My New Class

Hi I miss blogging for so very long. I've been busy lately. I'm having fun with my new batch of pupils. I kinda like them. I wish that these kids will be the best batch I will ever had. They are very energetic, talented and most especially they have pure talent and self-confidence. I like this batch. They are different. They love to sing, act and dance. They are very enthusiastic in almost all of the activities I'm giving them. I just hope they will continue to be like who they are now. I don't like to go through hardships of adjusting to their changing behavior. The new schedule is kinda a bit difficult at first. I got a hard time adjusting to it but as time passed by I got use to it. Our schedule for this school year was different from last school year if before we have one hour break now we don't we only have twenty minutes break for our lunch. Kids have to take their lunch inside their classroom. The best part was we go home early. Kids have no chance of going around the campus and wasting their time chatting, playing and cutting classes in a day. There is a least chance for kids to be absent in a half day. Have a happy weekend to all.

Yehey! I'm done.

Finally, I'm done with my paper works in school. I still got more papers to accomplish but at least the most important paper is done already. I have to accomplish everything for me to get cleared. I'm not going to serve in the election but I'm going to join the census team this May. I have all the time to accomplish also my thesis proposal. I get so tired this whole week I did nothing but to check all the forms I need to fill up. I'm so sleepy. Got to go now. God bless you

Temperature Rising

It's really hot in here. I feel like I'm melting. I feel uncomfortable with the heat. I just have to adopt to these changes or else I will end up complaining and miserable. I notice that people around me have hot temper they easily get angry and flared up like a firecrackers. I don't have much time to think of them but it is getting on my nerves we are all getting affected somehow but we just got to take things as they happen and just accept it even if it is hard. I hope everything will be in peace soon. We just give them space and time to realized everything. The most important thing is that I'm not part of their war. I want to help them out to patch up things but I just can't. I'm hoping that things will work out fine soon.

Where is the light?

I can't see a thing help me. I'm just joking. I feel really upset of experiencing brown out. I just got to live with it perhaps make it as a sacrifice for the poor souls in purgatory. I went out in the house without thinking that the whole block in our street is so dark yet I still manage to go home safe thank God for that. I still got more pending jobs to do. I'm thankful because I'm busy and I got a job. I always try to look into the brighter side of things now even if there are things that bothers me once in a while but it's just a part of it. These are just spices of life that makes our life more meaningful and challenging as well. I guess I got to enjoy all the brown out thing and including the warm climate. Like what I always say this too shall pass. Have a happy El Niño Phenomenon day.

Catching Up The Deadlines

I've been very busy lately. I still have pending jobs to be done but I know I will finish all of them today. I need to keep going because the school year is almost over. I'll be more busier next week than this week. I'm ok I'm not really tired but just sleepy. The school is going to end this March 31. Some kids are excited, some are not, and some just don't care. I do make sure they are all present for the whole month of March without unreasonable absences. Teachers got their training seminar for the electronic election. I'm not going to serve this coming election. I'm afraid that my pneumonia will strike again. I won't take any chances. Hospital bills are so expensive I can't afford to be sick. I got to go for now. I miss posting my thoughts. Have a nice day

I got dizzy thinking....

Hi it's been a week. I'm so busy doing a lot of things in school. I'm ok yet tired. My nieces got sick. I also got sick but feels like it's a natural thing in me whenever I get sick I'm already numb and capable of enduring the pain I'm feeling inside. I don't entertain the pain that I'm feeling I always put in mind that it's only in the mind. Kids get so excited for summer vacation they are trying to be so relaxed in their studies. I'm trying to be a little bit firm but kind to them right now in order that they will get good grades in the fourth quarter. I think it is working. I got to pray harder and think positive about it. I'm not giving up that some of these kids will grow up and be mature enough to be responsible in their studies. I wanted them to change their attitude to become better individuals in our society. I know change is difficult but I know maybe not tomorrow but someday these kids will realized the true importance of Education in their lives and they will find the true path they should take. I wish that they will not be lost in the end. Let them decide the right decisions and teach them to choose the best choices in life. I always have a thought about this, each and every one of us are all lucky in this world, it is in our decisions and choices in life makes us hits the jackpot. We are the writer of our own story, the captain of our ship and the one who holds our life. God has given us the freedom to choose but we must always remember our limitations. We must make good decisions and best choices in life and most importantly use our freedom correctly. My kids will soon be grown up I hope they will learn everything about life.

I'm here again

I've been keeping my thoughts for days now. We are adjusting to our new madam in school. She is kind a bit different from our former madam. She radiates her energy to us enormously. New changes are quite difficult to follow. It's hard but I think I like her style. She does challenges me to do my work on time and inspires me to go to school everyday even if I'm sick. I'm not winning her heart nor making myself notice at. I just wanted to do things right even if I'm already tired. I'm almost giving up. I'm still here and I have to continue my mission and fulfill my visions in life as a teacher. When the time is finally over then I could make my decisions and make it into reality. If my calling is really for teaching then I will pursue it no matter what. This is a dream come true to me. This my life now. I know quitting is not a best option. I must face my plight or else I'll keep running way from the things that I don't want to resolve and end up being a loser and someday these things will haunt me if I will allow myself to quit and waste everything I have worked for. I know regrets will always comes at the end. Before it's late, I make sure that I have enough power ups and energy to go on- prayers and faith in God is my weapon. Have a nice day my friend.

Tired Feeling

I feel so tired I don't know why to think that I didn't really do much today. The kids are naturally and normally playful as always. I don't like that I idea but its just the way they are. There are some things that I wanted to change but it's just not beyond my power. I just got to live with it or else I'm going to say goodbye to this noble job of mine. I got to stay focus on my job and do good with it. Trials, difficulties and obstacles are always a part of it. Sometimes I wanted to give up but I don't know what keeps me going. There is just something that keeps holding me back and controlling me to never ever give up. I hope I still could endure that difficulty and sacrifices I'm going through right now. As long as I'm still having that something I need to hold on to it and never ever letting go of it. God is not sleeping. I know He is always here in my side. Have a nice day my friend.

Finally, Now I know.......

I was so bothered these past few days and now finally the worries are totally gone. I discovered that one of my pupils has a serious family problem. Ever since June, I always thought of winning his heart but I failed since he is not willing and he won't open up to me. Frustrating to know but maybe and surely he is hurting inside. He always wanted to be seen in the class, he wanted to appear bad and infamous to his classmates and he never took his studies seriously. I tried hard to reach out for him, but he is so close and he is so hurt that he can't even love himself for the reason he felt that his life is meaningless. He acts as if he never cares for anything and anyone even to himself. In my opinion, maybe it is his way of expressing himself how hurt he is. I feel so sad hearing the reality of what his family is going through. Now, I understand why he acted that way. I pitied him and I assure him that everything will be fine. Ding-dong is not the only pupil who got this problem. In my second batch of pupils before almost all of them suffered from this kind of problem only that those pupils were mature enough to accept that their parents could no longer be together and that they have moved on and let go of it. Accepting such thing is a process. It is hard and hurting in fact some never did escape from it but destroyed their life and ruined it. Prayer, support and guidance should be given to him. I'm praying that his wounds will be healed and that he will accept everything. In my own little way I will help him and free him from his wounded heart. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Blowing the burden down

I'm praying today that everything will be fine. Thinking of the heavy thing on top of my head lets me suffer from headache. So all I did was to stop thinking about it. I focus myself in all the requirements I need to accomplish and all the things I need to finish. After lunch I slept and I only woke up when I need to time in the afternoon. I let myself free from that burden why should I run from it when it is there I should face it no matter what. I have no choice but to face it. I have to be strong. If can't run from it then I have to face it. I know that this too shall pass with God's help He will help me and save me. I thank you madz for your advice it makes me feel better.

Feeling Blue

I don't know why I feel sad today. I got a lot of fears and doubts. I know if I'm not going to think of it, I'll be free from all the worries and issues that is in my mind. Anything that happens to us is just a creation, imagination in our minds and just something we can't help but thinking which leads to reality. The more we are thinking of the things we don't want to happen will happen because are minds are focus on it. As much as possible I always wanted to think positive. Everyday will get better and everything is ok. Whatever happens there is always a reason and purpose. God will never give us those trials which we cannot resolve. The only thing I need to think is that problems are part and spice to our life. I need to have faith and trust in God. Holding on to what is true and that is God loves each and everyone of us. If we experienced pain, sufferings, problems and loss there is always a reason for it. It helps us to be more strong and to learn how to live our lives. I remembered when my pupil told me that he hates his life. He told me that there is no God because he ask me why God permits their house to be burned. I told him that have you seen the difference before and now? What are the changes you have observe after that sad thing happens? At first he was so angry he told me that they have a bigger and a comfortable house before and now it is the opposite thing. He kept on saying all the things he wanted to say until he realizes that his family having a smaller house becomes more closer than having the bigger house before. I was waiting for him to say a word when suddenly he burst into tears. After that conversation he was changed. I never heard him complain and he starts to believe that God truly exist.

Busy Saturday

I'm so busy today. I thought I would have less work since there are only a few pupils who attended the tutorial due to a rainy weather. The National Achievement Test is fast approaching. All teachers are task to be reviewing the kids every Saturday on subject that are assigned to us. I'm not supposed to handle any section because my schedule is not for today but for next week but since one teacher was absent I replaced her on the spot. I wasn't able to have any review and any preparation they just gave me something for me to go over with a few minutes then discuss and explain it to the kids. It is a nose bleeding experience since the subject is for grade 5 lesson. I'm not so quite well versed on the topics in grade 5 but I have background knowledge of it. Lucky thing I was able to recall everything. I'm tired since my job is doubled I have to monitor the tutors and tutees plus they let me handle a about four sections with the help of some of my college students in NSTP. I'm ok at least I was able to help those pupils who need my help. The best lesson I ever thought of today is to be humble and that nobody is perfect. Have a happy weekend my friend. God bless.

Rainy Friday

The day is so gloomy and the rain never stop pouring. I am still so sleepy that I wish somebody will declare a no class day for us. I still wanted to sleep and rest in bed. I have to get up because it is Friday and there is no excuse I have to report in school today. When I'm on my way to school it seems that it was still 6am yet when I look at the clock it was almost 7:15 in the morning. I got worried that I'm already late, later did I know there are still a lot of teachers who are still on their way to school. Kids are only few in number. I just give them some review materials for the exam. I hope they will have good results on Monday. I wish the rain will go away now this weather will really makes me very sick.

kids, kids, kids

Hi friends I feel sleepy but before I sleep just wanted to drop some thoughts and things to share to you. I thought visitors are going to visit us today in school. As always they did not show up again. I'm not feeling well today. I even thought of not reporting to class today but I did not. I need to be present in school today because their third quarter exam will be next week and I have with me some keys of other classrooms. I feel exhausted. Kids are fine today naturally some seek attention and some just wanted to do nothing but exchange ideas with their classmates. I didn't have that stressful scenario today just right they all cooperated with me for the fact that they knew that I'm not feeling well. I wonder if the visitors will be coming tomorrow. I just hope not. I'll be going for a meeting in the afternoon tomorrow. kids will be very happy knowing the news that our class will be only in the morning. kids wanted to have more long vacation than going to school. All they ever wanted is to have fun and play under the heat of the sun. kids, kids makes me laugh when I remember that before our class starts they are already on the go chasing their classmates then after class they still play again and before going home they still got that energy to chase their classmates. I wonder if they ever get tired of running, jumping and chasing their classmates. Thinking of all the pressures they have in school. Pressure in understanding the lesson and passing all the test in school, pressure conforming with their friends, pressure in playing the role of being a son and daughter to their parents and pressures of being a sibling. I'm thinking to make kids more comfortable and to have fun learning in school. To lessen their pressure and to maximize their emotional intelligence so that in this way they would be able to cope with all those pressures and survive with it. I got to do something but I'm starting it anyway just need a little more time. I wish to create a school someday which kids no longer wanted to have a vacation when could that be maybe in the year 2060 hehehehe.

Pressure

Everything is a surprise for us. The office did not told us that next week will be the mahiwagang evaluation week for us. I was shocked when I found out the news but what makes it good is that I still got the chance to complete all the missing thing in the classroom. I'm not in favor of this in fact they told us last year to prepare and we have been waiting for them to come yet they never showed up. I got pressured thinking of what may happen if they will come and I'm not ready it's a sad and negative thing to think of anyway. I'm struggling now just don't know why I feel too lazy to do my work and I feel there is really missing on it. I will try to put things back and think that everything is fine. I feel tired already. I think I'm sick I need to see my doctor for me to found out what is wrong with me. This too shall pass my friend. Have a nice day

Adapting to Changes

New year was really a big start for us in school for the fact that madam is no longer with us. Our grade leader maam lyds also was replaced by maam meilen. We have to extend our patience to adjust to our new superior so far so good. We still have to wait who will be our new school principal. Building relationship is really that hard yet the only key to make a relationship work is to respect each other, accept each others strength and weaknesses, accept each others ideas, and most especially to gain the trust from other person. It is hard, it is a life long process and it is a test of genuine friendship in building relationship. I could say that to make everything work for us in our group we should work hard and take the effort to make things happen. I just hope that everything will turn out fine.

Farewell Madam

Today we finally pay tribute to madam. I don't understand why I got emotional when we sang a farewell song to her. I was thinking before that I will not miss her but I did miss her. I felt bad because she never told us that she is leaving. There are a lot of pending projects she need to see and a lot of things I wanted to tell her. I waited for her hoping that I could talk to her not knowing that when she comes back she will say I love you and good bye mel. Before I went home I greeted her and she told me I will not forget everything she have ever told me. All the lessons and tips I need to learn to become the best teacher there is. She will always be a part of me.

Surprise! What?

I was really surprise last Thursday when our grade leader told us that madam is already on her way to retire effective this month. I got mixed feelings about it. I'm not happy and I'm not also sad. Just kind of thinking what would life be if madam is not in school. She guide and teach us things about running a school in a short time yet with that short time we've spent with her, I could say that I have learned a lot of things from her. Not to mention those heartbreaking moments. In spite of the pain I have become more stronger and motivated to do my job well. I was hurt but through that pain it made me the person who I am today. Madam challenged me to do my best and she is successful. I will miss her. I know she love me and she just wanted me to learn. To Madam thanks maam. God bless in your journey and enjoy.

Puzzled

I feel so lost. I don't like to eat what a miracle. I don't want to do the usual routine I'm doing. I think I'm just too excited for Christmas vacation. All I ever wanted is to sleep and do nothing. I still got a lot of things to do in fact there are still a lot of pending jobs to do in school. I just got to do it our else I'll be meeting the deadlines in a row. I got a lot of things to do the result is I'm puzzled in what are the things that I need to prioritize. We are busy preparing for teachers day so sad I don't want to be there honestly that is I think my ultimate embarrasing moment in my life. Imagine me, wearing a gown dancing in front of thousands of teacher in Cagayan de Oro City. I got no choice but to do it. If only I could excuse myself from it I would. It will just happen once in a blue moon so I would just got to do it. Anyway, I won't be alone wearing that thing also my co-teachers will wear gown.

Non-stop Rain

It rained so hard today our division declared a no class day. It was really a very wet, muddy and cool day here in CDO. I only got two kids in the class and the rest of the kids are from the other section. They join my class because their teacher is not yet around. I have fun teaching them again but I just did it in a few hours then their teacher arrived in a little while. In the afternoon we have no class but we stayed in school to practice our precious dance. I hope I could master all the dance steps I've learned today. The rain continues to pour until 11:00pm I wish it won't rain anymore tomorrow.