Philippine Independence Day

When I was young I used to take part of the celebration of the Philippine Independence Day. In this day I usually go to the park and watch activities such as the flag raising, variety show and the parade. There are lots flags all over the city and to each houses. There is one giant flag in our park. In school we create our own Philippine flag and post it outside the classroom. Our teacher even taught us how to sang the National Anthem well and understand the meaning of the song and she also taught us the value of patriotism and recall to us about how our national heroes fought for our country for our freedom.This day marks the beginning of freedom and that our Filipino heroes showed and proved to us that we can do it. We must love and protect our country and give peace to each and everyone of us. Let us not waste all the things that our heroes have done for us. Mabuhay and Happy Independence Day to all.

Back to school

Tomorrow is the first day of enrolment in our school. I'm sure some kids are excited now to go back to school, some kids still wanted to have extended vacation and some kids unfortunately have no chance of going to school due to some problems or perhaps they wanted to do something rather than going to school sad but true. I wish that all kids here in the Philippines will have the chance to go to school. In fact they do have the chance it's just that they have the choice to go to school or not. I have no idea who will be my pupils for this school year. We are going to divide the kids according to their general average grade. I wanted to have mature, responsible, obedient, diligent, respectful and behave pupils. I will not complain if they are not so intelligent what matters is that they have good attitudes. I wish also that I will have the best class there is. I'm not handling the first section class or what they call the fast learners class but I hope I could make a big change and difference to the kids I'll be handling this year. It's hard but I'm going to try. As long as my kids will cooperate and do their best to stand out from the rest they will surely grow and become better individuals. I guess have to wait and see. Have a happy day my friend.

Powerful Mind

Some people always think that there are some things that is hard to achieve without trying it. Our mind is very powerful. If we think positive and we are determine of the things we wanted to happen that we really happen and if also worked for it and aim to achieve. Obstacles are normal barriers we meet along the way these are only things that strengthen us and give us the clue that we must do good and learn from what we are going through. Believe in yourself, think positive and always keep the faith. Have a happy day my friend.

Smart Communications-Brigada Eskwela 2010

The SMART COMMUNICATION helped Camaman-an Elementary school for this school year 2010-2011 brigada eskwela. They painted two school rooms and clean it as well. They were 25 smart employees and on the job trainees who volunteered to spend their time and effort in making our brigada eskwela a successful one. We are so happy and lucky that our school was chosen among all the different schools in Cagayan de Oro city. To the SMART COMMUNICATION thank you very much for all the help you extended to our school. God bless us all.

Sci-Dama-Water Patrol Clinic

It's been days since I blog. I just don't feel like sharing my thoughts. I've been pressured with my thesis and finally I'm working on not just my page one but with my chapter one yehey! I couldn't believe it but I'm almost done with chapter one. I attended a sci-dama clinic today. I'm not really good in sci-dama. It's my first time to join. The mechanics of the game is that each chips have different numbers on it then on the board there are two mathematical operations the more chips eaten with a more numbers to be added or scores the most lose the game but the few numbers added and less scores will win the game. Funny, I'm the only one in our school who join the clinic. I feel so alone I have to reach out with other participants. Fortunately some teachers from other schools accepted me in their group. I'm not used to join in grouping i'm ok being alone. In fact I don't have "barkadas" to hang out and chat with. I can live without a companion. The thing that I love being alone is that I feel I'm free and that I could do anything I ever wanted without anyone who bothers me. No man is an island anyway I still reach out and search for real friends. I hope someday I will find them. It's really a miracle because I won 2nd place in the sci-dama competition in the teacher's category. It was hard and I almost got the 1st place it's ok. I'm so happy and not only that, I also found new friends.

"Don't Stop Believing" - Glee - cover

I love this song. This is the version of Sam Tsui real cool song. Do listen to it.

Election Aftermath

Election is already over. We are on our way to a new start. Millions of banners, leaflets, billboards and ads were all left on he streets. People were all curious who won the election. It was raining in here in Cagayan de Oro City last election day. There were still a lot of voters who wasn't able to vote because of the slow process since three precincts were clustered to one. My co-teachers experience election using the hi-technology machine for voting. They asked me why was I not able to serve and be a part of history? the only answer I could give was I wanted to experience how it feels to be part of the long line, meet new friends and get acquainted with our neighbors which I don't get to meet and talk everyday, watch the news and latest happenings on TV and most especially to see the real action in the outside world. I may have partly regretted why I was not able to serve in the election for the fact that there will be incentives and leave credits given to us teachers but I know that if I was there I could get sick and tired. I can't afford to get sick anymore what is important is that I have done my part by casting my vote and elect the candidates who I believe has all the capacity to take care of us and our country. The leaders that we must have chosen are the ones who have the big heart to beat for all of us, The one have a well shape brain who could think of brilliant ideas to make our country progress and prosperous, The one who have big ears to listen to all our problems and understand and be sensitive of the needs of each and everyone of us, The one who have hands that is hardworking and ready to help and serve us, and The one who have clean conscience and clean intentions in serving us without any hatred and issues in life that are yet to be solve. We are all human and we are not perfect. We are capable to make mistakes. The President and the rest of other officials are not magicians who could instantly solve our problems they just serve as our guide and leaders therefore we must do our responsibility as citizen in our country. Let's stop blaming, fighting and backstabbing each other what we need to do is to help each other build a better nation. Be models to the youth, be honest in all transactions, take care of our environment, stop the crab mentality, and most especially we must be loyal to each other. It is time for us to unite and be one. A broken nation is not a good example to our children. All of us wanted a big change in our country. If we need change it must start from within us. It must be a totally conversion. Ako ang simula sa pagbabago. Pagbabago na hinde lamang sa isip, sa salita kundi pati na rin sa gawa. We can never achieve the change that we long for if we don't change our ways and our attitude. This change must come from within us. It must be from the heart. We must be together and join hands in changing our country. It is not yet too late to do something. Besides this is our country who else could help us but we ourselves as citizens in our nation. Each and everyone of us has the our own roles to play even young kids can do their share. Let's not forget that we are all connected to each other. United we stand divide we fall. Let's take the challenge now before it is too late. We can do it. I believe we can do it.

Happy Mother's Day

With just a simple thought moms will be very happy to be remembered today. I don't have much surprise to my mother but I could just hug her and tell that I love her. Show much you love your mom today. Happy Mother's Day to all the moms all over the world.

I'm here

I'm back here in Cagayan de Oro. I attended the wedding ceremony of my cousin in Manila last week. I got a lot of fun bonding with my cousins. I wish to stay longer but I got a lot of work to do here that is ok even for a short time I got to be with them. We went to Ocean park Manila, Luneta Park, Malls, and attended mass in University of the Philippines chapel. I learn a lot of things there. My cousins encourage me to lose weight and inspire me that I can do that easily. They give me tips to lose weight and the best was to really exercise and quit sleeping. It is so hard to quit sleeping because I love to sleep and sleeping is one of my favorite activity of the day. I have to do this. This is for my own good. I'm starting to feel discomforts and palpitations due to my big pounds of weight. I hope I won't fail.

Activities of the Week

Last week we have just started our Summer Reading Camp. I don't know really if I'm going to be excited about all these because for me it is was a surprised announcement from the principal's office. I don't have any choice but to join and serve anyway. I handle some interested incoming grade four pupils. I was kind a bit uncomfortable since I'm not really feeling well until now but I just got to attend this camp. The only thing that keeps me coming back is that the kids are very enthusiastic to learn. They got the energy that inspires me to be present everyday. I'm happy to know that there are still a bunch of kids that are willing to learn and to improve their skills in reading. Last Saturday I attended a seminar about labor laws with my former classmates in the graduate school. I feel so sad knowing I'm still hanging in my thesis proposal. Oh! come on my mentor change my topic for the third time and I guess I am to be blame for not working on it for a long time. I know I will have my time. I think I'm just as if doing something to complete it this thesis but honestly I'm still in page one still trying hard to find the right words to write. Please do pray for me thanks. Have a nice day my friends.

Love the Earth

It is Earth day but it seems that the earth is not rejoicing today. The temperature is so warm and I feel that mother earth is trying to tell me that she is angry. Yes, I feel the heat that penetrates in my skin it's like fire submerge in my skin. I'm so sad to celebrate the earth day but I'm not losing hope that again if we join hands we could save the earth now. Let's start to do the cure now. We only got one planet and there are no more other places for us to live except here. Happy Earth Day to all of us. Let's be aware and continue to love our home after all we are the ones who live here not the other beings. Have a happy hot summer.

Ezra Band Girl Vocalist with differently abled Pianist from Pilipinas Got Talent

This is truly amazing and inspiring. Nothing is impossible if we try and never stop believing.

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

Dreams do come true just believe in it and reach for the stars. I love this song it inspires me to go on with my thesis writing. I know I've been prolonging my agony in finishing it but I know that everything happens in the right time. Whatever happens I will never stop until I'm going to finish this battle. Good day my friends.

Good News

I finally got to see my mentor today the sad thing was I need to change my topic from thinking skills to Science awareness. It's okay I guess this new topic will be much easier than the previous topic. I need to research and read more books about environmental issues that is happening around us. I just hope I could finish my thesis proposal this summer so that I could have my defense this first semester. I'm tired of thinking of this unfinish business in school. I hoping that I will graduate by next year. Please do pray for me.

Wacky Weather

I don't understand the weather today. When I went out of the house it started to rain but when I'm on my way to school the sun started to shine so brightly that I feel so irritated. The weather changes just as my mood changes too. When I'm done working in school it started to rain again. I wish that this tricky weather would stop playing on us. It also does change our plans of the day. I strongly believe that mother nature is really sick this time. I guess she is now letting us know and feel that we need to do something to solve global warming. Let's act now or else it will be too late. Doing this it should start within me like I should throw my garbage in the right place, minimize the use of air conditioners instead use fan, check products it should be environmental friendly, recycle things that could be converted to other use, reduce garbage, segregate garbage from non-biodegardable materials to biodegradable materials, avoid burning things, plant more trees and reuse the things that could still be use. It is a challenge to each and everyone of us to cure this sick planet. Act now my friends.

Just Another Day

I slept in the morning and when I woke up I did my household chores. My problem is that I still feel bored of my life. I have nothing to do. I wanted to do things that will keep me alive. I wanted to finish my thesis proposal but I don't know why I just can't move. I feel so helpless this time. I wanted to ask for help but I have no one to turn to. I wanted to lose weight this summer but at the back of my head I think it takes a lot of effort and hard work to lose weight but it seems like we always got a celebration here. Nanay prepares delicious foods like crabs, shrimps, adobo, and grilled fish. Almost everyday it is like living in a hotel with great food preparation. I guess nanay is testing me to have my self-control and discipline. I still didn't start with my plan like walking in the sports center or perhaps join a modern dance class just for fun. I don't have much time to waste I need to move or else it will be too late. I need to act now and let go of whatever fears and insecurities I'm feeling. Now, I realized that maybe I can't move because I dwell in the dark side of things and all the frustrating things I am experiencing right now. I need to have the courage in order for me to pursue my goals and for me to achieve them. I need to pray more I know God listens and God will help me.

Power Dressing

My dresses are design and handpicked clothes by my mother. When I went to the wedding of my friend all my former classmates told me that the kind of clothes I wear are old fashions. I wear a slacks and a pink blouse. In my opinion wearing that clothes is not a problem. In dressing up I don't have much concern in the style but I go for where I am comfortable with. In my six years in the public school I tried really to look decent and at least not a bad dresser in school. I admit I don't have much dress as I could have since I'm not actually a fashion trendy. I only buy clothes if it is necessary and urgent. I don't buy but I went to a shop to have it sewed for me. My classmates suggested me to wear those clothes they term it "flirty clothes" a clothes that is above the knee skirt or more shorter, a sleeveless body fit blouse and a more colorful clothes. There is no wrong in their suggestion, I'm not offended of what they said and I'm not bothered at all. I just wanted to let them know that If I wore those clothes it will not be me anymore because I am not comfortable wearing those clothes. Trying new things also is not bad but for sure I'm not ready to wear those kind of clothes maybe someday.

Vacation Blues

Hi friends I had a long vacation here in Cagayan de Oro and I attended a wedding ceremony yesterday in Medina, Misamis Oriental. It was the wedding of my friend Delia and her fiance. I had a greatest time in my life. The place is so peaceful, it a cool climate and there is no brown out in their place. I love to stay if I have the chance to choose I would probably make that place be one of the choices to pick. In my journey there, I witness a person who live her life alone ever since her husband died now that her successful children have their own lives. I felt that she is lonely but the she told us that the thing that helps her survive is singing. It is the music that lifts her soul and makes her happy. She had a great voice. I'm just glad that in her loneliness she had a way to divert it. In her loneliness she gain friends. I felt her sadness yet I believe that it is in our decision relies on what we are going to feel. Indeed I admire her of her courage and strength to live alone. Someday I wish I will not be alone.

Earth Hour

Ironically today there is no brown out but we are going to take part with the Earth hour. For a few minutes the whole lights in the house will be turn off. It is better this way at least it is one way of showing that we have to save the earth. Imagine in the primitive times where there is no electricity people could still live a comfortable life even though they are just using fire as their light. Technology is continually progressing. It's like a disease that spread out fast without any cure. People are more creative and innovative in discovering and creating new things. There is no wrong in progressing but one thing we should remember that in creating something it must be good and environmental friendly. We only got one planet what if this planet will die and we will be destroy? Where will we live? We better save the Earth before it is too late. Save the earth. Do something that will help heal our planet. Let's join together my friend before it is too late.

Yehey! I'm done.

Finally, I'm done with my paper works in school. I still got more papers to accomplish but at least the most important paper is done already. I have to accomplish everything for me to get cleared. I'm not going to serve in the election but I'm going to join the census team this May. I have all the time to accomplish also my thesis proposal. I get so tired this whole week I did nothing but to check all the forms I need to fill up. I'm so sleepy. Got to go now. God bless you

I'm here

I've been busy lately trying to figure out how to get out of the things I wanted to avoid. I think this will never end not until I put an end to this. All I wanted to tell you all is that I'm going through something. I don't know how to get out of it yet I'm trying to. Anyway, today we have our get together with our co-teacher who is retiring from the service. Imagine for 35 straight years she devoted herself in teaching and sharing her life to the kids she handled. I salute her of her patience, endurance, love and humility in our profession. I wish i could reach as far as 30 years in staying and surviving as a teacher. Life as a teacher is not that easy. It needs a lot of strength, courage and guts to stay. Staying means allowing oneself to grow and open to new learnings in life. I wonder if I could survive more than 30 years I hope so. Take care my friend.

Temperature Rising

It's really hot in here. I feel like I'm melting. I feel uncomfortable with the heat. I just have to adopt to these changes or else I will end up complaining and miserable. I notice that people around me have hot temper they easily get angry and flared up like a firecrackers. I don't have much time to think of them but it is getting on my nerves we are all getting affected somehow but we just got to take things as they happen and just accept it even if it is hard. I hope everything will be in peace soon. We just give them space and time to realized everything. The most important thing is that I'm not part of their war. I want to help them out to patch up things but I just can't. I'm hoping that things will work out fine soon.

Book Report: The Selfish Giant

Yesterday, I've read a beautiful story about a selfish giant. The story goes something like this. The selfish giant has a garden full of fruits, plants, flowers and trees. The children are playing in his garden every day until he decided not to allow the children to play in his garden. He posted a "No Trespassing" sign from that day on he built a wall in his garden. As time passed by, winter came but he wonders why in his garden the seasons never change. The trees and plants are all covered with snow. One day he heard a very sweet music outside his garden when he looks out he saw children laughing and playing. He still wonders why it is winter in his garden but outside his garden is already spring. He noticed a little boy who is trying to climb up the tree but he could not reach the tree. The tree bent and told him to reach hard so that he could climb up. The giant's heart melted of what he saw. He went out and helps the child to climb up the tree the child thanked and kissed him. He then realized how selfish he was for not letting the children play in his garden. He destroyed the walls he built and welcome the children in his garden. The seasons changed. He felt the happiness he never felt before. He search for the child for had help climb the tree but the children told him that they don't know the child. He felt sad of not seeing him again. As years go by the giant never again saw that child until one day he saw him but the giant got angry because when he saw the child there are wounds and bruises in his hands and feet. He asked the child who did that to you? I will take revenge on what they did to you. Then the child answered don't be mad, I'm ok these wounds and bruises are inflicted to me with great love. Come with me in paradise. In the afternoon when the children reach the garden they saw the giant who lay peacefully in his garden covered with flowers.

Where is the light?

I can't see a thing help me. I'm just joking. I feel really upset of experiencing brown out. I just got to live with it perhaps make it as a sacrifice for the poor souls in purgatory. I went out in the house without thinking that the whole block in our street is so dark yet I still manage to go home safe thank God for that. I still got more pending jobs to do. I'm thankful because I'm busy and I got a job. I always try to look into the brighter side of things now even if there are things that bothers me once in a while but it's just a part of it. These are just spices of life that makes our life more meaningful and challenging as well. I guess I got to enjoy all the brown out thing and including the warm climate. Like what I always say this too shall pass. Have a happy El Niño Phenomenon day.

The Situation To Deal With

The temperature is rising due to El Niño and brown out is the latest and hottest thing we experience here in CDO. People are fond of going to malls these days, eating their favorite ice cream, washing a bunch of clothes that will easily dried up without using driers, playing in the ground and some would not stop taking a bath because of so much heat. I wish I live in the North Pole. I keep on thinking of the best way to finish my work but I can't move that fast because of the warm scenario. I can't use the electric fan since its brown out. There is a problem on the power supply here in Mindanao. Until now I'm still waiting for the rain to come. I had to make a way to use the internet since brown out just popped like a jack-o-lantern in the house. I just got to go with the flow or else I'll end up complaining and feeling miserable for the rest of the day. I just got to adjust the way things are happening around me. I got to learn to have more patience in accepting that life is not that always easy. Whatever happens I must adjust to it for me to survive and to take things as light as it should be. Summer is fast approaching and I'm looking forward to my two months vacation. I should not be thinking of that for now because I still have a lot of work to do. Bye for now. Have a wonderful day ahead.

Love the teeth

I remember before when I was a kid. I always have some things that I love to do. I love to drink milk, play with my playmates and there is one thing I don't forget and that was. I always brush my teeth more than three times a day. I love to clean my mouth. I remember that I could almost consume one whole tube of tooth paste for one week. I don't know I love taking care of my teeth. Honestly there are two aches which I didn't experience and that is heartache due to break ups and toothache hehehe. I still got a healthy teeth until now. I'm thankful that I still have maintain to make my teeth healthy. The secret that I always do is that I never fail to brush my teeth everyday, I don't eat candies all the time (it's one of the rule my mother always reminded my yaya) but I eat chocolates and all the food I love to eat then after that I brush my teeth and I see to it that I have my yearly check up to my dentist. Love your teeth as I love mine. Have a happy weekend my friend.

Catching Up The Deadlines

I've been very busy lately. I still have pending jobs to be done but I know I will finish all of them today. I need to keep going because the school year is almost over. I'll be more busier next week than this week. I'm ok I'm not really tired but just sleepy. The school is going to end this March 31. Some kids are excited, some are not, and some just don't care. I do make sure they are all present for the whole month of March without unreasonable absences. Teachers got their training seminar for the electronic election. I'm not going to serve this coming election. I'm afraid that my pneumonia will strike again. I won't take any chances. Hospital bills are so expensive I can't afford to be sick. I got to go for now. I miss posting my thoughts. Have a nice day

Yes I'm Happy with my work

Our NSTP class area work ended today. It was so sad because it means we are saying goodbye to each other. I remember when I had my skills training for this batch of college students, I was kind of afraid that they might not listen or they might find me boring but I was wrong. They were very enthusiatic and excited for their area work. Indeed they were really good they did well in their tutorial session with the kids but of course difficulties are part of it and through that difficulties they encounter, they were able to learn how to adjust, adapt and experiment new ways how to capture the child's attention. I can relate to that because I teach kids and I work with them. Normally people get tired. Sometimes I am too inspired to do my work and sometimes not. Honestly, I get tired, frustrated and bored with my work I'm just human but I'm proud to say that I'm not giving up because giving up means I'm truly defeated. This is my mission in life and I have to fulfill it. All I can say is that I'm happy with my work. If I'm not I could have just resign, be a always absent even if I'm well and I could have always go to school super late. Everyday I tried hard to do my best for my kids and for the school. I work 6 days a week even if I had a choice just to have that 5 days of work. I recall then when I was working in a bank I really did miss the fun in school. Teaching is not only a profession but it is a vocation. I listed a lot of things that makes me happy but those things that I listed are just things I play, read, and do while I'm not working in school pretty ironic since the things I listed are the things that are not supposed to be brought in school. I make sure to relax and enjoy life to meet the balance. All work without play makes one dull and boring. Have a happy week my friend.

Ten Things That Makes Me Happy

Everybody's dream is to find the real happiness. It is one of our mission in life to search for our happiness. Through this Sweet Badge I have the opportunity to share the things that makes me happy. This Sweet Friends Badge was given to me by Vernz of In This Side of Town. Thank you so much Vernz for this because it reminds me of the things that makes me happy.
Here are the Ten Things That Makes Me Happy

1. My Family/Relatives

2. My Job

3. Friends-True Friends

4. PSP

5. Computer games

6. My favorite food

7. My eyeglasses

8. Books

9. Ballpen Collections

10. Latte Gadget

I'm passing this badge of Happiness to

Madz

Ate Amy

Cookie

Scribbler

Yen

Have a nice day everyone!

Ms. Bright Side Award

Not So Personal-madz gave me this award. Thank you very much madz for everything. You are one of my new friends here in the blog world. I wish you happiness in the world.

Instructions:
1. Give a top 10 list of the things that makes you happy.

1. books
2. computer
3. popcorn
4. chocolates
5. my old journals
6. PSP/computer games
7. Latte gadget
8. My Ballpens
9. Pizza
10.Cellphone

2. Give top 5 Trivia About Yourself

1. I'm SISA single and satisfied/NBSB no boyfriend since birth-endangered specie
2. I'm cute and chubby known as the baby in the group (innocent in tagalog tanga hahaha)
3. I love to read, sleep, eat and write anything I like.
4. I love to work with kids.
5. I'm a good cook, I love to play the guitar and My greatest dream is to work as a street educator someday.

3. Share the award with only 5 persons and ask them to do the same thing :)Now, I am passing/sharing this to:

Ate Amy
Vernz
Cookie
Gab's Mom
Scribbler

4. Link the blogs you choose and link the blog of the person awarded you.

I got dizzy thinking....

Hi it's been a week. I'm so busy doing a lot of things in school. I'm ok yet tired. My nieces got sick. I also got sick but feels like it's a natural thing in me whenever I get sick I'm already numb and capable of enduring the pain I'm feeling inside. I don't entertain the pain that I'm feeling I always put in mind that it's only in the mind. Kids get so excited for summer vacation they are trying to be so relaxed in their studies. I'm trying to be a little bit firm but kind to them right now in order that they will get good grades in the fourth quarter. I think it is working. I got to pray harder and think positive about it. I'm not giving up that some of these kids will grow up and be mature enough to be responsible in their studies. I wanted them to change their attitude to become better individuals in our society. I know change is difficult but I know maybe not tomorrow but someday these kids will realized the true importance of Education in their lives and they will find the true path they should take. I wish that they will not be lost in the end. Let them decide the right decisions and teach them to choose the best choices in life. I always have a thought about this, each and every one of us are all lucky in this world, it is in our decisions and choices in life makes us hits the jackpot. We are the writer of our own story, the captain of our ship and the one who holds our life. God has given us the freedom to choose but we must always remember our limitations. We must make good decisions and best choices in life and most importantly use our freedom correctly. My kids will soon be grown up I hope they will learn everything about life.

Love is

Yesterday was Hearts Day. My nanay and tatay had their yearly date. Me, I stayed at home and sleep all day. I was preparing also for the New Year. I stayed up late watching fireworks and just listening to some fire crackers. Some of my friends greeted me Happy Valentines Day. This made me think of some things about love. Love is a strong and a powerful thing in this world. It could hurt us, it can make us happy and above all it makes things possible no matter what. In love there is no impossible. If you have a little love in your heart be grateful because that love will save you someday but if you don't love at all in your heart it only indicates that one will become miserably unlucky in this world. Keep on loving and never get tired to give love. The more love you give the more blessings you will receive. Stay in love forever.

I'm here again

I've been keeping my thoughts for days now. We are adjusting to our new madam in school. She is kind a bit different from our former madam. She radiates her energy to us enormously. New changes are quite difficult to follow. It's hard but I think I like her style. She does challenges me to do my work on time and inspires me to go to school everyday even if I'm sick. I'm not winning her heart nor making myself notice at. I just wanted to do things right even if I'm already tired. I'm almost giving up. I'm still here and I have to continue my mission and fulfill my visions in life as a teacher. When the time is finally over then I could make my decisions and make it into reality. If my calling is really for teaching then I will pursue it no matter what. This is a dream come true to me. This my life now. I know quitting is not a best option. I must face my plight or else I'll keep running way from the things that I don't want to resolve and end up being a loser and someday these things will haunt me if I will allow myself to quit and waste everything I have worked for. I know regrets will always comes at the end. Before it's late, I make sure that I have enough power ups and energy to go on- prayers and faith in God is my weapon. Have a nice day my friend.

Tired Feeling

I feel so tired I don't know why to think that I didn't really do much today. The kids are naturally and normally playful as always. I don't like that I idea but its just the way they are. There are some things that I wanted to change but it's just not beyond my power. I just got to live with it or else I'm going to say goodbye to this noble job of mine. I got to stay focus on my job and do good with it. Trials, difficulties and obstacles are always a part of it. Sometimes I wanted to give up but I don't know what keeps me going. There is just something that keeps holding me back and controlling me to never ever give up. I hope I still could endure that difficulty and sacrifices I'm going through right now. As long as I'm still having that something I need to hold on to it and never ever letting go of it. God is not sleeping. I know He is always here in my side. Have a nice day my friend.

The Insane Woman

Last Sunday, I attended a mass at six o'clock in the evening. I was late so I stayed outside the church. Suddenly a woman went inside the church. She was wearing a brown knitted blouse. I used to see her walking around the church. One thing that stuck me was that she is a special person yet too ordinary to be noticed at. I saw a sad person in her. I wish I could help her. She might be smiling yet looking into her eyes I saw a suffering soul within her. then I realized that I saw myself in her. I'm moved to tears. I just then realized that I am as sad as her. I felt the pain in my heart. This woman is just one ordinary person. She always goes to church almost everyday I even thought she stays in the church. She is an insane woman who escapes from the pain she is feeling inside. People escape from pain. I for one tries to get rid of it, but I believe that running away and getting rid of the problems and pain is not a solution at all. Pretending to be fine would make the pain more painful. Being blind and apathetic would make one a numb person. Acceptance, humility, forgiveness and letting go would be the best thing that I always bear in mind. Acceptance of what happen, humility to accept what happen, to forgive those who hurt me and let go of the hurtful feelings I felt. We are all insane in this cruel world we live in but the only way to stick with our sanity is to trust in God and to be strong to every challenges, trials and difficulties we encounter in our way. I'm holding on to what I have right now. I keep on Loving those people who cared for me, Help those who need me and I always try to do my job well to make God happy and proud of me. Have a nice day. (",)