They told us that their secret in life is to live in prayers. They maybe strict but they give us the freedom to enjoy life, to choose what path we take and to stood for the choices we make. Have a nice day my friend. (",)

* you may wonder why I post an ice cream picture It's because our family loves to eat cream. hehehehe

My Secret Revealed

When I was still young I'm fond of watching television. My mother wonders why I always stood near the television while we are watching. I started to enter preschool in a very young age. I'm not interested in going to school that time all I ever wanted is to play and have fun. When I get bored in school I will just tell my yaya that I wanted to go home. There was a point that we really went home because I don't want to go to school. I got scolded by my sister that's why I didn't do the cutting classes no more. When I reached grade one, I'm a slow learner my teacher would spank me because I always got zero and I can't read not even a word. I have the hard time learning in school. I have my tutorials in the afternoon after class in the morning. I felt that I'm a worst pupil there is. All throughout my childhood years I felt so inferior that I'm a slow learner but my sister who loves me unconditionally gave out all her time teaching me how to read. My teachers too walk an extra mile for me to learn and have their patience lengthen. When I'm in grade three I was able to learn how to read and comprehend stories that I read. Slowly, I got active in class discussion and participate in oral recitation. When I reach high school i was able to survive and graduate with passing grades. I was supposed to take biology in college but my teacher told me in my face that I'm not good enough taking biology that's why I took something I really wanted to do and that is a course where I could write and share my thoughts. Without any comments from my mother, I took mass communication in first year college. She gave me all the freedom later did I know that she planned to let me transfer in another school and let me shift to Education. It was hard for me to accept it but I have to it's for me future. I have positive attitude in teaching. I also love kids. I will not miss writing because there is also lesson planning and reporting which is demonstration and facilitating the kids learning. I survived again with hard work and patience even if the school is a melting pot of different people I was able to adjust to the kind of environment then I graduated I was preparing for my board exam that time I discover that I have an eye problem quite alarming because I can no longer hardly see the writings posted in the projector. Until I was invited to play the guitar in the mass where my sister works, I got so many errors in playing the notes because the chords were written in a small case font. My sister scolded me again and advises me to see an ophthalmologist to check my eyes. I really did went to the doctor. There I found out that my cornea in my left eye was not opened well. he said that it was inborn. My right eye was already strained because it is already overworked that result to a very poor eye sight known as myopic astigmatism. The doctor told me if only it was discovered earlier when I was still a child, It would have been corrected. When i went home that day I realized that I'm not really that dumb anyway. My sister cried and pitied me when she found out the findings of the doctor. She apologized to me for acting that way. There are a lot of effects on me. Sometimes I could interchange letters and words in my readings and also when I write there are times I could omit some words. I'm a special child told you. I think my teachers are proud of me now because the slow learner carms they knew became a teacher. Funny ironic huh God bless you my friend.

Thoughts for Today

I wash all my clothes today. Watch over the baby and after that sleep for three hours. When I woke up I rest for awhile then I take bath then go straight to church. I treat myself with a little cone of ice cream and sharwarma. I don't understand what I'm into right now, maybe this is the result of feeling so bored in my life. I should not be feeling this way thats why I went out and have my window shopping alone as always. I prefer going out alone than to have someone with me. My friends told me if I'm not afraid going out alone I said no because I'm used to it anyway. I remember that there was a time when I was with my nephew and sister unfortunately I miss to wear my eyeglasses and I did not brought my celphone. I was lost with my nephew and It was really hard for me to look for my sister because I could not see well. My nephew was still a little boy that time. Luckily, my sister found us there standing in the corner. I got so nervous. My sister scolded us because we were heading at the wrong direction that is why we got lost. From that time on I never miss to wear my eyeglasses no more. I feel much ok when I reach home. I just got to pray harder than before. Tomorrow is another day got to get ready. God bless you