Life Issues

I'm imprison inside my painful heart. I've been praying all the time that I will forgive the person who hurt me and forget whatever heartaches I have here in my heart. It's just that there are times that memories just pop out in my mind. I really tried hard to be positive and cheerful all the time seems that the bad memories just goes out of my mind. I tried to fight it just couldn't control sometimes then I end up spoiling my day. It's in me. I got a choice to really delete it in my mind. Tomorrow is a another day I'll make sure that tomorrow will be a happy and memorable day to me. Trust me this day is not one of the days that I'd like to remember. I wanted to forgive her it's just that when everytime I remember what she did I'm still angry and I still couldn't accept what she did. I tried to forget it but it's just that when there are circumstances that goes my way and that it triggers my mind to remember what she did I would then feel so bad. Humility is a challenge for me. It is hard to really practice it especially when one's heart is full of pain and hatred.I need to accept it and I need to go down in order for me to totally forgive and forget her. God willing. I'm always hopeful.