thoughts

I'm simple but compilcated. I'm free but focus. I'm light but physically I'm heavy. they think I'm happy go lucky kid but I'm serious. I smile all the time but deep inside my heart is bleeding. I laugh and make people happy but I'm still searching for real happiness. I got few friends but all of them are true. I love my job even if I'm tired of it. I got simple dreams and I wonder why I'm still waiting for it to come true. I always think that life is not fair only to find out that I fail to see the brighter side of it. I always fear rejection only to ask myself, did I ever accept myself of who I really am? Now, I learn to love myself, know who I really am , what I ever wanted to do and trying to solve the unresolve issues in my life. Love yourself my friend that is the secret.

Yes! Good News

I went to the doctor and I found out that I'm ok maybe that was just psychological and stress over worked. I'm fine now. I have to be healthy for six long months my doctor will have her vacation in Europe. wow! good for her. she all got the money and time. I wish that someday I could tour the world too perhaps visit my sister out there. Life I got to stop thinking about that I still got a lot of task to be done here. God bless you all. -my article was done in a hurry because my sister wants me to help her.

No. 100 article

I'm glad that I already have created 100 articles. I was not able to really give time on this when I first started it because I got so busy that time. I got a lot of problems to solve and conflicts to patch up with. I never imagine I could do this here I am writing the 100 articles in just for months. I wish to write more and share my thoughts to all of you. God bless you my friend.

Weak Weekend

I slept all day today. I'm so weak. I have lots of things to do yet I always stay in bed and dream. I was supposed to visit my doctor today sad I woke up late in the morning and I will be seeing her on monday after class because the slots of patients are already full who actually schedule their visit ahead of me. I'm tired I wonder which vitamin suits me so that I will not feel tired. I got to be strong. there are all of things to be done in my class not to mention the investigatory project which madam is asking me now. God will make a way. He won't leave me. He is going to help me on this. Last night I was soaking wet in the rain because I went out and accompanied my friend. My father was so worried and my mother was really mad at me. I got my allergies my mother thought that I'll be really sick today true I was so weak but I didn't have my asthma or even have fever I thank God for that. My father was afraid that I might be sick again of pneumonia. Last January I was brought to the hospital I was one week absent then. I got a lot of medicines one was a nebule and there is also medicine that they inject every now and then. Luckily, I got well but I found out that after I got sick I was not as strong as I am before. I easily get tired and I easily get sick. I got to stay positive all the time so that I would recover fast to whatever bad energies I'm feeling. God is good and I know He gave me strength. Win or Lose it is His will be done. God Bless you my friend have a nice weekend.

One Word Tag

Ate Amy tagged me this one word tag. Thank you ate amy. This is really fun.USING ONLY ONE WORD! It’s not as easy as you might think! Copy and change the answers and pass it on. It’s really hard to use only one-word answers. Be sure to tag the person who sent it to you!

1. Where is your cell phone? room

2. Your hair? Short

3. Your mother? Caring

4. Your father? Perfect

5. Your favorite food? Lugaw

6. Your dream last night? House

7. Your favorite drink? H2O

8. Your dream/goal? Ph.D.

9. What room you are in? family

10. Your hobby? writing

11. Your fear? death

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Convent

13. Where were you last night? bedroom

14. Something that you aren’t? crab

15. Muffins? yummy

16. Wish list item? Shoes

7. Where you grew up? CDO

18. Last thing you did? Sleep

19. What are you wearing? Polo

20. Your TV? Samsung

21. Your pets? cat

22. Friends? YOU

23. Your life? fun

24. Your mood? calm

25. Missing someone? darla

26. Car? Honda

27. Something you’re not wearing? sleeveless

28. Your favorite store? National Bookstore

29. Your favorite color? blue

30. When is the last time you laughed? today

31. Last time you cried? yesterday

32. Who will resend this? someone

33. One place that I go to over and over? church

34. One person who emails me regularly? ate

35. My favorite place to eat? Mandarin Tea Garden

Now, I am tagging the following:
Ate amy
gab's mom
madz
puzzle
yen
faye
paulo

Blog Award

This blog award was given to me by gab's mom. Thanks for visiting and reading my post. God bless you always.

It's time for me to share this tag to my friends

There are some rules to follow for this award:

1. Put the award in a post when you receive it.

2. Name and link to the blogger who gave you the award in the post.

3. Write the reason why you love to blog.

4. Pass the award on to other bloggers that you know.

5. Name and link to your recipients in the post.

6. Let your recipients know that the award was passed on to them.I'm done with 1 and 2. Now let me proceed...

The Reason Why I Love To Blog
Blogging makes me feel good and happy. It helps me share all my thoughts in me.

Now, I'd like to pass this award to the following:

Puzzle

Ate Amy

Madz

Paulo

Faye

Vicky's Random thoughts

yen

And I would like to especially award this back to gab's mom. Thanks again friend!Now, I'll need to inform others that they've got something to grab! :-)

Thursday June 25, 2009

I wasn't able to have my article yesterday because I'm sick. I'm so tired and there are a lot of requirements I need to pass. Finally I've pass them all today. I got so irritated in class because they are starting to show their real self. I think that is ok at least if I don't like their real bad attitude I could stop it this early. The only thing I could be proud of them is that they can behave like I wanted them. I need to sacrifice in disciplining them so that they would really know that I mean what I say. One thing I learned from a successful disciplinarian is that always be consistent in everything. I lack that I know that I lack that because I always consider them in many ways. Now, I'm starting to be consistent always trying to stick on the rules. I'm just waiting for the time that I'll be totally well maybe that time I could really bond with them and create more activities that would make them learned about a lot of things about life. I guess I do really need to rest. I still didn't start my mahiwagang thesis proposal. I need to start now otherwise I'll be too late again. God bless you my friend

This Day

It's a normal day to me. I went to school but I got a little late because I'm tired. I wanted to sleep and stay in the house. I don't have the choice I have to get up and work. I got my asthma attack this morning and lucky me It just fade away without taking my medicine because I was in a hurry in going to school. Kids were ok some of them seek for attention mga KSP (kulang sa pansin) It's ok but sometimes they overdo it. It irritates me. I got a long patience but if I'm not well sure I'm going to lose my temper sorry to them I'm not guilty because they knew already that if it irritates me it irritates me. It is really hard to be a teacher. Teaching is easy but forming and molding a child is the hardest part. It is a big responsibility. Disciplining them, leading them in the right path, teaching them good values and making sure that the teaching and learning process is successful. I really didn't know that my path leads here because to think I'm one of the special kids in the class before because I got visual problems funny the slow learner becomes the teacher. God gave me this mission and I have to do it and do my best and do more. MAGIS God bless you my friend

My Favorite Foods Part II

Pinakbet is one of my favorite especially if it cooked by my mom yummy
I love siomai especially if it is from Mandarin Tea Garden


I also go for Pizza in Yellow cab,Pizza Hut, Shakeys and Greenwich

Spaghetti is also one of my all time favorite especially if it is from my sister

Hope you enjoy my favorite food part II. I miss food tripping with my friends.

My Favorite Foods

Popcorn is number one in my list. In all different flavors natural to barbeque I really love popcorn.

I love Embutido

I eat a lot of chocolates imported or local yummy!

Ice Cream is also one of my favorite especially during summer.

My all time favorite Lugaw

I always wanted to eat a lot of food. I consider eating as my hobby. No doubt about it. It really does show in my size. In my elementary years I used to be so thin but when I reach high school there I started to grow big. I'm asthmatic but there was a point in my life that I wanted to eat,eat and eat later did I know it's an effect reaction to my body of the medicine I take. I'm ok with it now before my size is a big deal to me. Now I don't really care as long as everything is normal my blood, my sugar, my cholesterol and etc. Above are my favorite foods. I wanted to share to it to you my favorite food. I hope you will like this too.

Events of the day

I wake up early today and normally I'm early in school. Kids were ok and I guess they love my discussion because I used the storytelling strategy they did not know that I actually made the story impromptu hehehe. I did relate it anyway to our lesson and they really find it amazing. I used some sound effects and change my voice to each character, that was hard but I did it. I'm happy because looking into their eyes I could really say that they are listening. Tomorrow is another day I got to think again of some gimmicks to motivate them to focus and listen well. Hopefully they will develop their love for learning. I found out that some of them are really physically present but mentally absent. I don't know what they are thinking because from the moment I ask them they would just stare at me. Frustrating somehow because no matter how good and innovative is the strategy I use, still they don't respond well to it for some pupils. I got to discover which strategy fits them. It' s a challenge to our part as teachers because as what they always say if the pupil fails then they always put us to blame. I strongly believe that it's not fair but I just got to do my best and make a difference and walk an extra mile to help these kids learn and become better individuals. Have a nice day my friend. Enjoy life.

Spices of Life

My day is ok except that I have a lot of things to accomplish. I got to prepare for tomorrow. I love the lecture of the deacon this morning it's telling us that each and everyone of us has our own trials and difficulties in life that shaken and frighten us but if we only put our trust in God and have a big faith in Him, there will no reason for us to be worried and afraid in facing the challenges in life. Problems are just a part of our lives it is like a spice in a dish that without it the dish would just taste as ordinary as it is and without problems life could be somehow boring. It's but natural to have problems the only thing that we need is not only to have faith in God but to stay positive all the time, be hopeful that things will get better, hold on to whatever we are clinging right now and never give up. After all when the storm is gone everything will be put into place, there is always a rainbow after the rain and that we may not be the same person as we are then but we will become better individuals inside us. God bless you my friend. Life has to go on no matter what happen. Smile and spread love to everyone.

Today

I feel better now. I spend my day in school. We have our weekend seminar. It was ok I have learned a lot of things from the seminar. I should be starting my paper but I kept it stuck today because of that seminar. It's part of work anyway I can't complain all of us were there and It's a must. Maybe I'll just have to start next week. Tomorrow is Happy Father's Day. Happy Father's Day to my tatay He is the best and a model father. He is good father and I'm proud of him. He is the Best. not to mention he gives me money when I'm broke, Buys my medicine if I'm out of budget and gives me advices when I'm down. he taught me a lot of things in life that I will always cherish here in my mind and practice it everyday.

Life Issues

I'm imprison inside my painful heart. I've been praying all the time that I will forgive the person who hurt me and forget whatever heartaches I have here in my heart. It's just that there are times that memories just pop out in my mind. I really tried hard to be positive and cheerful all the time seems that the bad memories just goes out of my mind. I tried to fight it just couldn't control sometimes then I end up spoiling my day. It's in me. I got a choice to really delete it in my mind. Tomorrow is a another day I'll make sure that tomorrow will be a happy and memorable day to me. Trust me this day is not one of the days that I'd like to remember. I wanted to forgive her it's just that when everytime I remember what she did I'm still angry and I still couldn't accept what she did. I tried to forget it but it's just that when there are circumstances that goes my way and that it triggers my mind to remember what she did I would then feel so bad. Humility is a challenge for me. It is hard to really practice it especially when one's heart is full of pain and hatred.I need to accept it and I need to go down in order for me to totally forgive and forget her. God willing. I'm always hopeful.

The Special Kid

Last March 2008, It was the first time ever in my career that I have let a kid fail and repeat the grade level. I don't want to fail her but I don't got any choice because she really can't read or she is not fit to go to the next level. I was actually talking to her mom that time and she was writing on the board. Her mom was worried that her dad might not accept the fact that she is going to repeat grade four while we were talking I look at her and read what she was writing on the board and simply It says there I love you teacher carmela and she even draw a heart around it. My heart was really aching because there will be no one to save her except her. I already have given her a chance and yet she failed to fulfill the chances I gave her. Now, she is back in my class giving her very best to pass grade four. I hope that she will improve this time. I Don't want to fail kids no more. I Just wanted her to move and grow as she should be.

School Life

School was fine today. I got a lot of activities in store for the kids. I guess they are enjoying it anyway. I got the time to check on my special kids. I hope that they get better everyday even if everyday is a just another new start for them. I'm wishing to let them pass grade four this school year. Hopefully they would be able to cope with the requirements in a grade four class. This is their second year just hope they would progress now and be move to the next level. I don't really wanted to fail them but it's just that rules are rules I got to follow the rules. They just got to do their very best now. I'm praying that they will pass. (",)

Cool School

School was fine today. I'm happy because I did achieved my tasked. the kids were ok. Working today was quite inspiring just don't know why I used to be so lazy and tired of going to work but today was different. I even arrived in school in a very early time. Maybe because this batch of kids are good and they don't give much headaches like last years batch. I hope they continue to be good until last day of school. Although there are a lot of requirements to be fulfilled but I'm positive that I could met and finish all of them. I still have my thesis proposal that I need to focus with. I still got blank papers to start with my write up don't even have my title yet. I still couldn't have the guts to go school facing my professors presenting to her with blank pages. I'll just take things at a time I'm sure I'm going to finish the thesis proposal this month. Hopefully God willing. God bless you.

No class

Today is the Charter Day of Cagayan de Oro City. I wasn't able to know what happened in the city because I just stayed in the house doing household chores and sleep the whole day. I got to prepare for tomorrow I'm back to school, back to work and I'm ok now no fever and no more strep throat thank God.

Yahooo!

I'm done with my work. I finished all my task here in the house. I got to double my time so that i will accomplish all of my work. tomorrow is still considered holiday. It's Cagayan de Oro City's Charter Day. I got to be ready for for my class on Tuesday. God bless you all.

Weekend

I got a lot of things to do but I'm still stuck here sleeping all day. I just got to pull myself up and start working whatever it is that I'm going to work for today. I'm still adjusting because I have just recovered from my strep throat. I'm ok now only that I wasn't able to take a bath yet and I wish to cut my hair short again. I need to work in preparation for Tuesday. Life has to go on even if I'm weak I just got to be strong because no one is going to work for me only me nobody else. (",)

Happy Independence Day

Today is the Philippine Independence Day. When I was in high school I regularly attend and watch the parade for the celebration of the Independence Day. When I'm there watching and remembering history I feel proud that I am a Filipino. Happy Independence Day to all Filipinos all over the world. I hope that all of us will take pride of the efforts of our Heroes who fought for our freedom.

rest,relax and enjoy

I got a long vacation here not to mention my two days official leave plus weekend and two holidays. Independence Day (June 12) and Cagayan de Oro's Day (June 15). I'm wishing to enjoy all these days but my throat ache reminds me to rest and relax and think of enjoying the moment so that I will not spoil my holidays. I don't want to be sick but I did get sick poor me. I just read from my research that I have a strep throat. Strep throat is a bacterial infection of the tissues in the back of the throat (pharynx) and the tonsils or adenoids. The tissues become irritated and inflamed, causing a sudden, severe sore throat. No need to worry my bro in law Dr. Peter George J. Tian who is an ENT prescribed a medicine for my aching throat. thanks to him and to my sister ate lilet, tatay and nanay for helping me. (",)

Happenings.....

The wedding was successful. Nice and unique wedding. Imagine the entourage march theme was from star wars except when the bride's turn to march. It was well planned and prepared by my cousin and his wife. I also did a great job being the first reader. Unfortunately, when I arrived at Butuan City, I got sick I was chilling. Until now I'm still not well. lucky me I'm going back to work on Tuesday. Before we went back to CDO we were able to visit our lola, have a glance at the old house, the farm and hang out with our tito. It was fun even if I'm not feeling well. I hope I'll be ok soon.

work,work,work

I'm enjoying my work now. it's kinda complicated now but I need to face the challenge I'm in. I'm always thinking of the brighter side of everything and never think of the negative side. I know everything happens for a reason and again whatever it is, it would always be good for me. I just got to do what is right and do a my job well. Being a teacher is a tough job because it requires me to do more and do my best. It is not making money thing but it is more on touching ones life and guiding an individual to make a change in our society and become better individuals and be a man and woman for others. It is a vocation and a mission in life.

Travel

I'll be going to Butuan City tomorrow after my class and I already sign my application for leave. This coming June 10 is the wedding of my cousin. We are all going to attend the wedding. I don't want to be absent in school but this event only happens once in a life time. It's like we are having a get together for relatives we seldom see and be with. I'm excited to eat the coconut pulp and drink coconut juice there fresh from the coconut tree. hehehe of course get to see my cousins, aunt, uncle, grandma and friends.

Reunion

It's really nice to be with old friends again. Have a little chat and recalling the past. The memories that make us laugh, cry and pond to it for awhile. Exchanging new experience and making friendship grow stronger. true friends are treasures that we always cherish and take care of. I'm happy that my cousin's friend who are also my friends meet again today and bond with each other.

Sunday Mass

Today i hear mass in German Doctors Hospital with the Associate Missionaries of the Assumption. I'm really happy that our apostolate is still existing and the members are growing. They did a good job. I could still remember back then when I was in college when I'm active to the organization. I was one of the member who is in charge in the whole set up in the hospital for the Sunday mass for patients who are in the hospital.That was truly rewarding and an achievement in my part.

Best Blog Award

Ate Amy gave me this Best Blog Award. Thank you ate amy. I appreciated it very much. God bless.

The rules are:

1) Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his or her blog link.

No objections to this one but it sounds funny that acceptance of the award is a must.
2) Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

I'm tagging:Vicky's Random thoughts,Forex reviews, mom's place, Anita Baiq, sparks of wisdom, Pinoy technology, life is beautifull, all about communication stuff, perpektib, penpusher,Nuranuranika, 11 pips, donadzku, healthbeyond.com, heavenly delight, the july 15th,madz,sweetham,puzzle,kakara,blognirey
If I failed to mention your name, I tagged YOU too

Blog Awards

This tag was given to me by Ate Amy. Thank you ate amy for visiting my blog. God bless you always.

The rules are:

1) Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his or her blog link. No objections to this one but it sounds funny that acceptance of the award is a must.

2) Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

I'm tagging:Vicky's Random thoughts,Forex reviews, mom's place, Anita Baiq, sparks of wisdom, Pinoy technology, life is beautifull, all about communication stuff, perpektib, penpusher,Nuranuranika, 11 pips, donadzku, healthbeyond.com, heavenly delight, the july 15th,madz,sweetham,puzzle,kakara,blognirey

If I failed to mention your name, I tagged YOU too

Favorite Blog Awards

This tag was given to me by Ate Amy. Thanks ate amy for everything. God Bless you always

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I'm tagging:Vicky's Random thoughts,Forex reviews, mom's place, Anita Baiq, sparks of wisdom, Pinoy technology, life is beautifull, all about communication stuff, perpektib, penpusher,Nuranuranika, 11 pips, donadzku, healthbeyond.com, heavenly delight, the july 15th,madz, sweetham,puzzle,kakara

If I failed to mention your name, I tagged YOU too.

Translation for the last article

My last article was written in bisayan dialect which means.............
Honestly, I'm happy that I joined here in blogspot because I could share all the things I experience in my life. Nice, I'm fond of it already. I wish that I could share it also to my friends so that they would also share their experiences too. It's awesome.

ganahan gyud ko magsulat

Sa tinuod lang na lipay gyud ko nga niapil ko dri sa blogspot kay ma-istorya nako ang gakahitabo sa ako kinabuhi. chada gakalingaw ko dah. unta ma-pasa pud nako ni sa akong mga amiga para naa sad silay lingaw. ayos kaayo bai.

My Cousin Honey and Moments last March with ate lilet, darl, manang chic-chic, ate ann-ann and Jun

Me, Honey, Ate Lilet, Ate an, darl and Manang Chic in Penang Shangrila Plaza

busog au ko dri hehehe

Manang chic-chic, Me and Ate Lilet in Edsa Shrine

Ate lilet, me and Darl Ocean park Manila
Honey, jun-jun, me and darl at Shalom

Darl, Honey and Me outside Mall of Asia

I'm excited to see my cousin. She's coming tomorrow. We are all going to attend the wedding of our cousin. This event just happens once in a blue moon, when we gather together as relatives and families. We seldom see each other since she move in Manila to work there as a call center agent. We are in same age and we were both classmates in grade school. I can say that she is my close cousin. We have same wave lengths, same status in terms of love life, same choices of food when we have food tripping walk not to mention our favorite takoyaki and sing-a-long sessions. Being with her is really fun. We can talk anything at anytime. Since we are both busy we seldom communicate exchange text messages and traditionally i her call on the phone on Christmas and New Years eve. Just last March I went to visit her in Manila. Above is pictures taken last March.

normal day

I'm in a real world now. Back to normal. I'm happy that my kids are good and obedient. I hope it stays that way until the end. Problems may come and go but I know I'm not alone and that everything happens for a purpose. It's but natural to encounter such things. It makes us grow to become better individuals. Have a nice day my friend. hope life treats you right too. Big Bro is in charge of us let us just trust in Him and do our best.

Yehey!

It's over. the visitation went well. Thank you for your prayers. The supervisor checked the attendance of my kids, check my mahiwagang lesson plan, the health corner and the structuring. It was perfect and she even gave me tips and suggestions in what activity I will give to my class so far so good. My kids did a good job I appreciated that a lot. I'm holding to whatever I have right now and wishing that they will continue to be good and obedient pupils until the last day of March 2010. I'm positive that they will be good pupils.

Welcome Visitors

Oh cmon tomorrow is visitation day. Traditionally supervisors visits school in evaluation day and when there are school contest. This year it's kind of an early visit for us in school. They are actually welcome anyway. I got puzzled in what to do but I'll be just fine. I'm ready anyway it's just that sometimes there are things they wanted us to do yet in reality it's impossible to achieve that's life anyway it happens all the time. Wish me luck. I'm hoping that my kids will cooperate with me tomorrow. Everything will be just fine. I'm positive about that. see you around.

The chains I'm in

It's the first day of school. It feels like I'm a new student in my own classroom because I'm nervous. It's weird feeling. I've been teaching in this school for five years and it's the only time I felt like this. Maybe because of the fear I got last February. I really did emphasized in the orientation with my kids that they need to be good and responsible pupils so that life would be less complicated for me and that I won't be reprimanded by our madam just because of my pupils' misbehavoir. It's really mixed emotions now I don't really want to feel this way because I want to forget everything. Now, I pray harder that I would forgive myself and forgive her for the pain she have given me. I wish I would just erased that in my brain and hope that It will not happen again. It's a new beginning anyway I'm giving myself days to convince myself that everything will be fine and that this batch of kids are good. Think positive carms. You can do it carms. Pray for me pls. thanks